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The city was dying in fire.
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White towers that had once shone like pale stars against the mountains now cracked and fell beneath the roar of flame.
Marble streets, so carefully laid and polished, were buried beneath smoldering rubble.
Pillars that had stood for centuries toppled in clouds of dust, and the fountains that had once whispered in tranquil rhythm boiled under the heat.
Smoke rolled across the sky in thick, suffocating waves until the stars themselves were nothing more than faint, trembling ghosts behind the red haze.
Everything burned.
Ash drifted slowly through the air like black snow, settling on shattered walls and the twisted remnants of homes.
The scent of burning stone, wood, and cloth filled the air, clinging to every corner of the courtyard, every curve of the cracked pavement. Heat pressed down like an unbearable weigh but Turgon hardly noticed.
In the center of the ruined courtyard, he stood.
His armor was scorched and blackened, the gleaming mithril dulled to a dim gray. Embers clung stubbornly to the torn edges of his cloak, glowing faintly for a heartbeat before being consumed entirely by smoke.
His gauntleted hands were clenched at his sides, knuckles white, as the ruin of his hidden city..his refuge, his fortress, his pride collapsed in all directions.
The towers he had raised with care, the gates he had carved with his own hands, the halls that had echoed with the laughter of his people but all were consumed by flame and despair and yet he did not look at the burning towers.
His gaze was fixed elsewhere.
Across the rising flames.
There, through the rolling curtain of fire and smoke, stood another figure.
The flames twisted and writhed between them like a living wall, curling and snapping as though drawn to the two of them.
It was difficult to discern anything clearly through the heat and haze but fragments of a form emerged from the blaze it was tall, unyielding, impossibly still. The figure made no move uttered no sound, and yet its presence pressed down on Turgon’s chest with the weight of inevitability.
He did not know how it had come to this, or why.
Was this destruction the judgment of Eru Ilúvatar? Had he sinned by ignoring the Valar, by trusting his pride over their guidance? Or was it a punishment for his own threats against kin, for the words he had whispered in bitterness and despair? Every possibility twisted within him, each one heavier than the flames around him.
Then, for the briefest instant, firelight caught a glimpse of a pale face. Shadows swallowed it almost immediately, leaving only a pair of eyes glimmering through the heat and haze. They did not blink. They did not shift. They simply watched.
Unmoving.
Turgon’s heart clenched, a sudden, piercing ache that rooted him to the spot. Every rational thought fled. Every command, every plan, every hope vanished into the inferno around him. There was only that gaze, piercing through smoke and fire and years of regret.
Recognition came with a strike of agony.
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“Maeglin.”
The name escaped like a whisper, broken and trembling, as if speaking it aloud might shatter him entirely. His chest tightened, lungs aching with a grief he had tried so long to suppress.
The efling he had once held in his arms, the efling whose mother he had mourned silently, the boy who had become the embodiment of his deepest fear and failure stood there, watching the ruin of all he had built.
The wind carried the ash and embers, sweeping through Turgon’s hair and clinging to his soot-darkened face. He wanted to run. He wanted to shield himself from what he saw, to bury himself under the rubble of his creation and never look again yet he could not.
He could not look away from Maeglin.
Every memory crashed through him, the eflling trembling in his arms, the silent despair in his eyes, the terrible knowledge of what he could not prevent.
The Elf before him was no longer an efling that he didn't even realize it, but Turgon could see the echoes of that fragile, trembling boy in the pale, haunted face that did not move, that did not speak, that simply waited.
The fire roared between them, a wall that neither could cross, yet it did not matter. The heat, the smoke, the falling towers as none of it mattered. All that remained was that gaze.
Turgon felt a raw, aching sorrow claw at him from within. He had failed, he had always failed and didn't accept as he had his pride but now the last thread of hope he had clung to his city, his people, himself was reduced to ash ands standing beyond it, silent and unyielding was the one he loved and feared most.
He wanted to reach out. To call out, to beg, to plead but the flames consumed his words before they could leave his lips.
So he remained still as the city burned.
Turgon’s voice broke the roar of the flames, a trembling sound that seemed impossibly small against the inferno.
“Maeglin…”
The word left him ragged, carried more on the weight of his heart than on air. He felt his breath leaving him, each inhalation scorching against the heat, each exhale tasting of smoke and ash.
He had not seen his nephew in so long as he was busy with his duties as a king, not since hope had felt tangible, not since the world had seemed whole and now… now he stood there, before him, alive, yet scarred in ways that tore at Turgon more fiercely than any blade could.
The firelight revealed him in fleeting flashes.
