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Mike Wheeler kept lists.
Not the kind his mother made—grocery lists stuck to the refrigerator with alphabet magnets, or his father's endless legal pads full of campaign donor names. Mike's lists lived in a black composition notebook he'd bought at Melvald's three years ago, the kind with the marble pattern on the cover that had gone soft at the edges from being carried everywhere.
The notebook had rules:
- Never leave it where Nancy could find it
- Never write names in full (initials only)
- Burn pages when they're complete
He was on his third notebook now. The first two were ash in the quarry.
Today's list, started fresh on a Monday in September 2001, had a simple header written in his careful, slanting print:
People Who Look At Will Wrong
J.H. — cried crocodile tears, wrote that fucking article.
S.A. — Snowball. she still brings it up. annoying bitch.
T.W. — pushed him, called him— [scribbled out]
J.D. — laughed
Mike sat in the back of Mrs. O'Donnell's English class, notebook angled so no one could see, and watched Will Byers sketch in the margins of his copy of The Scarlet Letter.
Will had always drawn during class. Even in elementary school, when they'd passed notes and made D&D battle plans on graph paper, Will's pages had been covered in tiny intricate designs—dragons curling around vocabulary words, castles built from the loops of cursive letters. But since coming back from California last spring, the drawings had changed.
Darker. More abstract.
Mike liked them better now.
"Mr. Wheeler."
Mike's head snapped up. Mrs. O'Donnell stood at the front of the classroom, one eyebrow raised above her reading glasses.
"Perhaps you'd like to share your thoughts on Hester Prynne's isolation with the class? Since you seem so... absorbed."
A few students snickered. Mike felt heat creep up his neck, but he didn't close the notebook. His hand rested on the page, casual, covering the list.
"She was punished for something everyone else was guilty of," Mike said evenly. "They just needed someone to blame."
Mrs. O'Donnell's expression shifted, something almost like approval crossing her face. "Go on."
"The town needed her to be the sinner so they could feel righteous. But they were worse than her because at least she was honest about what she'd done. They hid behind judgment."
"Interesting." Mrs. O'Donnell turned back to the board. "The concept of the scapegoat. Very good, Michael."
Mike allowed himself a small smile. Across the room, three seats up and two over, Will glanced back at him. Their eyes met.
Will smiled—that soft, slightly surprised smile that he gave when Mike said something unexpectedly smart or kind—and returned to his drawing.
Mike's chest went warm.
Then he noticed Marsha Holland watching Will.
Marsha was new. Transferred from some Florida school two weeks into the semester, all sun-bleached hair and confident laughter. She'd attached herself to the popular crowd with practiced ease, but she'd also chosen the seat directly in front of Will in English, and Mike had noticed things.
The way she'd turn around to "borrow a pencil" even though she always had three in her bag.
The way she'd lean back in her seat so her hair fell over Will's desk.
The way she'd said, just last Wednesday, loud enough for Mike to hear: "You're actually really talented, Will. Like, seriously. Have you ever thought about art school?"
Will had blushed and stammered something about maybe, someday, and Marsha had touched his arm.
Mike had gripped his pen so hard it cracked.
Now, as Mrs. O'Donnell droned on about symbolism and the color red, Mike watched Marsha shift in her seat. She pulled a folded note from her bag—pink paper, of course—and casually dropped it on Will's desk as she pretended to stretch.
Will blinked down at it, confused. He unfolded it carefully.
Mike couldn't see what it said, but he saw Will's reaction: a small, embarrassed smile. A glance up at Marsha. A shy nod.
Marsha beamed.
Mike added to his list:
M.H. — touched his arm. won't stop.
The hallways of Hawkins High smelled like industrial cleaner and teenage desperation. Mike navigated them on autopilot, his internal map accounting for Will's schedule the way some people memorized their locker combinations.
Will had Art third period. Mike had Study Hall, which meant he was free to spend forty-five minutes in the library, supposedly working on his English essay, actually positioned at a table with a clear view of the art room's door.
He didn't go in. That would be obvious.
But he could see who did.
Today: Will, Robin Buckley (fine), two sophomore girls whose names Mike didn't know (fine), and—
Jason Carver.
Mike's jaw tightened.
