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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    27 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 91

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.

    Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.

    Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.

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    26 Mar 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 65

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    Shane meets Ilya in Tampa for closure – he knows he’s gay now, and also knows he wants something serious, committed, reliable. He’s ready to end things neatly and conclusively. Ilya is going to have to accept that.

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    25 Mar 2026

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    “Is Boston even interested.”

    Ilya scoffs at him like Shane is an idiot.

    “Is sky blue? Is water wet? Is English stupid language? Yes, Hollander, of course we want best player in the league.” Ilya mutters more in disgruntled Russian and Shane gets up off the couch to Google Russian lessons on his ipad while continuing their conversation.

     

    Or, a Shane goes to Boston story.

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    24 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 10

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    And at the occasional moments when Rosanov was asked what his inspiration was, he would quickly glance around the room and simply say he had a muse. A beautiful muse he kept drawing pure inspiration from. The way he said it was very easy too, too soft and too real. As if it were obvious as day. That this inspiration was so beautiful that anyone questioning where he draw imagination from was blind.
    More for him to soak up to anyways he would say, he didn't like to share at all. He liked to be the only recipient of this pure stream of sunshine.

    ☼Ilya Rozanov invites Shane Hollander to his house parties every week. Shane never shows up (except for that one time)

    ☼Shane hangs up a call sheet, looking to find male models for a nude painting he is drawing. (he finds that every other name is crossed out by the same pen that Ilya Rozanov's name is written)

    ☼Shane is very sure about the place he holds in Ilya's life. (and hates whoever the fuck his muse is)

    ☼Shane spends his life avoiding mess (apart from his holy devotion to a certain mess of curls and 'no tomorrows')

    AU: Where Shane and Ilya are students in a prestigious art university in Ontario

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    24 Mar 2026