Maeglin’s body was thin, stretched over bones that looked too fragile to bear his weight. Bruises etched dark and angry across his skin, evidence of blows delivered with merciless intent as cuts ran across his face, sharp and cruel, the knife wounds jagged and cruelly deliberate as. Turgon’s chest constricted violently as horror and rage battled for dominance within him.
Who had dared to do this to him? Who could be so heartless as to leave his nephew in such a state?
He stepped closer but the distance, the fire, the ruin all of it held him at bay yet still his eyes never left Maeglin’s.
They locked, and for a long, suspended moment, nothing moved except the flames licking hungrily at the remnants of the courtyard.
In the dark, in the flickering glow of the fire, Turgon felt a silent conversation stretch between them. There were no words, no explanations just the ache of recognition, the weight of unspoken fear and the fragile tether of love that neither had dared to sever.
Maeglin’s lips curved in a small, quiet smile, sad and faint, and it struck Turgon like a blade.
It was a smile that carried both relief and resignation hope mingled with heartbreak. It was a reminder that his nephew had suffered, that he had endured horrors Turgon had not been there to prevent, and that still, despite it all, he was alive.
Instinctively, Turgon lifted his hand. His gauntleted fingers trembled as they reached forward, aching to close the distance, to touch, to protect, to undo what had been done as his arm stretched toward Maeglin across the wall of fire, fingers opening as if to grasp him through the flames, to pull him close and shield him from all the pain the world had inflicted.
But the fire surged.
A violent burst of heat roared between them, sparks leaping upward, twisting in chaotic, angry spirals.
The flames rose higher, bending and writhing as if alive, refusing to yield. Smoke rolled in thick clouds, burning his lungs and stinging his eyes. Each pulse of the fire felt like a barrier conjured from the world’s cruelty, a wall meant to keep him from reaching the one he had loved and failed yet Turgon did not lower his hand.
He did not care.
He had made countless mistakes..prideful errors, stubborn refusals, and misjudgments that had cost lives, that had wrought suffering upon those he held dear.
He had hurt many, yes but the weight of one truth pressed heavier than any other: he had hurt Maeglin. He had failed him, perhaps more gravely than anyone else and only now in the suffocating heat of ruin in the desperate trembling ache in his chest did he realize the depth of what he had done.
It was too late to undo the fire, too late to repair the walls that had collapsed, too late to shield his city, his people, his pride but it was not too late to try..if only he could reach Maeglin, if only he could bridge the flames, if only he could hold him and tell him, tell him that despite everything, he had always cared that he had never stopped caring, that the pain, the terror, the scars but he knew that none of it would ever lessen the love he bore for his nephew.
And so he kept his hand raised, trembling, fingers stretched toward the impossible, toward Maeglin’s dark, watching eyes, toward the fragile, fleeting smile that clung stubbornly to the ruins of a world that had betrayed them both.
His fingers trembled slightly in the burning air, the heat of the inferno searing against his gauntlets yet he could not bring himself to lower them as each movement felt weighted, as if the flames themselves pressed against his will, testing his resolve, daring him to turn away.
Turgon’s breath came in ragged, shallow pulls, tasting of smoke and ash, his chest tightening with a mix of grief, anger, and helplessness.
Across the inferno, Maeglin stood motionless. His black raven hair whipped gently in the wind, each strand catching fleeting embers and reflecting the crimson glow of the city’s collapse.
Turgon froze in place, his gaze fixed, his heart both breaking and latching desperately onto the sight before him as tears slid silently down Maeglin’s face, pale lines tracing through the grime of soot and ash.
They fell one by one, vanishing into the burning ground beneath him, leaving behind faint, fleeting streaks that the flames quickly consumed.
“Maeglin…”
The word escaped Turgon’s lips, barely more than a whisper yet it carried the weight of years, of regrets, of unspoken love and protection. His eyes stung at the sight, the tears that threatened to fall unbidden.
He wanted..needed to comfort him, to hold him close, to shield him from the world’s cruelty but he could not. The wall of fire that raged between them was more than heat and flame it was simply a tangible manifestation of the chasm that had grown between them, one wrought by time, neglect, fear and circumstance.
He searched Maeglin’s gaze, desperate to find the boy he had once known, to see a flicker of recognition or warmth but all he found was emptiness, a distant hollow expression that seemed almost to reject him. It was not indifference nor was it hatred, though both might have been easier to bear but rather was something far more painful as the void left by suffering endured in silence, the weight of pain carried alone, the shadow of scars both seen and unseen.
Turgon stepped forward, instinctively, as though the motion could close the impossible gap but the flames roared with a ferocity that seemed personal, bending and lashing toward him as though they were alive, warning, punishing.
The heat pressed against him, forcing him to stop, to stagger in place, his armor scorched and weighted with ash yet he did not lower his hand.
