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Sero didn’t know what was wrong.
During his spare time he was hanging around a girl he’d met online. They had chatted for a bit before they started meeting up in person, things led to another and they decided to give a relationship a try. Sero had thought they could keep on doing what they normally did when they hung out but with adding more couple-ish stuff to it.
But not long after they started the relationship, Sero felt something didn’t feel right.
Cuddling without doing anything like watching a movie or something while they cuddled was boring. Making out didn’t feel right and was just boring, taking time out of fun things they could be doing instead.
He let the relationship continue on for a bit longer though, thinking perhaps it was just because it was his first relationship. There wasn’t exactly time to date while he and his other classmates were in school at U.A., and he hadn’t had a relationship before that either, so he thought if he just kept trying things would be okay.
He was wrong.
As the relationship continued he still found himself feeling the same way about things, going as far as to avoid lip on lip contact when he could. He could deal with a kiss on the cheek, but something about making out or even a single slightly long kiss on the lips felt wrong.
Then came the time when she wanted to start furthering their relationship and take things to the bedroom.
Sero himself was confused when instead of getting happy, excited or turned on or something, he only felt slight fear, uncomfortable, and just a feeling of wanting to get out of there. He thought maybe they just weren’t ready to take the next step yet and told the girl that.
To his surprise, instead of being understanding about it and agreeing with him, she got defensive and abrasive.
“What am I not good enough for you!? Or maybe you got a std or some shit I don’t know about?!”
Sero was extremely surprised by her outburst, he didn’t know how to react.
“H-huh?! No no of course I don’t! I just don’t think we’re ready for it yet, there’s nothing wrong with you!” He responded back, his own words hitting him.
Was there something wrong with him because of the fact he didn’t want to have sex? His thoughts were quickly interrupted before he could think much.
“Of course there’s nothing wrong with me! And of course we’re ready, you’re either just scared or there’s something you’re not telling me, like you don’t got a dick or something! That it? You a tranny and didn’t tell me this whole time!?”
Sero couldn’t believe the words he was hearing, she was really actually like this? She had this side to her?
“What? What the hell is wrong with you, even if I was actually trans that’s no way to speak about them. If you’re just going to insult me and others, get out of my apartment and never come back, you’re not welcome here any longer, we’re over!”
There was no way he was going to let this person stay in his life any longer. All he had said was that he thought they weren’t ready to have sex yet and she turned into this person over it? This was not someone Sero wanted to have around.
The girl glared at him, also having a look of disgust on her face. “Fine, you’re probably gay or something, I’ll get the fuck out of here and find myself a real man, I’ll makesure to mention to my friends how much of a disgusting prude gay loving person the ‘hero’ Cellophane is. Your approval ratings are gonna be so fucking low you damn waste of space.” she said while gathering her things and leaving, slamming the door behind her.
Sero let out a breath of relief once she was gone, going over to lock the door so she couldn’t get back in and sitting back down on the couch and sitting back, staring up at the ceiling.
Was he broken? He was sure he wasn’t a prude, there wasn’t anything wrong with how she looked. He just, didn’t want to have sex?
He started thinking more and more.
He didn’t really masturbate at all, it was boring and took time away from other things he could be doing instead, and he never really felt like doing it. Was this more evidence of him being ‘broken’?
He rarely actually had sexual fantasies now that he thought about it, nor could he recall an instance where he looked at anyone and thought any sexual thoughts about them. He recalled making up stuff back in his school days so he wouldn’t be made fun of for not having anything to say like the other boys seemed to. He would have crushes on people sure, but when he thought about it any crush was born from how the person’s personality was and how close he was with them, he never actually took their appearance as the main factor on whether he liked someone or not. When the boys would talk about girls, Sero would pick something about a random girl based off what the other guys were saying and feel kinda shitty about it afterwards.
Letting out a breath he hadn’t realized he’d been holding, he pulled out his phone and pulled up the Bakusquad group chat, a chat they had started up back in their first year of high school. He stared at the screen for a bit, debating whether to tell them anything or ask them anything about how he was feeling.
ScotchMan- Me and that person who shall not be named are through.
Eventually he had decided on something to send, he would start by telling them the relationship was over. Sero sat there staring at the screen waiting for a response.
AlienOverlord- What?! She broke up with you?! What the hell that bitch!
Sero sighed reading the message, the events that happened not that long ago replaying in his head again.
ScotchMan- No,I did it. We… had a disagreement about something and she showed her true colors. She’s not someone I think any of us would like in our lives.
PikaPikaBitch- Holy fuck what’d she do? What did y’all disagree on that had this kind of result
Sero held his finger over the keyboard on the phone, his hand shaking, from what? He couldn’t tell if he was shaking with anger or what. His brain felt all over the place.
Soon he managed to get himself typing again, seeing more of the squad start chiming in seeming to be worried about him.
Frank’sRedHardSauce- You okay? What happened?
Firework- Give me the reason why I need to hunt the bitch down so I can decide whether I need to kick her ass straight to hell, or hell beyond hell.
ScotchMan- Something happened and she starting insulting me, instead of repeating exactly what she said, let’s just say she said some, slurs and insults relating to transgender and gay people
ScotchMan- She started accusing me of being or having things because I said I didn’t think our relationship was ready for sex yet, literally all I pretty much did was say no to sex and her personality took a 180
AlienOverlord- Well Wtf, good riddance she’s gone if she’s a intolerant bitch
Firework- Slow and painful death, got it.
