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“What do you want me to do?” Remus says, tiredly. All he wants is to curl up on his bed. Smoke a pack of cigarettes. Get drunk. He can’t stop looking at Harry.
“Remus...” Dumbledore is gentle. Remus hates when he has that tone. Hates that he knows it will hurt. “There is no one else left.”
A bitter laugh escapes him. “So you’ll curse the poor thing with a werewolf for a guardian?”
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Remus stared across the room and didn't recognize the kid sitting at his kitchen table. His curls flat and his eyes sunken in, skin pale and clammy. That was not his boy.
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The ups and downs and ups and downs of addiction.
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castles crumbling by rweoutofthewoods for rsbarelle
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
10 Jul 2023
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For Christmas one year, James Potter gives Regulus Black a small coin affixed to a necklace so they can communicate. At seventeen, as water fills his lungs, in a cave filled with inferi, Regulus reaches for it.
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Regulus gasped against James’s lips, the sudden kiss washing over him in a blazing rush. James kissed him like it mattered. Like if he could just push in close enough, bite Regulus’s lip hard enough, then maybe he could transfer whatever words he always swallowed down. Regulus never really knew what the intensity meant, I love you or I hate you.
Don’t hate me. Don’t hate me.
Regulus wanted to scream. He wanted to beg James to spit it out, to simply tell Regulus whatever he was really thinking. At the same time, Regulus wasn’t sure he could handle it. If James Potter ever hated him, Regulus thought he’d be sick with it. He thought he’d never get out of bed again.
So, Regulus didn’t ask, he’d never ask.
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03 Feb 2025
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chew me up, but don’t spit me out by damagecontrol (microdamage)
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
08 Aug 2024
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Regulus has it all figured out. He keeps men on a rotating roster so none can get too close, works nights as a dancer to make the most of his chronic insomnia, and pushes everything he doesn’t want to remember about the past ten years into the recesses of his mind. It’s easier to pretend none of it ever happened.
But when James Potter crashes into Regulus’ life with his fancy sports car, wealth beyond measure, and devil’s smile, it marks a switch in the natural order of things. James is a client; Regulus isn’t allowed to fall in love with him. Except James is the first man in a long time who can see past Regulus’ carefully constructed façade, and who could ever resist the temptation of being known?
Or, this is a story about identity, addiction, self-expression, and love in all of the varying shapes they can take.
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"That's why I was here. I was going to stand right here, and I was going to try to convince myself to do it, or not to do it, and– and that night, the whole walk up those stairs, I couldn't– I couldn’t think of a single thing. I couldn’t find a reason not to. It was like my mind was empty, and I was thinking that– that if I got up here and my head was still empty, then I'd do it. That's why I came up here. And then you–” James took a long, shuddering breath. “You were in my spot.” He couldn’t help but laugh. It was a terrible sound.
“That’s why you said that,” Regulus breathed, and it was like it was punched out of him. “You… you were… I thought that was a joke.” His voice was thready. James still didn’t have the heart to look up at him. He felt like he wasn’t really there.
“Everyone did,” he shook his head. “It was always a joke.”
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or, Regulus learns he and James have more in common than he thought
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