Jason had never taken an art class in his life. He was basketball and overpriced cologne. A mouth-breathing jock. But there he was, swagger-walking into the art room like he owned it, his friend Chance trailing behind him.
Chance was the problem.
Chance had transferred from Indianapolis over the summer. Tall, muscular, with dark curly hair and an nice smile. He played guitar. He played basketball. He wore beat-up Converse and old sports jerseys. He was everything Mike wasn't: effortlessly cool, casually charming, comfortable in his own skin.
And he'd noticed Will immediately.
Mike had seen them talking by the bike racks last week. Chance had been laughing at something Will said, and Will had looked... happy. Unguarded. The way he used to look when it was just the Party, before everything got complicated.
Mike opened his English textbook and didn't read a single word. He watched the art room door and counted the minutes.
When the bell finally rang, students poured into the hallway. Mike packed his bag slowly, timing it.
Will emerged with Robin, both of them carrying paint-stained hands and laughing about something. Behind them, Chance and Jason.
Mike heard Chance say: "—seriously, Byers, you should come. It's just a bonfire, nothing crazy. Bring your friends if you want."
"Oh," Will said, surprised. "Um. Maybe? I'd have to ask—"
"No pressure," Chance said quickly. "But yeah. Friday. Could be fun."
Jason clapped Chance on the shoulder, already bored, and they headed toward the gym. Will stood there, looking dazed.
Robin nudged him. "You gonna go?"
"I don't know," Will said softly. "Mike usually—I mean, we usually—"
"Will." Robin's voice was gentle but firm. "You're allowed to do things without Mike."
Something in Mike's chest cracked.
Will didn't respond, just adjusted his backpack and headed to his next class. Robin watched him go, then shook her head and walked the other direction.
Mike stayed very still until the hallway cleared.
Then he went to his locker, pulled out the black notebook, and wrote:
C.M. — bonfire. "bring your friends." touching distance.
He underlined touching distance twice.
The old Wheeler basement hadn't changed much since 1983. Same brown paneling, same worn couch, same table where they'd spent countless hours rolling dice and arguing about character alignment.
But the Party didn't come over as much anymore.
Dustin was away at a science camp half the time. Lucas had basketball. Max had... Max had her own stuff, and she and Mike weren't exactly close these days, not after he'd said some things he shouldn't have about her joining them for Halloween in '91. He'd apologized, sort of, but the damage was done.
El was in California with the Byers family until Joyce and Hopper figured out their living situation. Phone calls were expensive and awkward.
Which left Will.
Will, who'd come back to Hawkins in April after almost two years away. Will, who came back broad, and freckly, with a sun-kissed face. Will, who was staying with his mom in their old house while she and Hopper house-hunted. Will, who Mike saw every day now and still somehow felt a thousand miles away from.
Will, who was currently sitting on the basement couch, sketching in his battered notebook while Mike pretended to do homework.
"Do you think," Will said quietly, not looking up from his drawing, "that people can actually change?"
Mike's pencil stopped mid-equation. "What do you mean?"
"Like..." Will's pencil moved in careful, deliberate strokes. "If someone's done something bad. Really bad. Can they become good again? Or are they just... that thing forever?"
"Is this about Hester Prynne?"
Will laughed, soft and sad. "Maybe."
Mike set down his math homework. "I think people are more complicated than good or bad."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah. I think..." Mike chose his words carefully. "I think people do bad things for reasons that make sense to them. And from the outside, it looks insane. But from the inside, it's the only logical choice."
Will finally looked up. His eyes were that particular shade of brown that looked almost amber in the basement's lamplight. "That's kind of terrifying."
"Why?"
"Because it means anyone could justify anything."
Mike held his gaze. "Only if they love something enough."
The moment stretched. Will's expression shifted through several emotions Mike couldn't quite name. Maybe confusion. Maybe fear. Maybe understanding.
Then Will's mom called down the stairs: "Will, honey, we should head out! School night!"
The spell broke.
Will gathered his things, shoving his notebook into his bag. At the basement stairs, he paused. "Mike?"
"Yeah?"
"Thanks. For... I don't know. Listening."
"Always," Mike said, and meant it with an intensity that would have frightened him if he'd examined it too closely.
After Will left, Mike sat alone in the basement for a long time.
Then he went upstairs to his bedroom, locked the door, and pulled a cardboard box from the back of his closet.
