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    “Am I a bad friend?”

    Hayden has always been the guy Shane joked with, the guy he trusted to feed him without mocking him, the guy he roomed with on the road, and Shane is the only man who has ever seen Hayden cry, and Hayden loves Shane. He fucking loves him. They are like brothers, and they have been for almost ten fucking years. He’s always been Shane’s guy, Shane’s best friend.

    Except all along, maybe that wasn’t true. Ilya Rozanov, apparently, had been the guy. Before Hayden had ever met Shane, Ilya Rozanov had been there. And Hayden had never even noticed.

    Shane is all over every inch of Hayden’s life. Hayden thought that was reciprocal.
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    “You know I think about you all the time,
    And my deep misunderstanding of your life,
    And how bad it must have been for you back then,
    And how hard it was to keep it all inside.”

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Hayden has loved Shane Hollander for years, not romantically, not in ways that crossed lines, but in the steady, unshakeable way best friends do. Shane was there for the life Hayden built with Jackie, there when everything fell apart, and there afterward, when grief made even breathing feel like work.

    Ilya Rozanov has always been part of that orbit too: Shane’s husband, sharp-tongued and observant, loving in ways that are louder and fiercer than Hayden ever expected to need. Where Shane offers quiet constancy, Ilya offers insistence, on joy, on honesty, on not disappearing into loss.

    What begins as shared responsibility, school pickups, late nights, standing in kitchens that still remember Jackie, becomes something more fragile and more deliberate. No one is trying to replace what Hayden lost. Jackie’s love remains woven into their lives, into the children they are raising together. But grief shifts, and the space it leaves behind makes room for something new.

    Together, Shane, Ilya, and Hayden learn that love can expand without erasing the past. That family can be chosen, reshaped, and rebuilt. And that sometimes the deepest connections are the ones that have been there all along waiting to be named.

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    07 Jan 2026

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    Hi Mr. Hayden,

    We’re pretty sure you’ve never noticed, so you might find this funny. Over the years, a few of us have been piecing together the Rozanov-Hollander saga from your fanmails.

    In mine, Ilya Rozanov was chatting in Russian in the background saying some very colorful things about someone's something.

    For a second, I actually wondered if he was your secret lover. But at this point, aren’t we all just second-guessing?

    or: Hayden Pike finally realizes he never actually double-checked any of his videos

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    05 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 6

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    If she did encounter anyone she knew, what would they have to say to her? What would she say in return? What did you say when you returned to your razed hometown, when the choices of your mother and sister had inadvertently led to the destruction?

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    Imogen and Quinn take a walk through Aretia during Iron Flame.

    Inspired by Noah Kahan's "The View Between Villages" and thinking too much about one's hometown during the holidays

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    30 Nov 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 11

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    Fuck the mnemosyne rune and all that comes with it; amnesia is bliss, else her mother wouldn’t have come running to her with the family jewels, corroded beyond repair, beyond beauty.

    (Isabelle, unwrapped.)

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    02 Nov 2025