He stretched it farther, the fingers trembling as they sought, as they clawed at the space between him and Maeglin, desperate to reach through the conflagration to bridge the impossible distance with nothing but longing and guilt.
Only a few steps separated them..steps that should have been easy, trivial, inconsequential but the distance felt endless, a canyon of flame and ruin as each breath drew fire into his lungs, each heartbeat hammered with frustration and despair. It was a cruel, unbearable realization though Maeglin stood so near, he might as well have been on the other side of the world.
The flames, the rubble, the weight of their shared history, and the unspoken pain between them all combined to make the distance infinite.
Turgon’s eyes, wide and desperate, never left Maeglin. He knew, with a sorrow that pierced deeper than any blade, that he could not reach him.
Not now...Not like this and the knowledge threatened to break him entirely, to leave him kneeling among the ruins of the city he had failed to protect, reaching for the one he loved and finding only emptiness in the space between.
Maeglin’s shoulders trembled faintly, a subtle shiver that barely disturbed the air around him, yet it struck Turgon with a sharp, stabbing worry and for a fleeting moment it seemed as though the boy might crumble entirely beneath the weight of the world, beneath the flames beneath everything Turgon had failed to prevent.
Then suddenly..a harsh, ragged cough shattered the fragile silence between them.
Turgon’s heart lurched violently. Alarm clawed at his chest as his eyes widened, taking in the sight that would be forever etched into his mind.
“MAEGLIN!”
The cry tore from him, raw, desperate, carrying across the roar of fire and collapse.
He took a step forward but the heat lashed at him like a living thing, searing his skin, choking him with smoke, forcing him to stumble. He barely noticed, his focus entirely on the figure before him.
Maeglin’s form bent forward, one trembling hand rising instinctively to cover his mouth. The movement was instinctive, weak, and terrifyingly human in its fragility as dark blood stained his fingers, catching the firelight in a brief, cruel gleam before slipping and dripping down marking the ashes beneath him with a dark, wet stain.
Turgon’s breath caught in his throat, sharp and ragged. Every muscle in his body tensed as a wave of helplessness and rage surged through him. Who had done this to him? Who had dared? And why had he not been there to stop it?
He forced himself forward, ignoring the heat that scorched his face, the flames that curled hungrily toward him. Each step brought him closer though the wall of fire still held him at bay as his hand stretched farther, trembling, clawing through the burning air as if sheer will could pierce the inferno.
“Come back! Please….”
The words tore from him, cracked and ragged, raw with fear and love and guilt. The inferno’s roar seemed to swell in answer, but he did not falter. His eyes burned as he searched Maeglin’s face, desperate to see even a flicker of the boy he had once cradled, the boy whose safety had always been his fiercest concern.
Across the fire, Maeglin’s figure wavered, fragile and broken, yet he slowly straightened. Each breath seemed shallow, fragile, as though the air itself might betray him.
“I’m sorry… please…”
The words were barely audible, carried more by the trembling lips that spoke them than by sound. Turgon felt each syllable strike him like a blade, each one laden with pain and apology he had no right to demand. Maeglin’s lips were stained with dark blood, streaking across pale skin like a mark of suffering he could not erase.
“Mae—”
Turgon’s voice cracked again, faltering, carrying the ache of his helplessness. He could not step closer as the fire was a wall he could not breach. He could do nothing but reach, blindly, desperately, through the flames, willing his hand to pierce the barrier, willing the inferno to yield.
Yet Maeglin’s gaze never left him.
That hollow, distant, yet painfully familiar gaze remained locked onto his and another tear slipped down, tracing a pale line through soot and ash as his chest rose and fell in shallow, fragile breaths yet despite the agony and the blood, he gave a small, sad smile.
A ghost of what had once been joy, a reflection of sorrow too deep to be named.
Turgon felt his knees weaken, his heart shattering further as he remained frozen, reaching, aching, and utterly powerless before the boy he loved and had failed.
“Sorry.”
The word was nearly swallowed by the roar of the inferno, fragile and trembling, and it struck Turgon like a blow to the chest and for a heartbeat, he froze, suspended between hope and terror, as though the fire itself had stilled in recognition of its weight.
“I’m sorry for what I did.”
The voice was barely more than a whisper, yet it cut through the chaos, carrying with it the weight of years and wounds unspoken.
Turgon shook his head, his own breath catching in his throat, the heat of the fire pressing against him biting and relentless, searing his skin quietly as his hand trembled violently, fingers straining toward the impossible.
“Don’t—”
The word faltered, caught somewhere between throat and heart, unable to reach its intended meaning.