Inside: a white ghost-face mask he'd bought at the Halloween store last week. Cheap plastic, black mesh eyes, frozen in a silent scream.
Mike held it up to the light.
He'd bought it on impulse, drawn to something he couldn't quite articulate. The blankness of it. The way it erased identity. The way it could be anyone underneath.
The way it could be him.
He set the mask on his desk and opened his black notebook to a fresh page.
At the top, he wrote a new header:
Keeping Him Safe
Under it:
1. Identify threats
2. Eliminate threats
3. Make sure he never knows
4. Make sure he never leaves again
Mike stared at the list for a long time.
Then he picked up the mask and put it on.
It fit perfectly.
The woods outside Hawkins had always been Mike's thinking place.
Not the quarry—too many memories—but the trails behind the old junkyard, where the trees grew thick enough to block out the sky and the quiet was so complete you could hear your own heartbeat.
Mike had come here after school, told his mom he was studying at the library, and walked until the sounds of civilization faded away.
He wore the mask in his backpack. He hadn't planned to bring it. But when he'd grabbed his bag that morning, he'd slipped it in, just in case.
Just in case of what, he didn't let himself think about.
Now, standing in a small clearing carpeted with fallen leaves, Mike heard footsteps.
He moved quickly, silently, behind a thick oak tree.
Through the branches, he saw Will.
Will was alone, which was unusual. He walked slowly, head down, hands in his jacket pockets. Even from a distance, Mike could read the tension in his shoulders.
Something had happened.
Mike's fingers found the mask in his backpack. He pulled it out, turned it over in his hands.
This is insane, part of him thought.
This is necessary, another part answered.
He put on the mask.
The world narrowed to two eye holes. His breathing echoed in the plastic. He felt... separate. Powerful. Free.
And the woods were so quiet. No one around for miles. If someone screamed out here, the trees would swallow the sound whole.
Mike stepped into the clearing.
Will looked up.
For a moment, they just stared at each other—Will frozen, eyes wide, and Mike standing perfectly still in the Ghostface mask.
Then Will laughed.
It was a startled, nervous sound, but genuine. "Jesus, Mike. You scared the shit out of me."
Mike didn't move. Didn't speak.
Will's smile faltered. "...Mike? That is you, right?"
Slowly, Mike reached up and pulled off the mask.
Will's relief was visible. "Dude. What the hell?"
"What's the matter, Will?" Mike kept his voice light, teasing. "You look like you've seen a ghost."
Will shook his head, grinning now despite himself. "Where did you even get that?"
"Halloween store. I was thinking maybe we should actually dress up this year. Like old times."
"We're seventeen."
"So?"
Will's expression softened. "Yeah. Okay. Like old times."
They stood there, fall leaves drifting around them, and Mike felt that familiar ache in his chest—the one that showed up whenever Will smiled at him like this, open and trusting and there.
"What are you doing out here?" Mike asked, tucking the mask back in his bag.
Will's face clouded. "Just needed to think."
"About?"
"Chance invited me to that bonfire tonight."
Mike's hands tightened on his backpack straps. "You going?"
"I don't know. I thought maybe..." Will looked at Mike directly, something vulnerable in his expression. "I thought maybe you'd want to come too? Robin's going. It might be fun."
Chance. Bonfire. Will in firelight, laughing with someone else.
"Yeah," Mike heard himself say. "Sure. Sounds fun."
Will brightened. "Really? Because you don't have to if you don't want to—"
"I want to." Mike smiled. "It'll be like a new Party thing. You, me, Robin. We'll keep an eye on each other."
"Okay." Will smiled back, relieved. "Okay, good. Pick you up at seven?"
"I'll be ready."
They walked back toward town together, talking about nothing important, and Mike felt the black notebook in his bag like a heartbeat.
When they reached the edge of the woods, Will headed toward his house and Mike stood watching until he disappeared around the corner.
Then Mike pulled out the notebook and added one more line under Chance's initials:
Bonfire. Tonight. Will is going. I'm going. I'll see exactly how he looks at him.
I'll know what needs to happen next.
Mike closed the notebook and started walking home.
Behind him, deeper in the woods, a pay phone stood in its plexiglass shelter, waiting.
Mike had noticed it last week. Made note of the location.
Just in case.