8 Bookmarks by rotlesque
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Boarding school AU which has nothing to do with the Judy Blume novel at all. Brendon agrees to try boarding school when the bullying at his current school becomes too much to handle - but dealing with Ryan Ross might just be worse.
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30 Aug 2026
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give me envy, give me malice (give me your attention) by vampyrecrush
Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco
12 Jun 2026
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Brendon Urie is seriously fucked, and he hates himself for it.
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30 Jul 2026
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It'll Be Different This Time by horrificaesthetic
Fandoms: The Heart Rate of a Mouse Series - Anna Green
25 Feb 2023
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“Look, Ryan,” she says after a second, clearly deciding to stop beating around the bush. “I’m sorry about… everything. God, I shouldn't have left you there, I know that. I was young and it was a mistake. I wish I hadn’t. Every day I wish I hadn’t done that to you.”
“Well, you did.” The line goes quiet again as she waits to see if I say anything else. I debate hanging up, but since we’re talking about it now I might as well ask what I wanted to ask. “Why?” My voice comes out more hurt than angry, and I hate that, but I try to ignore it, setting my jaw tighter like I’m bracing for something. I am, I guess. I’m bracing for a hit I know is coming. That’s pretty ironic, considering if she had taken me with her I might not be so good at that.
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I had this realization that Ryan's mom and half siblings are still out there somewhere, and I thought, "hey, that could be interesting! Maybe Ryan would want to talk to her now that he's older and his dad's gone." Then it got way longer and more emotional than I expected, and I took a few liberties with the characters, but whatever. Here's about 20,000 words of Ryan (and me, vicariously) unpacking some feelings about family.
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13 Jun 2026
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The Heart Rate of a Mouse by beggarsnotes
Fandom The Heart Rate of a Mouse Series - Anna Green
29 Apr 2012
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30 Nov 2025
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Like Suicide, Only Softer by orphan_account for Leathermouth
Fandoms: Bandom, Panic! at the Disco
18 Dec 2012
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When eighteen-year-old Brendon Urie is admitted to a mental hospital, he is forced to deal with his many issues, along with his schizophrenic roommate, Ryan.
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24 Nov 2025
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Paper Chase by foxxcub
Fandoms: Bandom, Panic! at the Disco, Fall Out Boy, Empires (Band)
04 Sep 2019
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Spencer texted Ryan on his way back to the dorm, I'm now officially a Christmas Correspondent for Walker's charity.
A minute later he got back: lolololol.
(A college AU where Spencer is a journalism major and Jon is the guy who made his life hell in high school.)
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03 Nov 2025
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21 Aug 2025