Maeglin inhaled slowly, each breath a fragile tremor that shook his chest. Turgon watched helplessly, every fiber of him aching to ease that pain, to take it upon himself but the flames roared between them like a living barrier, a cruel reminder of his impotence.
He could do nothing. He could only watch, paralyzed by the enormity of the helplessness.
“If we ever meet again…”
The words came haltingly, fragile and quivering, and a small, sad smile appeared on Maeglin’s face. It was unlike anything Turgon had ever seen..a delicate, almost broken smile that spoke of sorrow, resignation and a longing that had no hope of fulfillment as it struck him sharply that his heart ached, tears pricking his eyes despite the smoke and heat that stung relentlessly.
“I promise that next time… I won’t step into your life.”
The flames crackled with violent insistence between them, a living wall of heat and destruction yet Turgon could only stretch his hand farther, his desperation etched into every trembling movement. His fingers itched to close the distance, to touch, to hold, to protect but the inferno would not yield.
“Stop!”
His voice broke against the roar of fire, raw and strangled with anguish, carrying the weight of everything unsaid, everything regretted, everything lost but the figure before him did not move closer.
Maeglin’s dark eyes remained fixed on Turgon, unwavering, and for a moment, the world narrowed to the silent, tragic exchange between them.
Tears continued to slip down his nephew’s face, pale streaks through soot and ash, each one carrying the gravity of suffering endured alone. They fell quietly, consumed by the fire and the wind, and yet Turgon felt them burn into his heart as though branded there forever.
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Then Maeglin stepped back.
Just one step. A movement so slight it seemed almost imperceptible, yet in it lay the finality of inevitability. The step drew him away from Turgon’s reaching hand, from the desperate fingers that longed to grasp him through the flames.
It was a step that said everything. A step that spoke of resignation, of sorrow, of acceptance that the past could not be undone.
A step that made Turgon’s chest constrict with unbearable weight, for he knew in that instant what he had always feared..he was too late.
Turgon lurched forward instinctively, every muscle straining, his arm stretching farther as though sheer will could close the impossible distance between them.
His fingers trembled violently, reaching, clawing at the empty space where Maeglin had stood, refusing to accept that the efling..his nephew, the child he had loved and feared losing was slipping away but it was useless as Maeglin was already retreating as each step a silent sentence and each movement a cruel confirmation that Turgon could not reach him.
Another cough broke the tense silence, harsh and ragged, weaker this time as Turgon’s heart seized at the sound. Dark blood stained the corner of Maeglin’s pale lips, gleaming briefly in the flickering firelight before disappearing behind the veil of smoke.
The sight was unbearable..a cruel reminder of everything he had failed to protect.
Maeglin lifted his head, drawing in a slow, deliberate breath, as if gathering the remnants of his strength.
He exhaled, and in that brief, almost sacred pause, he wiped the tears from his face and for the first time in Turgon’s life, he saw it.. a genuine smile yet it was such a sad smile, heavy with sorrow, but there was a strange serenity in it, a quiet peace that cut through the chaos of fire and ruin as if the smile that spoke of acceptance, of farewell, of embracing a fate that Turgon could not alter.
It was as if Maeglin had let go of everything..fear, pain, hope and found a fleeting, fragile calm in the midst of the inferno.
Slowly, Maeglin began to turn away.
The flames rose behind him, consuming the courtyard and the remnants of Turgon’s city, licking hungrily at every stone and pillar as they clawed upward, swallowing Maeglin’s silhouette piece by piece causingTurgon’s chest tightened painfully as he watched, rooted to the spot, unable to move fast enough, to do enough, to prevent this cruel separation.
“MAEGLIN!!”
The cry tore from him, raw and ragged, reverberating through the smoke-filled air, lost to the roar of the inferno. His arm shot forward again, fingers trembling as they stretched as far as they could, desperate to grasp, to hold, to pull back what was slipping irrevocably from him.
“Please—!”
The word tore from his throat, carried on ragged gasps of breath. But all he felt was heat. Blinding, merciless, unforgiving heat that mocked his desperation, that pushed him back and burned his lungs, that forced him to watch as the one he loved vanished before his eyes.
Maeglin’s figure blurred, swallowed slowly by the rising flames, and the last faint trace of that sad, fragile smile flickered in the firelight..vanishing, leaving nothing but emptiness behind.
“NNOOO!!!”
Turgon’s scream rang out, raw and shattering, as a towering wall of fire surged between them, devouring the courtyard in a wave of roaring light. The world itself seemed to cry in tandem with him, the heat and smoke a cruel echo of his heartbreak.
The bond between uncle and nephew snapped with a sound Turgon could not hear but felt in the marrow of his bones. His vision swam with burning gold and choking smoke, his lungs filled with ash, and still, his arm remained extended, reaching into nothing, searching for a hand that would never meet his again.
