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burn the straw house down by rarakiplin (gmontys) for catchingpapermoons
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
05 Sep 2022
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“Why the fuck are you even in this loop? This day isn’t about you.”
“Well, I die,” Eddie comments idly, not sounding as offended as he maybe should be. “Haven’t you heard? I’m always dying.”
“That’s not funny.”
Eddie shrugs, not really agreeing or disagreeing. It’s a few seconds before he says, eyes still closed, “Maybe I’m here so you’re not alone.”
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or, buck gets stuck in time, has a break down and then, relatedly, a break through
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- 2/2
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07 Sep 2022
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eddie's not entirely sure he believes in getting help, at least not for himself. there's only so much healing to be had for a body torn apart by bullets, for a mind that's only half there, for a man who's been leaving pieces of himself behind all his life with nothing to take their place.
except, as it turns out, falling apart happens in increments, and healing does, too: it happens when you gnaw a hole in your lip trying to keep quiet only to have the words escape; when you realize that the ghost you've been seeing out of the corner of your eye is yourself; when your best friend smiles, and you allow it to take your breath away.
it happens through the smallest of things: bird feeders, and cacti, and pasta shapes.
meanwhile, the world goes on.
(or: the entity often affectionately referred to as the unrepression fic.)
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- Part 1 of tell me about despair
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- English
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- 148,982
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- 5/5
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03 Sep 2022
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Buck develops a relationship with the ocean, avoids talking about the day Eddie was shot, realizes he might be in love, and drives.
Order may vary.
(a fic for the "Buck is going to break all the way down in season 6" truthers)
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- English
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- 3/3
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- 292
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29 Aug 2022
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One day, Buck will tell an interviewer that he would be happy to make movies with Eddie Diaz until the day he dies.
But first, years before that, he sees Eddie for the first time on the set of Chimney’s fifth movie.
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or, the actors au
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- English
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- 130,340
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- 6/6
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27 Aug 2022
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there’s an ache in you (put there by the ache in me) by calvingseason
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
07 Jun 2022
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“You know why, Mads,” Buck says. “I can’t—I can’t just come back and pretend that nothing happened. That I didn’t betray everyone’s trust.”
“But they forgive you,” Maddie says, and she frowns into the camera, lips pinching together. “You know they forgive you, right?”
And Buck—he does know, knows that they forgave him the moment he apologized, but the thing is—
The thing is, Buck isn’t quite sure he forgives himself yet.
or, after the lawsuit, buck returns to los angeles to see maddie. seeing eddie too—well, that’s just inevitable.
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- 7,885
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- 1/1
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Bookmarked by softandreil
21 Aug 2022
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“Diaz?”
The man — and it is Eddie Diaz, Buck can’t not see it now — blinks, and in a split second his expression shutters closed. “Buckley.”
Buck wonders if he looks different without Diaz’s blood on his face.
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or, eddie and buck meet each other at rock bottom
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- 5,394
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- 1/1
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Bookmarked by softandreil
21 Aug 2022
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“I could think of worse curses,” Bobby says, suddenly popping up behind Buck's back only to lean over his shoulder and steal the last donut hole. “You live in the same building, Buck. You're going to see each other. Maybe you should embrace it and actually talk to him.”
Buck closes his eyes, just for a minute. He has the beginnings of a headache knocking at the back of his head, probably from lack of sleep, and he kind of detests that he even notices it. That it's tripping him up a little.
“And say what, Cap?” he asks. “Hey, I'm Buck, sorry you keep meeting my one night stands?”
“Mm,” Bobby shrugs, chewing as he makes his way into the kitchen. Buck does not like the look in his eyes. “Maybe you should stop having those first.”
in which buck sleeps around for healthy reasons, and thinks about his next-door neighbor a healthy amount.
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21 Aug 2022
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Eddie Diaz is not jealous. It is entirely normal to be annoyed that his best friend is busy flirting in the middle of a crisis. Obviously.
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21 Aug 2022
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“I don’t know what you’re talking about, Bobby,” Buck bites out. “He took three months off. Saw a physical therapist. Did a few sessions with Frank. Clearly, he’s doing great.”
Bobby chews his lip. “If you’re sure,” he says finally. “He just looked a little off at that car crash, is all.”
“I would have noticed,” Buck insists. “It’s Eddie. I would’ve noticed.”
Or, healing doesn't happen in tandem
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- English
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- 70,393
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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Bookmarked by softandreil
19 Aug 2022
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Becoming “hook-up buddies” with Lance Sanchez was just supposed to be a small, insignificant fraction of Keith’s life. But of course, things don’t work out that way at all.
aka a Friends w/ Benefits AU that nobody asked for where Lance wears sleeveless hoodies, plays basketball in abandoned parking lots, and follows his dreams, and Keith comes from a high class, reputable family who never let him have any dreams of his own. They go home with each other and don't expect it to matter until it totally does.
Keith POV and Lance POV
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- English
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- 14/14
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Bookmarked by softandreil
10 Dec 2017
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Lance is 100%, without a doubt, straight. He has the perfect girlfriend and has never wanted anything more. But suddenly his world is being turned upside down by the boy playing the drums at his local bar--a boy who happens to be very good looking, very gay, and very very interested in Lance.
aka: Good-Boy Lance has a crisis when he meets Keith because he's so damn attractive, and Keith is a little ho that is way too promiscuous and open about his sexuality. The become friends. Confusion and sexual tension ensue.
- Language:
- English
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- 50,188
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- 11/11
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- 6
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- 766
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Bookmarked by softandreil
10 Dec 2017