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    Shane tells himself, on the nights when one or both of them is traveling, on the nights when they can’t be together, that he is okay with Ilya doing what he needs to do. To keep his body active, his mind calm. To be able to love Shane without resentment.

    He’s almost able to convince himself he believes it.

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    Shane thinks they have an unspoken agreement for a one-sided open relationship (on Ilya's side). When Ilya suggests that Shane might want to sleep with other men, Shane panics. Sad boy antics ensue.

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    10 May 2026

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    Shane becomes increasingly convinced that something is wrong when his usually intense sex life with Ilya suddenly slows down. With no clear explanation and plenty of time to spiral, he jumps to the worst conclusions about being unwanted and boring.
    One dramatic spiral and one honest conversation later and they’re fine, just mildly exasperated and very much still obsessed with each other.

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    08 May 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    Shane has been avoiding Troy for months. Ilya and Troy finally find out why.

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    01 May 2026

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    Ilya tries to get Shane to be friends with Troy. It goes horribly.

    AKA Shane crashes out at Troy

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    01 May 2026

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    Ilya often enjoys teasing Shane with a certain concept, but Shane knows Ilya is far too jealous of a man, actually, to commit to this idea he likes to throw around, and Shane would never agree to it because he only has eyes for one man.

    A threesome.

    The idea is a threesome.

    Or: how hollanov can ethically, monogamously, have a threesome.

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    01 May 2026