There was nothing left on the other side of the flames. Nothing but ruin, ashes, and the hollow echo of a farewell that had come too late.
Only the fallen city remained, crumbling and consumed, mirroring the ruin in Turgon’s heart.
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“NOOOOO—”
The shout ripped from Turgon’s throat, ragged and raw, echoing through the quiet of the room as though it had carried the weight of centuries of grief.
His chest heaved violently, breaths coming in desperate, uneven gasps, each inhale scorching his lungs, each exhale rattling against the tight cage of his ribs. He bolted upright, fingers clawing at the sheets, his palm pressed firmly against his racing heart as if willing it to slow, willing it to steady.
He closed his eyes tightly, forcing himself to concentrate, drawing in slow, deliberate breaths, trying to tame the chaos that roared within him.
“It’s just a dream… it’s just a dream…”
He repeated in his mind, over and over, as if saying it enough times could somehow make it true, could somehow undo the memory that had set itself like a stone in the pit of his stomach.
Minutes passed in silence, save for the ragged beat of his heart and the faint whistle of wind against the castle walls. At last, he exhaled, long and shuddering, and opened his eyes. The room came into focus: the familiar quarters of his chambers in Gondolin.
Royal blue and gold draped across tapestries and cushions, with glimmers of red woven into intricate patterns that caught the light. Marble floors gleamed beneath finely carved wooden furniture, every corner lavishly decorated, opulent enough for a king.
And yet, the sight made him feel sick.
The luxury, the grandeur, the careful perfection of everything around him... it felt hollow, meaningless. He could already see it in his mind as all of it reduced to ash and rubble, a mockery of his pride and effort, consumed by flames, a memory of failure and just by the thought alone made bile rise uncomfortably in his throat.
He imagined taking torch and steel, burning it all, leaving nothing but ruins that matched the truth he could not escape.
Turgon pushed his hair back from his damp forehead, the trembling of his fingers betraying the effort to compose himself. He leaned back against the headboard eyes fixed on the ceiling yet seeing nothing beyond the vivid remnants of his nightmare.
The images of fire, of Maeglin’s fragile smile, of blood and ash, clung stubbornly to his mind, refusing to let go.
He was supposed to be dead.
Supposed to be in Mandos by now, standing before the halls of the dead, judged, separated from all he had built, all he had loved and yet… here he was.
Here he was in the familiar confines of his room in Gondolin, in a city that should have been nothing but ruins.
The walls were intact, the towers unshattered, the streets beyond his window untouched by the inferno he had just lived through. It should have been lost. It should have been gone. He should have been gone.
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‘Why?’
The question clawed at him, relentless, insistent. He had asked it countless times before, whispered it into the quiet of the night, demanded it in the silence between dreams.
Why was he here?
Why had fate or whatever power governed the world given him this reprieve?
At first, he had tried to dismiss it, telling himself it was merely a nightmare, the result of exhaustion, of constant pressure, of sleep too short and mind too weary as surely it was only a dream, a cruel fabrication of overworked nerves and fear.
But he was wrong.
The reminders were constant, unavoidable. Each night brought visions too vivid, too sharp to be mere fantasy.
He had died..or should have died amid flames, surrounded by the screams of his people, beneath the fury of Morgoth’s armies.
He had been certain, then, that the end had come for him, for Gondolin, for everything he held dear yet every morning, he awoke in this bed in these walls with the city intact, with the world around him unchanged, and a gnawing sense of disbelief clawing at his mind.
Sometimes, he wondered if he was losing his mind, if the constant tension, the weight of his duties, the grief and guilt he carried, had finally fractured his reason.
How could he be alive when he was meant to fall? How could Gondolin stand when the flames had already claimed it in his dreams?
Every glance around the room, every polished surface, every gilded decoration became a cruel reminder of the fragility of life, the uncertainty of fate, and the impossibility of escaping the shadow of what had come before.
When suddenly, a soft knock at the door interrupted his spiraling thoughts, and Turgon let out a weary sigh.
“Come in,” He murmured, his voice still hoarse from the echoes of his nightmare.
The door creaked open, and a servant stepped lightly into the room, bowing deeply before him.
“Good morning, my King,”
The servant greeted, voice respectful and careful, as if measuring every word against the weight of Turgon’s presence.
Turgon nodded in acknowledgment, his mind still clouded with remnants of the dream that clung to him like smoke. The servant held a set of robes carefully folded, placing them neatly upon the bed.
“Shall I help you, my King?” The servant asked politely, waiting for direction.
Turgon shook his head, faintly, almost distractedly, and the servant inclined again in a silent bow before retreating, leaving the chamber once more in stillness.
