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    “Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”

    He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–

    But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.

    No.

    No.

    They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–

    Oh god, they’d kill him.
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    A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    “You miss your mommy, Rozanov?”
    “Not as much as I miss yours.”

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    Starting when he's 13, a series of looks into Ilya's relationship with his parents.

    Also featuring an answer to the famous question 'What did Ilya and David talk about while Shane was talking to Yuna?'

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Until the nights stretched longer and longer, when the tightness returned to his chest, heavy and familiar. Until he started waking up with the sense that something was wrong even when everything looked right.

    Shane slept beside him, steady and sure, breathing deep and even.
    Ilya lay awake, staring at the ceiling, one hand pressed over the gold band on his finger like an anchor.

    He had everything he’d ever wanted. And still, somewhere deep in his bones, he felt the dark beginning to stir again.

    or, during Shane's first season playing in Ottawa, Ilya's mental health begins to decline.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    09 Feb 2026

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    Harris Drover has always known his heart was borrowed time.
    The mechanical valve clicking in his chest is a constant reminder: every day is a gift. So he lives loudly, loves fully, and never wastes a single moment with the grumpy, beautiful hockey player who learned to smile because of him.

    When the Ottawa Centaurs' plane goes down in the Canadian wilderness, Harris is trapped beneath the wreckage—alone, dying, calling for help that doesn't come. And when someone finally finds him, it isn't Troy.

    Troy arrives too late to say goodbye.

    A companion piece to "I Will Always Come Back", telling the plane crash from Troy and Harris's perspective. A story about borrowed time, words left unspoken, and the love that endures even when we don't.

    "Tell him I love him. Tell him it was worth it. Every single moment."

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    04 Feb 2026