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    As Robby lifts his shirt up, Dennis is overcome with the need to bury his face in his armpit until he passes out. The gold chain with its Star of David that he always wears rests just below his collar. As Robby strips off, Dennis allows himself a longing look.

    Yeah, Dennis admits to himself, he’s down pretty bad.

    He’s certain that the fishing trips his brothers took with their dad didn’t have this additional complication – that of the man taking them being so hot they’d want to cry. Trinity’s comment, ‘daddy wants to take you to the woodshed,’ bounces around in Dennis’s head.
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    Robby takes Dennis out on a fishing trip. Neither of them expected it to end this way.

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    19 Dec 2025

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    Robby has gone from barely being able to watch to not wanting to even blink. He can’t keep his eyes from darting down to where Whitaker’s thighs grip the saddle, how he slides forwards on it with every downward bow of the bull and back as it pushes up. Again and again and again, he rolls with the mechanical bull with a single circular fluid motion.

    It crosses his mind that this might be one of the hottest things he’s ever seen. He doesn’t even try to unpack that thought, it doesn’t even feel like an opinion he can change. It’s just a fact. Whitaker on the mechanical bull is one of the hottest things he’s ever seen.

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    It’s Javadi’s twenty-first birthday party and the Pitt team hit the cowboy themed bar downtown. Whitaker gets on the mechanical bull.

    One thing leads to another.

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    27 Nov 2025

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    “Yes,” she says. “Because he was flirting with you and he knows it, and now he’s panicking like a Victorian maiden who accidentally saw an ankle.”

    Dennis stares, stunned. “He wasn’t—”

    She lifts a brow.

    He swallows. The memory of the car ride flashes through him—Robby’s hand on his thigh, squeezing for half a moment, and the way he smiled, flustered.

    “Oh,” he murmurs, realization sinking with somewhat of a dullness in his chest.

    Santos beams like a proud parent. “There it is.”

    Or, some boundaries are crossed, and both Dennis and Robby are freaking out about it.

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    09 Nov 2025

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    Dennis hears the revving of a motorbike engine, disturbing his reverie and making him frown. It’s late — who in their right mind is out driving around on a motorbike? He waits for it to pass, so he can slip back into thinking about Robby and dinner and what they might do after dinner, when the engine cuts out. Dennis lifts his head, eyes opening, taking a second to adjust—

    “Need a ride?” Robby asks him, holding out a spare helmet to Dennis. "Jack told me you only just left.”

    He steps forward, taking the helmet from Robby. “So you’ve been spying on me?” 

    “The whole time I’ve been gone.” Robby nods, as Dennis swings himself onto the back of the bike. He winds his arms around Robby’s waist, tucks himself in against his back, and contents himself with the familiar warmth of his body as Robby starts the bike up again.

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    In October, Robby comes home. Dennis tries to decide what that means for them both.

    A sequel to In a room full of people, I look for you

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    28 Oct 2025

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    Dennis’ family have all met their soulmates, no muss, no fuss. Just love. He’s sure it’ll be the same way for him, even as he leaves the farm to go to medical school. Why wouldn’t it be?

    Robby does not want a soulmate. He spent his years in medical school filled with anticipation just for it to never come, leaving him hurt and spiteful, so why should he continue to wait any longer?

    a ‘first words spoken’ au in which robby is an angsty mess and takes it out on dennis

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    23 Oct 2025