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Today was one of the rare days where you went on a mission with the turtles. Basically, they were stopping the foot clan from producing some kind of weapons and you had to be a distraction since now April and Casey were not known by their enemies. Everything went well, you did the usual bait, making a scene in the front until the clan decided to play their trump card, and they tried to destroy the building except there were still civilians in it. When the first explosion went off, you got in contact with Donnie who explained the situation, you dropped your act and ran to tried to help anyone escape.
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You had lost signal with the turtles and you were pretty worried, but it started to get pretty dangerous cause the building was actually getting down. After some running calling the boy’s name, right behind you, the ceiling fell off blocking the way out. You turned around in chock what were you going to do?
“Y/n?” said a voices
“Omg mickey! Are you okay? Where are the others?” You turned around running to him and realize he was holding a toddler.
“Yeah, and the others are three... they should be there soon, “he said looking behind him “what are you doing here?”
“What do you think I’m doing here, I was worried…? And why are you holding this child?” you asked your tone voice switching from worried to confuse.
“Aww, you’re sweet … this little one, they lost their mom in the panic and I couldn’t leave them there” he responded as the rest of the gang appeared.
They were all fine, well fine has no big wound.
Without your consent, your eyes went straight to Your red ranger, meeting his eyes for only a fraction of a second, but just enough that both of you knew, it just happens. It took a lot of strength from you to rip your attention from him, but that wasn't the worst. The worst thing was that it made you feel better, you felt less stress after seeing him. You already knew you were condemned to the downfall, but you hated yourself for enjoy this call of the void.
Little did you know what he was thinking?
(A/N, so yeah this fic is going to have a lot of spotlight change, so bear with me)
Even if he was too proud to admit to the others, Raphael was pretty worried about you, the second he heard the explosion, his mind went straight to you, wondering if you were safe and sound or in the worst of shapes. He also felt this call of the void when your eyes met. But contrary to you, he had accepted it. For once, he listens to splinter’s advice: “you cannot change the past, you have to accept and move to the future”. Well not completely, he had accepted the fact, that he felt this calling for you, but he would never fulfill it. It was a dead end for him, he was certain that if you ever came know about the burning feeling, you would never look at him the same way and he would lose you, he was scared to lose this precious relationship. But seeing you, reassure him.
“Okay, so now how do we get out of here” Leo started pointing the blocked exit
“Well this plan of the building is telling that there is an exit that gives to the rooftop” Donnie said holding a plan
“Perfect, now. Let’s get going “Leo said starting to walk
“Hum, mister aren't you forgetting something?” Raphael said pointing you and the child in Mickey's arms
“Oh that's right we need found your mommy, little cutie,” Mickey said to the child in a baby voice
“Yes and no, we can't just randomly get on the rooftop, there is going to people everywhere because of the explosions,” Donnie said not taking away his eyes from the plan
“Plus, I am sure the mother of the toddler is panicking outside, it wouldn't be discreet to just let, lucky get them to her like if it was nothing” Raphael said
Then the second he said that.
“Is there anyone here, do you hear me!” said a voice over the new wall
“Yesss omg yess I am here “you acted
“Okay, stay calm mam that help is coming soon, are you alone”
You made an eye contact with the turtles you just have found the solution to the problem
“Okay, no omg there is this child with me” you said, totally in character
“Is the child or you injured?” the securities asked
“We are both fine,” you said
You heard him talking to their monitor
“Okay mam, the emergencies are coming soon, but it going to take time” they said
“Okay, what do I do now?” you said acting a bit dumb
“Remains where you and be patient, I am going to search for other victims”
“Okay, please don't forget about me, “you said faking to be desperate
“Be sure mam, it won’t happen” he ended and left
You looked at the boy.
“Oh please I am a poor damsel in distress,” you said holding the act making them crack a laugh “so what are guys going to do?”
“Well Donnie and I will go check for the state of the exit while you guys can take of the child and all “Leo ordered
“ heh fine,” Raphael said, crossing his arm behind his head and sliding how the wall to see down, he didn't like being left out of the action but you were there so it was fine
Mickey didn't even listen as he was playing with the kiddo.
As they left and Mickey was focusing on playing with the child, you walk to Raph and sited next to him. Even if your body was crying for you to lean your head on his shoulder, your mind resisted and let down a sigh.
(A/N now to Raphael)
When you sat down next to him, Raphael secretly wished that you will have learned you’re head on his shoulder, but held on his cool guy act. As you sigh, he simply asked if you were fine. You responded with a vague approbation. With some subtle and small dialogue, he learned that you didn't have any news from your little brother for a long time and you were worried.