Turgon exhaled quietly, murmuring to himself, “I need to get my act together.”
The words felt hollow, yet necessary. He knew he had been acting strange these past days.
His advisors, his Lords, even his servants..they had all noticed the change in him, the tremor in his composure, the distant gaze that lingered too long but he could not allow himself to continue as if nothing had happened as it felt wrong, unnatural to pretend.
The weight of what he had seen..the visions, the nightmares, the shadow of fire and loss still clung to him like a second skin, heavy and inescapable.
He swung his legs over the edge of the bed, bare feet brushing the soft carpeted floor as the sensation grounded him slightly, but only enough to remind him of the fragility of comfort.
He stood, straightening slowly, and his eyes fell upon the robes laid neatly before him, shades of dark blue and white, with intricate embroidery threading delicate patterns across the fabric.
He could see the hand-stitched designs in meticulous detail, each stitch a testament to care and dedication but all he felt was the sting of mockery, the elegance of it only reminded him of the impermanence of beauty, of how quickly it could burn to ash.
Shaking his head, he turned away from the robes and moved toward the terrace, his steps quiet but deliberate. The terrace was framed by light blue curtains that danced gently in the morning breeze and vibrant plants flanked either side, their leaves glinting in the sunlight. The windows were open, inviting the wind and the sounds of the waking city inside.
He stepped out, feeling the warmth of the sun as it bathed him, its golden light brushing against his face, soft and almost healing. He closed his eyes for a moment, inhaling deeply, letting the air fill his lungs, and exhaled, tasting both relief and lingering sorrow.
Opening his eyes again, he was struck by the sight before him, the city of Gondolin sprawled below, white towers rising like pale stars, roofs glinting with gold, streets winding through orderly buildings painted in shades of ivory and alabaster as the sunlight caught every surface, bathing the city in a tranquil, enchanting glow.
For a fleeting instant, he allowed himself to breathe in the beauty, to savor it, as if it could erase the nightmare that haunted him but then his eyes narrowed. Beyond the serene cityscape, past the protective mountains that cradled Gondolin like a hidden jewel, visions of fire intruded.
He could see flashes...the memory of Balrogs tearing through the mountains, flames devouring stone, the molten rivers drenching the earth in fire. The images were vivid, almost tangible and Turgon’s chest tightened with the knowledge of what might yet come if fate were left unchecked.
He was about to sink deeper into the shadow of these memories when a sound cut through the tension..a bell-like laughter, light and unburdened. Turgon’s gaze snapped toward it, and his heart softened as he saw the source.
A group of elflings playing near a fountain, their movements carefree their joy so innocent it almost hurt to witness. Subconsciously, a small, fragile smile tugged at the corners of his lips.
For the first time in what felt like an eternity, hope flickered within him, tentative yet undeniable.
He did not know the steps he would take to alter the path ahead. He did not know how to prevent the horrors he had glimpsed without appearing mad to his people or overstepping the boundaries of his station but he could feel it, the spark of possibility, the fragile thread that connected him to a future he could still shape.
He let his gaze linger on the bright, shining sun, feeling its warmth against his face as if it could infuse him with strength. Slowly, he straightened his shoulders, letting the weight of fear and doubt recede just enough for purpose to settle in its place.
He remembered the pressing matters awaiting him as the endless responsibilities of leadership, the unceasing demands of a king as a breath, steady now, filled his lungs and Turgon allowed himself a small, determined smile.
The work of a king was never finished, never truly done but it was a beginning.
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Walking down the long, echoing hallways of the castle, Turgon’s steps were measured but heavy with thought.
His hand brushed lightly against the marble railing, cool beneath his fingers, a tangible reminder of the city’s solidity its beauty, its life, its very existence that should not have been.
Servants passed him quietly, carrying baskets of linens or trays of breakfast, and each instinctively bowed at the sight of their King. Turgon acknowledged them with a mere nod, his mind elsewhere, tracing the path of fire and ruin that haunted him, that he refused to let come to pass.
It felt strange..wrong, almost to walk these halls as though everything were normal.
These same corridors should have been crumbling around him, bathed in smoke and flame, yet here they were, untouched, pristine, alive. The stark contrast strengthened something within him, an urgent need to change the course of what fate had shown him.
He had seen too much destruction, too much loss, to allow complacency or inaction to take hold. Every step he took was a silent vow that he would not allow Gondolin, or those he loved to fall again.
As he turned a corner, his thoughts still heavy with memories and strategy, he collided with someone unexpectedly. The impact made him stumble back slightly, but as he looked up to apologize, his words caught in his throat. His breath hitched, and his heart skipped not from pain but from recognition.
