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    “Everything about being with Eddie feels right, and good, so so good, Maddie. It’s not timing or logistics, or even—I know he’d say yes if I did ask to move in.”

    “But you feel like you can’t?”

    Buck shakes his head.

    “Because I’m cursed.”

     

    (or, buck needs a loophole. eddie needs to know buck needs a loophole.)

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    And Buck can't breathe around the feeling that rises in his chest. It starts small, just a warmth, a flicker, but then it spreads and threatens to overwhelm him.

    Because it's not just that Eddie looks beautiful. It's not just the way his voice wraps around Buck like tangible safety, or how that easy smile makes something in him ache. It's that this gentle, golden moment is everything Buck has ever wanted without even knowing it.

    Just him.

    Just Eddie.

    And something in Buck cracks wide open. A truth spills out before he can stop it, soft like marshmallow but certain like stone.

    "I love you.”

    Oh, shit.

    Or; Buck says I love you over FaceTime, hangs up, spirals, flies to El Paso and gets his man.

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    So in the middle of Eddie’s dining room, with his brain to mouth filter non-existent (as per usual), Buck blurts out, “Marry me.”

    Eddie sits straight up, looking at him with eyes wide as saucers.

    “Excuse me?”

    “W-well, just think about it. If we get married I can add you and Chris to my insurance policy and that solves your problem.”

    Eddie’s mouth forms a perfect little ‘o’. Buck waits patiently for the floor to open up and swallow him whole.

    When the ground doesn’t do as he’d hoped he realizes he has to say something else. “Obviously, w-we don’t have to,” he’s quick to assure. “But if we did it would be platonic, of course, because you’re straight and–” he pauses, praying for another rogue stroke of lightning. Anything to put him out of his misery right now. “-and like I know that I’m bi now, but this wouldn’t be like that y’know? It would just be two friends helping each other out.” He’s rambling, the words won’t stop tumbling out. “Like a friends with benefits type situation! E-except you know not those kinds of benefits! Like actual benefits! Health and dental.”

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    Eddie is moving to Texas, losing his insurance, and marrying Buck all very heterosexually and platonically.

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    They held each other’s gaze, neither of them in a rush to move. Then Buck leaned in, steady and slow, eyes dropping to Eddie’s mouth. Eddie met him halfway, breath catching, heart picking up.

    And then he sneezed, barely managing to turn his head.

    Buck froze, then let out a soft, half-laugh. “Bless you.”

    Eddie groaned, rubbing his nose. “Great timing, huh?”

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    Or: When Eddie starts sneezing uncontrollably around Buck, it disrupts their budding relationship and raises an uncomfortable question: is he actually allergic to his boyfriend?

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    “You don’t have to,” Buck says quickly. “You could just leave it. Don’t look.”

    Eddie glances up at him, and they both know without saying it that he isn’t going to let this go.

    There’s no way he can look away now, not after seeing the way Buck reacted.

    “Or maybe just not now,” Buck says softly, stepping closer, his hand settling gently over the screen like he can shield Eddie from what’s on it. “Maybe leave it for now. You’re not… Eddie, you’re not doing well right now. I’ve been so worried about you and this—” his voice catches, “—you… Eddie, please don’t. Just leave it.”

    It stings to hear the worry out loud, even if he knew it was there.

    He wants to do what Buck says, he wants to trust his friend and give him what he’s asking.

    Buck never asks for anything.

    Eddie moves Buck’s hand aside gently, giving it a brief squeeze. “Can’t do that, Buck.”

    Or; After Christopher leaves for El Paso, Buck decides that he and Eddie should trace their family trees to keep Eddie’s mind occupied elsewhere. The results lead Eddie to face a family secret.

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