But before he could say anything Leo and Donnie were back. The exit was fine but there was too much witness outside so they would have to wait a bit.
(A/N back to lucky)
Sometime pass and everyone was starting to get a bit tired of waiting. What had to happen happened, Leo and Raph started to fight, it started small with a bad sarcasm but it grew into passive aggressive remarks to get into clear attacks. This structure you knew it well, you were an expert in it but something seemed weird in this fight Raph wasn't the one leading it, he was only reacting. This setting, those roles, you knew them too well.
Suddenly a flashback hit you, your big brother, his dark hair and a door. The door closing itself forever, the last thing you saw was his eye full of anger.
But you were taken back the crying of the toddler, all this rumble scared him. Mickey not sure what to do stated panicking, a crying baby wasn't exactly what a ninja was trained for. Instinctively you took the child away and started slowly rocking him, humming a song. The humming who turned slowly into clear lyrics it was in (your first language). Your voices slow, calm and soft. The boy looked at you in surprise you acted so quickly and knew what to do. The child stopped crying and slowly fail asleep. You ended your song and looked at the sleeping angel.
Another flashback hit, your big brother, his dark hair, holding a little baby with the same hair color has yours, it was your little brother, and he was singing the same song to him. Five years old you walked to him looking at the baby. Your big brother looked into your eyes, his eyes were (your eye colors) just like yours. He smiled and said something you couldn't remember, it was blurry. You looked down at your baby brother to see him awake, his eyes just like yours too. “Y/N, this is Mathis your baby brother” was the only line you could recall. You sat down, lean on your big brother and looked at too the horizons. Three siblings together, looking at the world with the same eyes.
You asked Mickey to help you take off your jacket while you were holding the child, you placed it on the ground and place the child on it.
In silent, the boys looked at you.
“How did you do that? “Asked Mickey
Looked at them with them with a soft smiled and simply said “ my little brother was a baby brother once “
Everything went well as the wall was getting down the turtles left you and you escaped from this trap. You gave the child back to their mom. She would have continued thanked you and blessed you for hours if you didn't run away.
You met with the turtles in a dark alley, you gave them the last details of what happened and you parted ways except for Raphael who stayed with you.
These times, after a mission, he would lift you to your apartment him holding bridal style and you holding his neck your head on his shoulder. This was one of the rare situations where you both were comfortable this much with the other, letting your guard down in silence just enjoying each other’s presence with some physical contact.
But the joy didn’t last when you arrived you got a call. It was your mother, what did she want?
(A/n lucky is speaking with her mom in her first language)
Raphael stayed back, even if he didn't understand what you’re saying, he could hear that it was getting more and angrier, then you said this “ of course you really thought that he would never react like that. After two fucking kids, you guy haven't changed a bit and now we have fucking 13 years old running wild” and you went back to your other language. You were now very angry, Raphael had never seen you like that, he never tough that someone like you could have this much anger. The last thing you said was “if he ever comes to my place I don't even think I will call you “and you hang up.
Raphael was very confused but this wasn't the end as you hang up you on your phone away in rage across the room. He managed to save it but when he looked at you, the only thing he had the time to see, was you punching the wall with everything you had, breaking the wall and leaving a trace of blood.
“LUCKY?!” he asked running to you, surprised and worried.
“I should have done something, I should have never left him there, fuck fuck fuck fuck,” you said faintly in pure anger, you fail on your knees holding you bloody hand and you started crying of frustration.
Your eyes met Raphael’s, you hated crying in front of anyone but you couldn't hold back the tears. Raphael felt powerless and weak, he was an expert in rage and anger issues but he felt totally useless. He went into your bathroom, took the first aid kit and went back to you. He sat down and hesitated before taking you on his lap, you had no tonus, and you were a rag doll, anything could toss you around. He started taking care of your hand, he didn't say a word anything but you both knew that he would wait until you were calm.
After a couple of minutes, you were now calm and very ashamed. You told him what happened: your little brother had run away 24h ago after a fight with your parents.
You later texted him to thank him, you aren't proud of yourself but you were happy he was there.
“Don’t worry I am sure I am going to pay you back soon enough” he responded you sent him this audio message “yeah I am sure, good night, Red ranger” in a very sweet voice.
When you listened to the audio you realized your voice was really showing off your “concern” for him which made you blush and bury your head in your pillow hiding from the embarrassment.
In his room, Raph was holding his mouth, his face blushing even more than you.
“I am really this domed to fell for her?” he asked under his breath.