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The first first time is a mistake. Quentin has no problem regarding it that way. It shouldn't have happened, for a number of reasons, and for a long time, he can't even think about it without a sick curl of guilt unfurling somewhere deep in his body.
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A look at four first times over the years.
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11 Sep 2026
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Season 3 Canon AU.
Quentin needs to head off to search for the Abyss key, but the Muntjac is misbehaving. Eliot thinks he can help, except, the Muntjac keeps pushing them together. Literally. What on Fillory are you supposed to do when your living ship…. ships you?
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11 Sep 2026
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A story of what happens after not quite dying, in two parts: the downward spiral, and the long uphill climb. Or: Quentin Coldwater gets every last thing he deserves.
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04 Sep 2026
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He had broken up with Alice because — it almost didn’t bear going into. He had broken up with Alice because he never should have gotten back with Alice; because they were different people who wanted different things in a way that had been easier to ignore when they were grad students wrestling with the same coursework; because he came back from the dead and the person on the other side of the faultline in his life seemed suddenly very far away; because Alice was always saying things like “Q, have you thought about seeing a therapist?” and “I’m worried about you, Q,” and “Quentin, I really think you should be talking to a professional,” and Quentin was always saying things like “I need to go to sleep,” and “I’m gonna get another beer,” and “Not to be an asshole, but can you like get off my fucking dick?”
But also, he had broken up with Alice because he had a sex dream about Eliot Waugh.
(Or: Quentin blows up his life, hops into a car with Julia, and flees the state. It's not exactly the fresh start he'd hoped for.)
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- Part 1 of help, i'm alive
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31 Aug 2026
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"If I were to speculate, I would suspect that it is not only the body which is subject to decay. Whatever transpires beyond the point you crossed, it likely necessitates a kind of spiritual apoptosis—the parts of you equipped for this world wither or die off to prepare you fully for the next. Your friends restored your body—that’s the easy part. The regrowth of pieces which were in the process of accepting their own obliteration—that will take time. Or so I should think.”
“Oh,” Quentin said. “But you think—you think they can grow back?”
(Or: in which Julia has an idea, Quentin attempts to recuperate, and the path back to the self is rarely so linear as we would prefer.)
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29 Aug 2026