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“Maeglin…”
The word escaped him in a ragged whisper, half a plea, half disbelief and for a moment, the figure froze as if caught in the same sudden shock, and Turgon’s breath faltered.
Maeglin, his nephew, looked up at him with unease etched across his features, eyes flickering as though caught between fear, recognition, and something deeper Turgon could not yet name.
Turgon’s chest tightened, a knot forming that he could not unravel. The distance between them felt vast, though they stood only a few feet apart.
The warmth of their reunion should have been there, the comfort of seeing someone he loved alive but instead, there was hesitation, discomfort, a subtle tension that wrapped itself around them like a fragile cage.
' He is uncomfortable with me,'
Turgon thought bitterly, each pulse of the realization striking him sharply. His heart ached with guilt and shame.
He had failed Maeglin in ways he had only begun to comprehend, and the shadow of the nightmare..of blood, fire, and the fragile smile that had haunted him still flickered in the back of his mind, reminding him of what could have been lost forever.
“My King,”
Maeglin’s voice cut through the haze of Turgon’s thoughts, careful, formal, distant. The words pulled him sharply back into the present.
Maeglin bowed maintaining a cautious space between them, the weight of etiquette and hesitation making Turgon flinch inwardly and yet… despite the formal distance, the subtle stiffness in his nephew, Turgon could not help but give a bitter, almost painful smile.
The title..“My King” struck a chord, heavy with responsibility, regret, and unspoken promises. It reminded him of all the mistakes he had made, all the trust he had eroded, all the pain he had caused.
Turgon drew in a slow, deliberate breath, feeling it fill the hollow ache in his chest. He knew, with every fiber of his being, that he had much to repair far more than words could ever carry.
There were bridges to rebuild, wounds to soothe, and a future to alter, not just for Gondolin, but for the nephew who had already suffered too much under the shadows of what should have been.
He stood there, amidst the echoes of servants’ steps and the distant sunlight spilling through the windows ass the silence stretched between them, thick and heavy, Turgon let out a low, weary sigh as his gaze lingered on Maeglin who shifted slightly, flinching at the sound.
Maeglin’s discomfort was a knife to Turgon’s heart, cutting deeper with every trembling movement, every hesitation, every unspoken fear he saw reflected in those dark, guarded eyes. Bitterness and self-loathing coiled inside him, tightening like a vise.
“Call me… Uncle, Maeglin,” Turgon said, his voice quiet but firm, carrying a weight of longing, of apology, of hope.
Maeglin froze mid-step, a flash of surprise crossing his pale features. His dark eyes blinked rapidly, disbelieving searching for some sign that he had misheard.
“Pardon?”
The word slipped out before he could stop it, a mixture of shock and hesitation. His lips parted, eyes wide, utterly agape as if the sound of it, the permission, the plea, had struck him physically.
Turgon held his gaze, unwavering, and repeated with quiet insistence, “Call me Uncle, Maeglin.”
Now there was no mistaking it. Maeglin’s face fell into utter dumbfoundedness, his eyes darting down toward the floor as if the weight of the words had knocked the air from him. His voice came out in a small, cracked whisper, barely audible:
“Why?”
The tone broke halfway, betraying the vulnerability he tried to mask, and the moment he realized he had spoken aloud, he closed his mouth quickly, shame and hesitation compelling him to look away as his gaze fell to the ground, shoulders hunched slightly like an elfling caught misbehaving or waiting for punishment.
Turgon felt his chest tighten painfully, guilt gnawing at him like fire.
' I truly failed him…' He thought bitterly.
The realization burned hotter than any flame he had ever witnessed that his own nephew..his sister’s son would question why he should call Turgon Uncle and that in all the years he had watched over him, he had never noticed, never insisted, never nurtured the bond that should have been theirs.
The weight of that neglect pressed down on him, sharp and relentless as he could feel the almost empty bond of them in Osamwe.
'If Aredhel were alive…' Turgon mused bitterly, a faint, dark humor buried in his thoughts.
'She would definitely punch me in the face for failing her son.'
The image of his sister, stern and fierce, shaking her head at him or delivering a reprimand, made the sting of his own inadequacy sharper. This child, the son she had left in his care, had been left wandering through the shadows of neglect, and Turgon had only just realized it.
He let his eyes drift back to Maeglin, who remained small, tense, and uncertain, shoulders drawn in as if bracing for punishment as the sight made a hard knot form in Turgon’s chest, and in that instant, he made a decision that he vowed to himself would never waver.
' I will fix this. I will undo my mistakes.'
“Remember,” Turgon said, his voice low but heavy with conviction, “before all else—as your King—I am also your Uncle, Maeglin.”
