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    He didn’t even realize when he did it, but his fingers were covering his ears by the time all the conversations in the room died down, countless pairs of eyes searching for the source of the disruption. Shane felt like he would throw up any minute.

    He pushed his hands harder against his ears when the waiter started apologising to him, his face painted in panic as he promised he didn’t mean to. He couldn’t have been more than twenty years old, and Shane would have reassured him if his teeth wouldn’t have been grinding together to the point that it made his jaw hurt. He needed to get away from there - before everyone would notice that he was seconds away from crying, before his body would betray him and make him slide to the sticky floor. But his legs just wouldn’t work.

    “Malysh,” cooed a familiar, warm voice, low enough just for Shane to hear. All the lights and stares were blocked by a slightly taller figure and Shane trusted himself to make eye contact with baby blues. Ilya. “You’re dripping on floor.”

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    Shane has a meltdown and Ilya takes care of his husband.

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    02 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 16

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    What if the boys didn't play hockey? What if Ilya never lost his mother to an accidental overdose, or if his father never got diagnosed with dementia?

    What if Shane Hollander lost his parents just as his mental health got better?

    Easy question; Ilya Rozanov would drop everything to make sure his boy was okay while fighting his depression and other mental health issues.

    (I am so sorry in advance)

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    5
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    28 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 93

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    Shane stood, kissed Ilya’s cheek, and gently took Eva from him. She paused for a second at the shift, looked up to Shane with her big watery eyes, and then continued to wail. He sighed, brushed his fingers over her wispy black hair, and began to rock her lightly in his arms as Ilya sank slowly to the couch.

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    5 times that Shane and Ilya soothed their crying daughter, and 1 time Shane and Ilya's daughter soothed her crying dads

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    Chapters:
    7/7
    Comments:
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    Kudos:
    550
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    Hits:
    11,406

    26 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 88

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    Shane and Ilya’s 12-year-old son has his first panic attack before a hockey game.

    Luckily for him, he has a dad who is all too familiar with them.

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    24 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 70

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    Ilya is leaving for two months to go on a press tour after winning the cup (is that even a thing in hockey? I don't know). Shane misses him very much and is lonely. When Ilya comes home, Shane's clingy side comes out.

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    10,080

    24 Jan 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 80

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    “Daddy?” a soft voice whispered and a hand touched him a few times. Shane opened his eyes, and in front of him there was his sweet daughter, in her unicorns pyjamas and a messy ponytail, holding her teddy bear. “I can’t sleep”.

    “Come here, love” Shane murmured, patting the bed.
    Irina nodded and climbed the bed, settling in between Shane and Ilya, who was still sleeping.

    She gave Shane her back and curled up behind her papa, holding with one hand Mr. Bear and with the other Ilya’s shoulder. Shane made sure that everyone was well covered by the blanket, then let his arm wrap his daughter, his husband and, of course, Mr. Bear.

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    22 Jan 2026

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    Shane just might be the world's most enthusiastic hockey dad, but when Ilya points out their son might not be enjoying the sport as much as Shane thought, he struggles to reevaluate his expectations.

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    9,227

    22 Jan 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 50

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    Ilya and Shane enjoy a lake-side afternoon at the cottage with their daughters. Ilya simply must play mermaids anytime he is next to a body of water this is canon now.

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    22 Jan 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 35

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    Ilya Rozanov, professional hockey player, winner of more than one Stanley cup, master of moving around and owning the ice rink –retired and a stay-at-home dad– crumbles under the changeling balance that are his daughters’ plastic heels.

    Or, Ilya being a girl dad.

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    1/1
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    3,539

    22 Jan 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 92

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    Shane finds his husband and son in the living room.

    In short, Ilya has skin-to-skin contact with little Misha.

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    21 Jan 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 27

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    "And if you ask me to, Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
    I'ma give you the world."

    Misha and Ilya's quiet morning

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    3,020

    20 Jan 2026

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    Being a professional athlete in a contact sport is an exercise in enduring pain. Sometimes you get benched for three weeks because you have a broken cheekbone after you get hit in the face with a slap shot. Sometimes you play through a strained quad, a bruised shoulder, a mild fever. Most times, it’s just the constant, unending soreness that comes with pushing your body to its limit every single day. Every athlete had an injury they hated most, though, one that’s particularly painful or recurrent or just annoying. 

    Ilya fucking hated injuring his ribs. There is almost nothing you can do with your body that doesn't involve moving your torso, and the pain is deep, throbbing, and gets just a tiny bit worse every time you breathe. Sitting up hurts, lying down hurts, walking hurts, and worst of all, coughing fucking hurts.

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    Ilya is sick and injured in the off-season. Luckily, Shane loves him so very much and is there to take care of him.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Around midnight, Shane’s phone buzzed in the cupholder. He glanced at the screen.

    Mom: “Ilya’s asleep, fever down a bit. Don’t worry about him, he’s our son too.”

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    13,368

    18 Jan 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 9

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    Shane and Ilya have twins. They both love skating but their son doesn't share their love for hockey.

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    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    108
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    9
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    2,158

    16 Jan 2026

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    Going to the club is the last thing Shane wants to do. But indulging what he wants is what got him here in the first place, and now he has to do his penance.

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    This time, Shane does not leave with Rose.

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    Comments:
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    9,482

    16 Jan 2026

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    Shane is on the verge of a meltdown, and doesn’t tell Ilya.

    There are consequences.

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    12,162

    16 Jan 2026

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    In which Shane and Ilya retire and adopt a little girl from Russia

     

    Angst/fluff/domestic bliss/cute family bits

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
    332
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    Hits:
    46,877

    12 Jan 2026

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    Shane has a notes app list titled 'Safeties.'

    It's a series of physical sensations to pull him back if he drops too deep:

    1. Press tongue to roof of mouth

    2. Grip something cold

    3. Say your own name out loud

    The last one simply says:

    4. Wait for him. He always comes back.

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    Comments:
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    31,364

    12 Jan 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 80

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    Shane Hollander hated changes. Changes brought him anxiety and panic attacks. Coming out to his parents like this changed everything.

    This is a story set at the cottage after Shane and Ilya had their dinner with Shane's parents and it looks into Shane's anxiety caused by his dad walking in on them.

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    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
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    80
    Hits:
    5,917

    11 Jan 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 71

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    It was a start, Shane knew that. And no matter what happened, he’d help Ilya. Always, as promised forever.

    They were going to win a hundred more Stanleys, retire, have children, and grow old together.

    The soil was damp, cold, and suffocating as the other digs into the earth with bare hands, with a single-minded intensity to free each ragged and stifled breath from the clutches of the loam. And with a new dawning of the sun, Ilya would find himself feeling its rays. Tonight wasn’t a good night, but tomorrow was a new day.

    ; 5 tells and signs Ilya is going through a depressive episode, and the ways Shane tries to help him through it.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    9
    Kudos:
    487
    Bookmarks:
    71
    Hits:
    4,634

    10 Jan 2026

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