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bassa danza (魂牵) by xiahsbian
Fandoms: DBSK | Tohoshinki | TVfXQ | TVXQ, JX (Korea Band)
10 Jun 2026
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There is a house with a room, windowless with the door left locked forever. Look through the keyhole and into the diorama of two entangled men, watch how they move and permute proximity. We called it bassa danza, the old Renaissance dance, a slow walking process in which jealousy and possession moves. Distance shifts, but they are never apart.
It cannot be helped; there is no way out. It was always too late to turn back.
or: Jaejoong breaks into Yunho’s house when Yunho is away.
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eat me alive (梦萦) by xiahsbian for gothsoftheast
Fandoms: DBSK | Tohoshinki | TVfXQ | TVXQ, JX (Korea Band)
16 Mar 2026
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“Junsu…” Changmin said abruptly. He was unblinking as his gaze fixed on somewhere beyond his vision. “Why can’t it be like it was before?”
On the eve of the new decade, Changmin could only think about Junsu, Junsu, Junsu.
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The incipient scents of sesame oil and cigarette smoke float from one corner of the room to another as the faucet is twisted on; tap water splashes out from the spout as Jaejoong scrubs at the blotted stain, rubbing soap into the wet wad of fabric. An errant ray of sunlight splices off to cast itself on his chest, as if to spotlight the butterfly tattoo on the sweat-slicked skin, glimmering in a pair of diaphanous wings.
“It’s you,” Yunho says seemingly out of nowhere; his tone is inscrutable and unidentifiable, like it came from a stranger’s mouth without any recognisable mark.
“What?”
Yunho’s voice drops lower, trembling as the words suspend themselves in the humid air. “You’re him; Youngwoong.”
Jaejoong's husband is away on a business trip; his son's friend moves in.
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The odour of oil penetrates into his porous skin, as Yunho wipes off the remnants of sweat, counting again: the slide, muzzle, barrel, and he cocks it, pulling the trigger at the wall; there is no sound— the pistol was not loaded— but Jaejoong’s eyes follow it, listening for something in the air as he tracks the movement of Yunho’s hands, and the flex of his veins as bony knuckles shift under the tawny surface of skin.
“If they come looking for you, you must shoot me,” Yunho says; then, he loads the bullets into the chamber.
It has been one year since his father’s funeral, and forty-nine days since Jaejoong was shot.
A debt of blood must be paid in blood.
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now we’re getting somewhere by xiahsbian
Fandoms: DBSK | Tohoshinki | TVfXQ | TVXQ, JX (Korea Band)
08 Nov 2025
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You don’t really know anyone: one could like cigarettes one moment, and quit the next day; and all of it sounds so profound, until you realise you’re not the only one who has found philosophy at the end of the stick. Jaejoong had once assumed that he had witnessed all aspects of Yunho’s personality; the leader, the person, the false realities and documented illusions— but as Yunho tipped Jaejoong’s head back again, the revelation crept through his veins.
Perhaps, he hadn’t known Yunho as well as he thought.
As in: he shouldn’t have lit the fucking cigarette.
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爱与欲之间的距离
(love, lust, and the distance in between.)
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Revelation 22:13 — I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.
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