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the void is in all of us. by justlookthroughme
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel
11 May 2025
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Bucky counts down his Top 40 worst memories and relives all of them.
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everything will look better in the morning (if we live to see it) by justlookthroughme
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America - All Media Types
03 Feb 2025
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The shield has sharp edges and Natasha worries Bucky would bleed out on it.
And Steve? Who knows what's wrong with Steve.Chapters are now complete!
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the sun don't shine anymore around here by justlookthroughme
Fandoms: Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel, Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
13 Feb 2023
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Natasha's latest assignment started out as a mission to make everyone believe a ghost was dead.
Because everyone knows that corpses never come back right.
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split me in half if it makes you feel better by justlookthroughme
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America - All Media Types
27 May 2020
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“That never happened with us and Pierce. Don't talk like this.”
Bucky seemed to have ran out of energy to speak.
“Wouldn’t I know if it did?" Natasha pressed on, desperation leaching into her voice.
“Maybe I wasn’t the only one made to forget things.”
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Cans of worms open from the good old forgotten days.
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- Part 3 of the serum was never why you were special
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ghosts and ghastly wounds by justlookthroughme
Fandoms: Captain America - All Media Types, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
19 Apr 2020
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“The both of you look awfully alike, you know, when Pierce was in his prime.”
Steve stewed in silence. The implication laid heavy in the air. “Nat, did Pierce ever...”
Natasha nodded.
“That was why he was so disgusted with me?”
Natasha nodded again.
“Jesus.”
Natasha weighed her words carefully before she spoke again. “Pierce would demand to be called by your name.”
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Natasha said something wrong and it took Bucky all the way back to hell.Series
- Part 2 of the serum was never why you were special
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the serum was never why you were special by justlookthroughme
Fandom Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
27 May 2020
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Bucky loses the serum, adapts to a life without it, and takes advantage of the lack of it to hurt himself while navigating between Natasha, Steve, and the ghost of Alexander Pierce all in a trilogy.
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After Frank’s drunk confessions, Gerard makes some plans which he’s sure Frank will appreciate.
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25 May 2025
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Remember how once we were. A moment. Remember?
“Take it off for me.” His voice was raspy and low, as if struggling for breath. As if he actually needed any. “Show me.”
Bookmarked by justlookthroughme
25 Jan 2025
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Lock the Fire Escapes by ghostlygun
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
11 Oct 2021
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One of the most fascinating observations Rumlow had made over the years was that the Asset never cried from pain, only from exhaustion. And there was nothing like seeing it on the floor, the mighty Winter Soldier, the world’s most feared assassin, shaking and sobbing and breathing in tiny little sniffles.
Or: A special Winter Soldier training session.
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29 Dec 2024
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The Words You Choked On by EnglishHorrorStory
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies)
08 Oct 2025
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The Asset knows that Steve has read the Handlers Guidebook, so why is Steve such an inept Handler? Handlers do not cry when they are supposed to dole out punishments, especially when the Asset is so deserving of it.
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- 39/?
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29 Dec 2024
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Post CA:TWS, Rumlow finds Bucky before he can fully get his memories back.
Do not expect anything of redeeming value from this piece of fanfiction. It's just going to be garbage.
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- English
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- 64,582
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Bookmarked by justlookthroughme
19 Dec 2024