Frank’sRedHardSauce- I’m not normally one for murder but idk Katsuki’s idea sounding kind of good rn ngl
PikaPikaBitch- Holy cow dude sorry she turned out to be an asshole, how are you feeling?
This was it, he could start talking to them about it now. But what would they think? No he can’t worry about that, he knows them they wouldn’t turn against him.
ScotchMan- Sad, angry. Slightly relieved that she’s gone?.....Broken?
Frank’sRedHardSauce- Broken how?
AlienOverlord- We’re here for you, you can talk to us about anything
Well, it’s now or never.
ScotchMan- After she left I realized, I’m just not a sexual person? Like, at all really? I thought maybe I was just scared or nervous because if I agreed to sex it woul be my first time, but when I sat down and really thought about it, sex has never interested me before?
ScotchMan- Like, I’m sorry if I go into too much detail here but I need help I think. I realized I rarely if at all, uh ‘wank’? nor do I ever really have an interest or urge to do so? I can’t think of a time when I actually had a sexual thought or fantasy (when we would talk about that kind of stuff before I’ll admit I made up pretty much anything I said)
ScotchMan- Hell, I don’t even like kissing or even just cuddling I think, when we would makeout or just cuddle I could only think about how much I couldn’t wait for it to be over so we could do other stuff. Cuddling was nice and bearable if we were watching a movie at the same time, but if all we were doing was cuddling in silence, it was boring and I wanted to do anything else.
ScotchMan- Kissing felt wrong since the beginning, I just thought it was because I wasn’t used to it, but even after so long it still feels wrong and I just don’t like it. On the cheek or forehead was fine but when it came to on the lips and making out. It was unenjoyable.
ScotchMan- After she left I’ve just been thinking of stuff like this, and just
ScotchMan-Feeling like I’m broken.
Surprisingly during his long period of messaging, no one said anything while he had been typing all of his messages, relaying to them what was on his mind. After a minute or two of no response, Sero sighed and put his phone down, sitting with only his thoughts in silence once again.
It wasn’t too much longer before he heard his phone go off, picking it back up to see it was Katsuki that had replied first.
Firework- You’re not broken. I think I understand what you’re feeling.
Sero was about to respond back when Katsuki sent another message.
Firework- Try looking up ‘Asexual’, It might help you I dunno.
Asexual? That sounded familiar, he felt like he remembered Katsuki saying that before. Switching from the group chat to the internet, he searched up the word Katsuki had given him, reading through results.
While he was reading what he found, he felt multiple things, he felt like maybe he wasn’t as broken as he thought, relieved he didn’t seem to be the only one with feelings like this, and understood. Much of what he read matched up with how he thought and felt about things.
He was going to have to thank Katsuki for this, for giving him a word for what he was going through.
What he was going through…
It finally clicked in his head why Katsuki knew the word so quickly, why the word seemed vaguely familiar. His mind flashed back to high school days of talking about girls and stuff, and how Katsuki would refuse to talk and tell them that they were all dumb for trying to bring him into their gross talk and how he had better things to do than unimportant boring things like what people they wanted to fuck or something along those lines.
Sero remembered in those instances wishing he could be more like Katsuki and get out of the chats himself, but could never bring himself to do it. He switched back to the group chat, seeing more messages that had been sent while he had been researching, all supportive ones.
He was glad he had this group of friends, no matter how crazy they could get at times, he loved them and was grateful he met them all.
ScotchMan- Sorry I’m back
ScotchMan- Thank you Katsuki, I needed that.
Firework- I couldn’t let you keep sitting there thinking you were ‘broken’, You’re not broken, neither of us are. You call yourself broken over this ever again and I’ll show up outside your door in 3 seconds to pound some sense into your head.
Sero found himself smiling at the message, despite that fact that he was still violent even in his words, Katsuki was supportive in his own ‘Blasty’ way as Denki would put it. Katsuki had come a long way since the beginning of U.A. and Sero was sure this wouldn’t have turned out this way had this event happened first year.
Looking back to his phone he typed one more message.
ScotchMan- If I get thoughts like that I’ll let you know I can get that sense wacked into my head, actually if that’s how you get it why don’t I have a lot of it already? Denki too, I don’t think I can count how many times you’ve ‘pounded some sense’ into our heads.
Firework- Apparently it must reset everyday or some shit, or maybe I need to do it more. Pikachu come here you first lemme knock some sense into your brain before you text me some dumb shit at 3 am again.
Sero let out a laugh and stood up from the couch pocketing his phone, feeling much better and ready to head to bed soon. Heading into his room, noticing something wasn’t taken when she who shall not be named left. Making a face of disgust as he picked it up, finding it to be a thong, he hadn’t even noticed her come in here. Shaking his head as he thought about what to do about it when he got an idea. Walking to his office he went over to his paper shredder.
“She better not expect this back.”
Sero said to himself as he managed to get the thin undergarment to go through the shredder, completely destroying what little fabric there was to it. He felt kinda bad for destroying someone else’s property, even if they deserved it, but even so he still felt satisfied from doing it as he returned to his room to go to bed for the night.