The words carried a weight beyond command, beyond authority; they carried care, protection, and a quiet apology for years of absence and oversight. Gently, he reached out, placing a firm hand on Maeglin’s shoulder.
Maeglin stiffened, eyes widening but slowly, hesitantly as he met Turgon’s gaze. The weight of that connection, long denied, long ignored, passed silently between them and before Turgon realized it, his hand had moved, brushing tenderly against Maeglin’s dark hair.
A gentle head pat, soft and fleeting, yet packed with more meaning than any words could hold..an unspoken promise of protection, of care, of an effort to rebuild the bond that had frayed under years of absence and neglect.
Maeglin’s eyes blinked in surprise, wide and unguarded for the first time, vulnerability lingering in the dark pools of his gaze and Turgon, feeling the ache of every failure he had carried, every moment lost, knew in that instant that this..this connection, fragile yet tangible was the first step toward healing, toward reclaiming what he had let slip away.
The silence returned, but it was different now. Less heavy, less suffocating.
It was tentative, yes but it was also full of a fragile, quiet hope. And for the first time in days, Turgon allowed himself to breathe, letting the ache in his chest settle just enough to give him the strength to try again.
It was as if time had frozen around them, the world narrowing down to the faint echoes of footsteps and the lingering warmth of a hand on his head. Turgon coughed softly, breaking the silence awkwardly, his voice low as he excused himself.
“I have work to attend to,”
He murmured, turning and leaving the room, leaving Maeglin standing alone in the corridor as Maeglin’s gaze followed his fleeting figure, still caught in a haze of disbelief at the unexpected tenderness he had received, the gentle, fleeting gesture that seemed so alien and yet so… comforting.
Subconsciously, Maeglin lifted his hand to touch the spot where Turgon’s fingers had rested.
The warmth lingered there, faint but undeniable, a strange comfort against the chill of the morning air that brushed through the corridor as the contrast was so stark that it made his chest ache in a way he had not expected.
' Is… he… alright?'
Maeglin thought, furrowing his brows as confusion and concern mingled in his mind. Slowly, he lowered his hand, letting it fall to his side, and returned his gaze to the direction where his Uncle had disappeared.
The image of Turgon’s retreating figure lingered in his vision but it did little to answer the questions racing through his mind.
' Un… he is acting strange today? No… he’s been acting strange for a few days now,'
Maeglin reflected, his thoughts a tangled mess of curiosity, apprehension, and the faint stirrings of something more complicated.
The memory of today..the gentle pat, the weight of his uncle’s hand, the quiet insistence on being called “Uncle”—weaved into the memories of the past few days, each one adding another layer to the dissonance he felt.
He pressed his lips together, eyes narrowing as a familiar heat rose to his ears, a flush that made him feel almost embarrassed at the memory of the morning’s encounter.
'He never did that before… '
Maeglin thought bitterly, recalling every nod, every brief acknowledgment he had ever received from Turgon. Achievements, great or small, had been met with nothing more than a formal nod..no tenderness, no warmth, no gentle affirmation.
He had often watched Idril, Turgon’s daughter, receiving praise and attention, the careful hand gestures, the approving smiles, and sometimes he had felt a quiet envy, a longing that he tried to suppress and yet today… today had been different.
The head pat, small and fleeting, had been a revelation. It was shocking, yes, but it was not unwelcome.
It had awakened something inside him something fragile and aching..a longing he hadn’t dared to name as his eyes continued to follow the path where Turgon had gone, the emptiness in the corridor a stark contrast to the warmth that still lingered in his chest.
He wished, not for the first time, that such gestures could happen more often, that the careful, deliberate tenderness could be a regular part of their interactions rather than an anomaly.
.
.
But..
.
.
But Maeglin shook his head sharply, as if to dislodge the foolishness of such thoughts.
He wanted to slap himself for even imagining such a thing, for allowing himself to be caught in the snare of longing that was by all reason.
An impossible as maybe perhaps Turgon had been in a good mood and had patted him absentmindedly, unaware of the effect it had, and perhaps it was nothing more than a trivial, fleeting moment.
Even if it had been intentional… even if it had been real… it would be a dream that he would soon awaken from, a cruel illusion that would vanish and leave him empty-handed once more.
He pressed his lips together, the weight of disappointment pressing down before it had even arrived. He had learned, long ago, that hope could be dangerous and so he repeated to himself, quiet, coldly certain.
' I… will… never hope too much… again.'
He drew a slow, uneven breath, trying to quell the storm inside his chest.
“I’m thinking too much…”
He muttered under his breath, the words barely audible even to himself, but they carried the bitter ache of longing, disappointment, and the fragile, aching hope that he would not allow himself to entertain again.