toya torture nexus
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the “me” who fades into the scenery seems like a ghost by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
20 Feb 2024
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After two rings, he hears the voice he so desperately needs.
“Alright, guessing you finished the book, then. Hit me.”
“Akito— no, I-I didn’t, it’s not that— I—“
“Woah, hey, partner, what’s wrong?”
“C-Can’ breathe, help—“
“Okay, okay, I’m here, I’ve got you. Toya, are you having a panic attack?”
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Toya has the worst panic attack he’s had in months. Akito helps as best he can.
[Title: Yuurei Tokyo]Series
- Part 3 of trichfics
- Part 1 of toya torture nexus
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break by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
13 Mar 2024
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Toya's bad habits keep him awake at night. Sometimes, his partner can't do enough, and he succumbs to it.
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- Part 5 of trichfics
- Part 2 of toya torture nexus
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to bleed by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
31 May 2024
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That decision comes back to bite him as his eyes linger on the fingerboard. Dark reddish-brown is smudged along the strings and the wood underneath, out of place and harsh, a dark reminder of what this violin has endured, what Toya has endured.
The bloodstains are old and aged, but they look perfectly fresh to him.
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Toya tries to play his violin again. It ends in the worst way possible.
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- Part 3 of toya torture nexus
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broken glass by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
03 Jun 2024
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Maybe he shouldn’t be thinking about this so hard. He’s long learned not to trust his own head, especially at this time of night. But as he picks shards of glass from the Shinonomes’ kitchen floor, he can’t help but think about who he is, what he is– who is he to refuse his mind the luxury of thought?
If someone were to ask Toya to describe himself, he isn’t sure if he’d know what to say.
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Toya considers himself and bleeds.
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- Part 4 of toya torture nexus
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just let me go by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
03 Jun 2024
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Toya hates the memory; how Akito’s yellow streak had been so clumsily dyed, the slight chuckle to his voice as he introduced himself, the genuine interest sparking in his eyes as he took Toya in. He hates all of it.
Finally, his eyes land on the blue and orange characters clumsily painted onto the wall.
He decides to solve the problem in what might be considered a distinctively Akito-like manner; consider it a final homage to his partner before he leaves forever.
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Toya regrets leaving his partner.
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- Part 5 of toya torture nexus
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misplaced hope by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
09 Jul 2024
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Harumichi walks in, and Toya’s eyes sharply flicker away; he must look a sorry state, he doesn’t want to see… whatever his father is thinking about him right now. He remains silent, waiting for the coming berating.
Footsteps thump towards his bed. He curls into himself, cowering away from it.
Something cold touches his injured cheek; Toya flinches a little, taking a moment to process.
It’s a cold pack, paper towels carefully wrapped around it to give a layer between the freezing surface and his skin. Toya barely manages to catch it as Harumichi lets go; he looks up, shocked and confused, failing to meet his father’s gaze. The man is avoiding eye contact just as much as Toya had been a moment prior.
A moment passes in silence, and then there’s a quiet, gruff, “you should be more careful with these things, Toya.”
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After Toya's confrontation with Akito, he still isn't allowed peace from the situation at home; he's forced into an unusual interaction with his father.
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- Part 6 of toya torture nexus
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take me with you before I get soaked through by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
16 Jul 2024
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“Alright, alright. What are partners for, eh?”
Another breath from Toya, this time one of relief. Akito keeps talking. “You at home?”
“N-No, I…” his breath hitches, dizzying, as he properly takes in his location. “Bridge… b-by Kamiyama…”
“Eh? Why, dude, it’s ten at night.” He pauses, then scoffs, “Aren’t you scared of heights?”
Toya nods. He remembers he’s on the phone, and breathes a near-silent “uh-huh”.
“Christ, what are you doing up there?” Another moment passes in silence, and then Toya hears his partner’s breath hitch. “Toya,” he says, voice firmer than before, “what are you doing.”
He doesn’t respond. He can’t.
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Desperate for a way out, Toya goes to a bridge, only to find himself too afraid to commit; he calls his partner, and they work through the outcome together.
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- Part 7 of toya torture nexus
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treat me gently by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
04 Aug 2024
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Toya clings to the piano in much the same way. Yearning for a time long passed, a sweet sound that he can’t find himself replicating in the present day. What happened, he wonders. Why did it change? Where did his beloved friend go?
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Toya and his piano.
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- Part 8 of toya torture nexus
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die by your side by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
10 Sep 2024
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“Shh, shh, Toya.” The roughness of Akito’s thumb trails his face, gently swiping away a small tear. “It’s okay, don’t apologise.”
He chokes on a breath. “But, I– I don’t know what else I’m meant to do.”
“You don’t have to do anything,” comes a soft murmur. After another hitched inhale, “It’s okay, Toya. You can cry.”
He only manages to fight it for another few moments before he dissolves into tears.
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Akito visits his partner, who spent the day wallowing in self-pity. Toya can't get a handle on his thoughts.
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- Part 9 of toya torture nexus
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he wants me (to be loved) by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
17 Oct 2024
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Naming the feeling had taken time. Toya has always been bad with emotions, his own or others’; it’s no surprise that it took him so long to figure out. Warmth, fluttering in his stomach, thoughts he can’t ever get a handle on– Tsukasa and Saki had practically beaten him into realising it, and even more so into addressing their true nature.
Toya likes Akito. He has a crush, as his classmates might call it.
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Toya falls in love with his partner. It doesn't go how he'd hoped.
Series
- Part 10 of toya torture nexus
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run from me by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
10 Dec 2024
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Toya passes the lab door, glancing out briefly. There’s a student walking towards the classroom, face buried in his phone; he glances up briefly, and olive eyes meet silver.
Glass shatters against the floor.
The classroom around Toya goes silent as he watches the boy scurry back down the hallway; whether it’s collective shock at the broken glass or his own mind blurring the sounds, he isn’t sure. He just watches– scuffed heels of worn out sneakers, orange hair bobbing up and down as he rushes back the way he came. Toya feels his cheekbone throb.
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Toya struggles in the aftermath of he and Akito's argument.
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- Part 11 of toya torture nexus
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illusion by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
24 Dec 2024
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Toya isn’t sure how his head works.
He never has been, really. It’s never been his own; his mind belongs to music, whatever it is he’s giving himself over to at the time. He’s content in that, for the most part. His mind is music scores, a metronome, staves listing off his thoughts and feelings. It’s a simple enough existence.
Still, it’s confusing at times.
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Toya gets too stuck in his head.
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- Part 12 of toya torture nexus
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goodnight, and welcome home by chiropteranOddity
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
06 Sep 2025
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He wants to hurt.
He wants to shout, cry, he wants to hit, push and pull and kick and scream, he wants to break.
He wants the hot, disgusting, cruel feeling to leave. It's awful, digging into his chest and seeping into his blood and breaking his body open from the inside, squeezing his limbs and crushing his bones.
He wants it to stop.
“Toya.”
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Toya talks back to his father in front of Akito, resulting in one of the worst argument aftermaths he’s ever gone through.
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- Part 13 of toya torture nexus