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  1. Public Bookmark 55

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    The first time Naim told Ryan that he loved him, it was because Ryan was bleeding. The second time Naim told Ryan that he loved him, it was because Naim couldn’t keep it in.

    or: Neither of them can sleep after they leave Bandee, and Ryan tries to stop the guilt from eating them both alive.

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    26 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 35

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    “I thought I could help with this,” Ryan says, hand pressing down onto Naim’s lower stomach, over his bladder, while the other hand holds Naim down.

    Naim lets out a whimper, the sensation overwhelming him. It felt so wrong. It felt so so good.

    “Maybe it could help with nightmares. With your body doing things you can’t control.”

    Ryan leaned down then, his mouth finding Naim's ear, breath hot and intimate. Naim swallowed, breathing hitching as Ryan pressed a warm kiss against his jaw, hand moving lower, slipping beneath the waistband of Naim’s wet boxers.

    The shame was still there, coiled tight in his chest, but something else was rising alongside it. Heat and want. The terrifying, all-consuming desire to be seen completely, even in this.

    -

    or, Naim wakes from another nightmare, the mattress damp beneath him and soaked in shame. Ryan is not nearly as bothered by it as Naim thinks he should be.

    (aka ryan fucks naim until he pisses himself)

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    23 Jul 2026

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    Ryan exhales, smoke slipping past his lips. “Did it ever touch you?”

    Naim’s stomach churns. He curls towards Ryan, shifting onto his side, as Ryan’s gaze lands on him, piercing. He shakes his head.

    “Good,” Ryan says, lifting the cigarette to his mouth.

    Naim thinks of photobooth pictures, of hot blood trickling down Ryan’s neck, of flame and fear. He presses a soft kiss to Ryan’s side, over his ribs, over the soft cotton of his shirt, and inhales his scent.

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    20 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 20

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    After running away, Naim suffers from nightmares. He ends up wetting the bed, and, despite his humiliation, Ryan doesn’t love him any less.

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    20 Jul 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 59

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    Ryan and Naim have to keep their relationship a secret, always claiming to be friends when they’re around others.

    Ryan hates it.

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    14 Jul 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 68

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    “Time to go, baby.”

    Shane was still deep in subspace and ready for their usual after sex nap, so why was Ilya dragging him around and telling him he needed to go? He wrapped his arms around Ilya’s waist and cried out, “Why, ‘lya?”

    “Because you have to pee,” he gently explained. “And then we can go back to bed, get under covers, I lay on your back, and we go to sleep.”

    Or, Ilya helps Shane pee after having sex.

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    12 Jul 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 86

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    “Great. You still get to be the daddy but I’m the fucking mommy.”

    Ottawa wins the cup. Luca gets drunk.
    He doesn’t mean to say it. It just slips out.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Partying and pining in New York, situationship-era flirting, and semi-ironic marriage pacts.

    Just a day in the life of Ilya Rozanov.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane ran, leaving Ilya to shatter to pieces alone.
    Luckily for Ilya, he had a Svetlana.
    (Un?)luckily for Shane? Ilya had a Svetlana.

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    Shane running after the tuna-melts kick-starts a depressive episode in Ilya. Luckily for both of them, Svetlana is Svetlana.

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    07 Jun 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 11

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    Ilya flies home for his father’s funeral. Svetlana takes care of him.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    06 Jun 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 81

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    Shane and Ilya have soft, sweet morning sex.

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    04 Jun 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 43

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    Shane learns what the pet name Ilya calls him means.

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    04 Jun 2026

  14. Public Bookmark *

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    "Ilya, fuck me?" Shane asked, wet eyes focused on Ilya's lips. His hips jerked up and he hissed when his dick came in contact with Ilya's.

    Ilya didn't often ask for eye contact when Shane didn't offer willingly but this time he had to. Ilya had made Shane come two times already, once with his tongue in Shane's ass and then with a dildo. Shane's dick was an angry red now, somehow lying impossibly hard on his hip. He didn't want to overwhelm Shane more than he could handle. He tipped Shane's chip up with a finger, Shane's eyes snapping to Ilya's. "You sure, sweetheart? We can stop if you've had enough," he said, frowning slightly.

    "No, no, I want to. Please, I want to," Shane begged, arms locking around Ilya's neck. "Please, Ilya, please." Ilya pulled back a little only for Shane to whine loudly, his arms tightening around Ilya. Their foreheads knocked together and Ilya gently shushed him, stroking his free hand through Shane's hair.

    or, a peek into Ilya and Shane's married bliss.

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    30 May 2026

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    "Hey," Shane says, settling on the bed beside him. "Look at me."

    Ilya turns his head, and Shane can see how much he's struggling - the exhaustion in his eyes, the weight of everything he's been carrying pulling him down.

    "I'm going to take care of you," Shane says. "Okay?"

    Ilya's breath catches. "Shane-"

    "You need this," Shane says. "You need to let go. And I'm going to help you."

    "I don't know if I can," Ilya admits quietly.

    "You can," Shane says. "I've got you. Just trust me."

    Ilya searches his face for a long moment, then nods.

    "Good," Shane says. "Get undressed and lie down on your stomach."

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    After a few difficult weeks on the road, Ilya is exhausted. Wound tight and on the verge of a depressive episode, he's beating himself up and stuck in his own head. Luckily, Shane knows exactly what he needs.

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    29 Apr 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 10

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    "And?" Ilya intoned. "So what?! It's fucking!" 

    "Yes, but did you consider how it felt for me?" Svetlana raised her voice to match his indignant interruption. "Did you ask? Did you even look at me, really? Really look at me? Ilyusha, it's not that you weren't allowed to be focussed on the fucking.” She wanted to throw her hands up in exasperation; wanted to poke at the rise and fall of his chest with a sharp claw. “It's that I needed, for just one second, for you to be focussed on me."

    (The first time Svetlana Vetrova let Ilya fuck her, she swore it was never happening again.)

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    15 Apr 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 821

    Mystery Work

    Part of hnjsngs priv
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    28 Mar 2026

  18. Public Bookmark *

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    When Shane’s insecurities escalate after giving birth, Ilya decides to fuck him in front of the mirror.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    The problem was, Ilya couldn’t quite explain it himself. After a few minutes of ruminating, he finally settles on:

    Why do I want to eat my husband?

    Top result: Wife found guilty of cannibalising her husband, remains found in basement

    Ilya frowns down at his screen. Well that wasn’t it. He huffs quietly in frustration, before backspacing and trying again.

    Wanting to squish and bite my husband

    The search lags, and Ilya taps the tips of his thumbs impatiently against the screen, chewing on his bottom lip. Finally the page refreshes.

    Top result: Why boundaries in relationships are important

    Ilya rolls his eyes, on the verge of giving up.

    or

    Ilya has a severe case of cuteness aggression when it comes to his heavily pregnant husband, and he doesn’t quite know what to do about it.

    (+ now with bonus scenes of Shane and Ilya being dads!)

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    21 Mar 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 62

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    Snapshots of moments Ilya wants his Mama, too bad after the age of twelve he doesn’t get what he wants. After being with Shane he just get a close second though.

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    3,534

    15 Mar 2026

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