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Finally, Orym speaks. A hushed confession, not trembling but not quite steady either. “I feel so tired, Dorian.”
A few months ago, Dorian would not have understood. Would have tried. Would have known, at least, that Orym does not mean that he’d like to sleep. Now he knows more than that. Knows it is a physical exhaustion tied to something heavier, more whole. Bone deep in the sense that the marrow is where love lives, achy in the sense that the marrow is where loss lives, too.
Tired from the restlessness of trying to fill something that will always be hollowed.
His answer now is the same as it would have been then. “Rest awhile,” he murmurs. “I’ll carry it for you.”
How does one lay down a sword? How does one forgive the unforgiveable? How does one love things that are bound to leave? Orym is meant to have the answers and he doesn’t. Dorian won’t ask him the questions, anyways.
The days after were easy but the year after aches. They face it together, just the same.
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in hell the units are the gallon and the fuck by shineforthee
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
29 Oct 2025
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Survival is an artform.
Armand has been an unwilling student, an eager acolyte, a master of the craft.The things he feels can be broken down into component parts. Can be simplified into anatomic essentials, the series of processes required to make him something that functionally resembles the likeness of man. Sensation without thought. Water-damp brushstrokes dragging across a canvas with no paint. No color. No light.
Leaving Dubai was an act of necessity, arriving anywhere else an act of apathy.
In which Daniel attempts to make sense of the past and Armand attempts to do whatever the opposite of that is.
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oh, where did the time go? by shineforthee
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
28 Oct 2025
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Daniel is painfully nonchalant the first time he brings it up. Hardly more than a distracted aside while they’re walking past a hospice home.
“You know I don’t want to live forever, right?”
Armand has a tongue, has vocal chords. Has lungs that expand, a diaphragm that can force air. Has everything he needs and still, sound does not bend to his will. He’s fairly certain he was moving, was holding Daniel’s hand, but now—
“Ah shit, that’s not—”
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Such Unfortunates by SheOfBadIdeas, shineforthee
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
07 Feb 2025
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Who of us had not loved something or somebody? How much did these feelings, these loves, these worships, have to do with pure reason? Little or nothing, we saw at last. Were not these things the tissue out of which our lives were constructed? Did not these feelings, after all, determine the course of our existence? It was impossible to say we had no capacity for faith, or love, or worship. In one form or another we had been living by faith and little else.
from The Big Book by William G. Wilson and Robert H. Smith, Chapter 4: We Agnostics
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Armand and Daniel on living by more than faith.
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Daniel sees life like a river. Thinks he is caught up in a current that only goes one way, that will eventually sweep him out to sea. It’s easier for him to think so. It keeps him alive to think so.
He doesn’t know that he could stand up and reach the bottom. He doesn’t know he has a choice.
Drugs don’t work, sex doesn’t work, New York hasn’t worked. Somewhere in the Appalachian Mountains, an improbable number of suicides have taken place. Somewhere in a bar in New York, Daniel hears about them. He wants to fill a void. The difference between what is real and what isn’t matters as little to him as the things he’ll find to throw into the darkness. Which, as it turns out, is quite a lot.
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How does one lay down a sword? How does one forgive the unforgiveable? How does one love things that are bound to leave? Orym is meant to have the answers and he doesn’t. Dorian won’t ask him the questions, anyways.
The days after were easy but the year after aches. They face it together, just the same.
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and that is the longing / and this is the book by shineforthee
Fandom Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
29 Oct 2025
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“You doing all right?” Daniel asks him.
Armand blinks. “No,” he says.
“Most honest you've been with me since I got here,” Daniel says. And then, because it seems like the thing to do, “I can clear out, if you need the place to yourself.”
“Whatever you prefer.” Armand's lips look chapped. Dehydration? He ate the kid with the sunglasses, but the smear he left took a lot of bleach to scrub away. Maybe Daniel should - “You won't be harmed,” Armand says, “regardless of your decision.”
“You got served divorce papers so hard it left a crater,” Daniel says, “and you're still poking around in people's heads.”
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- Part 1 of the polycule has a max occupancy
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Daniel groans and covers his eyes with the heels of his hands. “Fuck. I didn’t mean for it to happen like that.”
“Like…that?” Armand repeats.
“Yeah. Aw, man!” Daniel groans again.
“But you did mean for it to happen?”
“What?” Daniel lowers his hands and looks at Armand.
“You meant to kiss me.”
In which Armand and Daniel’s first kiss doesn’t go how Daniel had imagined it.
Vampire Fest Bloody Valentine prompts ‘first kiss’ and ‘fucked-up gothic romance’
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care and keeping by katplanet for ImpishTubist
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
22 Jul 2024
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Louis shakes his head. “And now he's got you stepping on him.”
Daniel picks his drink up and necks the last half of it. “I have not,” he says, “stepped on him, as of yet.”
“But you want to.”
“I think so?” Daniel puts the empty glass back on the table and scoots it out of their immediate limb radius. “I think I could want to. I want to want to.”
“There you go,” Louis says, “tell him that. That'll set the mood.”
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12 Jul 2024
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The briefing was simple: ‘Stand guard over the Michael Sword until the battle is ready to commence. Await further instructions.’
Castiel doesn’t mind working security duty; he was briefed shortly after the initial salvation of the Sword from the pit, and again before taking up his position. He knows what to do. However, it’s easy to forget that the green room isn’t real. Time moves differently there, the space ever-changing to make a prison of mountains, cathedrals, salt flats, orchards, and whatever Castiel was led to believe about Heaven’s greatest weapon—Dean Winchester is something entirely unexpected.
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That's the Thrill by pagan_of_the_good_times for shineforthee
Fandoms: Daisy Jones & The Six - Taylor Jenkins Reid, Daisy Jones & The Six (TV)
29 Jul 2023
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Starting in Episode 5, this story is told from Billy's POV and will diverge more from canon as it goes on. The focus is on Billy's interiority and his struggles to be honest with himself about how he feels and what he wants.
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29 Jun 2023