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    Shane Hollander never got that concussion, and Ilya Rozanov breaks up with him. Shortly after, Shane suffers a career ending injury. They don’t speak again.

    Of course, stories don’t end like that. At least not theirs. When Shane adopts a little girl with familiar curls and deep blue eyes, Shane writes letters to Ilya, imagining he was with him, raising the girl together.

    Movers get things mixed up. Letters get sent. And after 4 years of no contact, Ilya moves to Ottawa to see Shane again. The only question is—will Shane let him in? Or is he still just as scared as he was in 2017?

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov never imagined he would be learning to play hockey at the age of 25, but when he sees an ad for a five-week course, he signs up.

    He ends up being the only adult in a line-up full of kids with dreams of going pro. That's not him - not anymore - yet something keeps him coming back each week: their coach, Shane Hollander.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.

    They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

    But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

    Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

    Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov boards a plane putting more distance between him and his father and the pressure of life in Russia.

    Shane Hollander boards the same plane with a carefully planned routine and excitement over a break from his sometimes overbearing, but always loving Mother.

    Somewhere between Toronto and Vancouver they discover they have a lot in common and become friends.

    They were supposed to be rivals. They were not supposed to fall for each other. Too bad nobody told them that.

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    11 Apr 2026