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    Are you there, God? It's me, Brendon by

    Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco  

    17 Mar 2014

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    Boarding school AU which has nothing to do with the Judy Blume novel at all. Brendon agrees to try boarding school when the bullying at his current school becomes too much to handle - but dealing with Ryan Ross might just be worse.

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    30 Aug 2026

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    The Ones You Call Home by

    Fandoms: Bandom, Panic At The Disco  

    05 Jan 2011

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    09 Aug 2026

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    i love this fucking fic

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    give me envy, give me malice (give me your attention) by

    Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco  

    12 Jun 2026

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    Brendon Urie is seriously fucked, and he hates himself for it.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    It'll Be Different This Time by

    Fandoms: The Heart Rate of a Mouse Series - Anna Green  

    25 Feb 2023

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    “Look, Ryan,” she says after a second, clearly deciding to stop beating around the bush. “I’m sorry about… everything. God, I shouldn't have left you there, I know that. I was young and it was a mistake. I wish I hadn’t. Every day I wish I hadn’t done that to you.”

    “Well, you did.” The line goes quiet again as she waits to see if I say anything else. I debate hanging up, but since we’re talking about it now I might as well ask what I wanted to ask. “Why?” My voice comes out more hurt than angry, and I hate that, but I try to ignore it, setting my jaw tighter like I’m bracing for something. I am, I guess. I’m bracing for a hit I know is coming. That’s pretty ironic, considering if she had taken me with her I might not be so good at that.

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    I had this realization that Ryan's mom and half siblings are still out there somewhere, and I thought, "hey, that could be interesting! Maybe Ryan would want to talk to her now that he's older and his dad's gone." Then it got way longer and more emotional than I expected, and I took a few liberties with the characters, but whatever. Here's about 20,000 words of Ryan (and me, vicariously) unpacking some feelings about family.

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    The Heart Rate of a Mouse by

    Fandom The Heart Rate of a Mouse Series - Anna Green

    29 Apr 2012

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    30 Nov 2025