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Keep out the stars, turn out the lights by utterdesperation
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
24 Oct 2025
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‘I am to do the work of two while you disgrace yourself on the shores of a pleasure planet?’
‘I will resume my duties when I return. You don’t have to pick up my slack.’
‘What can you possibly do for five whole days?’
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Hux goes on shore leave, desperate to debase himself. Ren follows and upturns all his plans. Hux knows Ren will ruin him.
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- Part 2 of I wanna do bad things to you
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One of us is gonna lose by utterdesperation
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
16 Sep 2025
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‘I’ve something to show you, General,’ Ren says.
Hux’s stomach rolls. Ren is up to something devious.
His unease is warranted when the holo bursts forth in front of him—it’s them. Very specifically, it’s he and Ren in bed, undressed and entangled.
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Ren shows Hux a holo of them making love to prove a point. Hux is mortified. Blow jobs ensure, of course.
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- Part 1 of I wanna do bad things to you
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But I want it, it's a crime by utterdesperation
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
07 Feb 2024
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‘I was about to make hot chocolate before I came out,’ Finn says, avoiding Poe’s gaze. ‘Don’t suppose you’d wanna come and have a mug?’
He phrases it like he’s expecting no, and really, Poe should say no. For Finn’s sake.
‘I do like a good hot chocolate,’ Poe says instead. It’s cold as hell, and he’s been itching for a warm drink all night.
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Poe reunites with Finn while out on patrol and he gets caught up in his feelings for this handsome young man.
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Into the empty parts of me by utterdesperation
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
05 Aug 2023
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‘Rey,’ Finn says, standing in front of her, filling her vision.
Oh.
She sucks in another deep, but less-rattling breath. She’s still on the ship. Reality (actual reality—not Force-bond, space-bending reality) crashes into her, filling her insides like the tide coming in. She doesn’t remember how she got to the galley but here she is. Finn, as bright a moon on a clear night, smiles, awkwardly, hesitantly.
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Rey isn't doing okay but luckily Finn is there to helpSeries
- Part 1 of My dearest love, I'm not done yet
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And, lover, be good to me by utterdesperation
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
30 Jul 2023
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‘The caf is only for if I fail to convince you to go to bed.’
‘How’re you gonna do that?’ Poe asks, swallowing a yawn. He can’t prove Finn’s point for him.
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Poe is up late and Finn needs to wrangle him to bed
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- Part 3 of My dearest love, I'm not done yet
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I wanna do bad things to you by utterdesperation
Fandom Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
24 Oct 2025
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my kylux fics, roughly canon-compliant, Hux pov
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If there’s blood on my hands, you should let me know by utterdesperation
Fandom Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
07 Feb 2024
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modern au with vigilante poe fighting crime in canto bight
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My dearest love, I'm not done yet by utterdesperation
Fandom Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
05 Aug 2023
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Jedistormpilot and adjcent fics. Mostly following canon.
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Ever since he became Valentino’s toy boy, Angel Dust hasn't gotten a single break—and it's taken a turn for the worse since the battle against Heaven's Exorcists left the Overlord elite reeling, and the three Vees thirsty for more power that they can now seize.
As Alastor's obedient pet, Husk's afterlife has been an absolute bitch thus far, and the powerlessness brought on by his shackles makes it hard to breathe most days.
Things did get a bit better as the two of them started to grow closer, and Angel decided to slow down with his addiction. But the small refuge that they are for each other falls apart like a house on cards after Angel throws caution to the wind to save a young sinner from Valentino's smoke and mirrors. Now Valentino is hell-bent on making Angel Dust's afterlife even worse for him, and Husk knows that he can't leave Angel to fend for himself for the rest of his forever. No matter how high a cost Alastor's help might come at, the only way out might be through, and if there's something to be said about these two losers is that they won't go down without a fight.
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- Part 1 of The Uses Of Adversity
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Bookmarked by utterdesperation
02 Mar 2024
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After Pryde discovers the identity of the spy, he decides that killing Hux would be too simple. Instead, Pryde sells Hux to human traffickers and enjoys the thought of what will be done to him.
In the midst of horrific abuse inflicted on Hux’s body and mind, he stops thinking about rescue.
But rescue comes—in the form of his worst enemy and his greatest love.
Will Hux find a way back to himself after everything he’s been through? Will Kylo find a way forward to be the person Hux needs him to be? It’s possible—but it won’t be easy.
No, it won’t be easy at all.
Bookmarked by utterdesperation
17 Feb 2024
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Hux is away on yet another business trip, and Kylo misses him so much, he sees Hux's face in his own breakfast.
Which gives him ideas. Well, one, very particular idea.
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15 Jan 2024
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Five times Hux took a picture of Kylo and one time Kylo took a picture of Hux.
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19 Nov 2023
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For Hux, this is just a scheduled stress relief. For Kylo, this is the only thing that matters.
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- Part 5 of Make Kylux Suffer Collection
Bookmarked by utterdesperation
12 Nov 2023