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  1. Public Bookmark 4

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    Being triplets, you get asked a lot of stupid questions, no one ever before had tested the theory though. Nor has Chris ever been punched before because a drunk guy wanted to see if Matt would feel it.

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    16 Dec 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 11

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    A study on Nick being Chris’ big brother.

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    08 Dec 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 14

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    Brothers fight. It was normal, especially for them. They fought, they made up, they fought again. There was something about this one, though, that was different. There was something different in Nick's tone as he shot barb after barb at Matt early that night when they were making their latest car video. There was something different about the almost flippant way Chris was treating him. The aftermath of this fight was different, and Matt wanted to fix it, needed to fix it. They were his brothers, his triplets. His whole reasons for living.

     

    He made everything worse.

     

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    After a brutal fight between himself and his brothers, Matt Sturniolo decides the best thing for himself and them is to run. He uses the generous amount of money he had thankfully been saving from his portion of their Youtube money and he moves to New York to start over away from his family, away from Nick and Chris.

    Four years later, Nick and Chris have left their Youtube careers behind, Nick now a hotshot movie editor and Chris a music producer. They find themselves in New York for a premiere of one of Nick's projects, and by chance see a face they only see when looking in a mirror -

    Matt’s.

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    07 Dec 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 8

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    "matty, you were dead, you died"

     


    chris has a nightmare, but matt is there to comfort his little brother.

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    06 Dec 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 30

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    Matt’s triplet brothers avoid him, too busy chasing YouTube and being best friends with eachother to notice his bruises. Or his crippling undiagnosed anxiety.

    Matt hides the physical abuse he endures from hockey—and all of himself—believing his brothers will dismiss it as just his “Mattitude.”

    One day the truth comes out and forces Nick and Chris to face how far apart they’ve really grown from Matt, and just how much he had to suffer alone for years.

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    Matt’s hockey team uses him as a punching bag and he lets them, thinking that it’s the only way to belong somewhere.

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    02 Nov 2025