SandRay
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but I crumble completely when you cry by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
16 Dec 2025
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Four months of sobriety, today. On the dot.
There's a bottle in Ray's hand, and his mind is shaking, cumbling, tearing down all of his process. Like all of the work he put in was for nothing.
Luckily, there's someone who would drive a fourty-five minute drive to hold him, mess and all.
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- Part 1 of SandRay
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i love how you love me (so delicately) by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
17 Dec 2025
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For a long time, Ray doesn't understand why Sand lets him hurt him over, and over, and over again. It doesn't make sense to Ray how he feels wanted with him despite it all.
He's drunk again, and Sand lets him argue about something nonsensical, again.
The morning after, when Ray wakes up, alcohol no longer fogging his mind, and Sand treats him sweetly despite the things he did the night before, he finally understands.
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- Part 2 of SandRay
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A Blessing in Disguise by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
19 Dec 2025
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There's an invisible collar around his throat, and no one but Ray is holding the leash. How pathetic is that? He doesn't want to be someone's dog; powerless, and panting.
“Please,” Sand says, finally, and he knows how pathetic he must look. “Did you tell him that you drank? He must've told you not to drive either.”
At that, a strangled laugh leaves Ray's throat, and his fist tightens around the keys in his hand. The sound squeezes every bit of life out of Sand, in the way those still-present tears do, too. Unfair.
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Mew calls for Ray again, but this time, Sand doesn't let Ray leave so easily.
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- Part 3 of SandRay
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Maybe I just wanna be yours by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
22 Dec 2025
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Ray used to think love is something unreachable, made from dreams he doesn't deserve, and will never get to touch.
Emphasis on "used to", because now love is etched forever into the skin right where his heart sits.
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- Part 4 of SandRay
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I'm starvin', darlin', let me put my lips to somethin' by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
23 Dec 2025
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“What about me?” he asks, leaning closer. “Interesting enough to make you interested?”
The way Sand is looking at him already answers all his questions. Oddly enough, the singer seems speechless, not saying a single word. His eyes quietly follow Ray as he purses his lips again, trying not to smile too much. It ruins his allure. But maybe he doesn't have to worry about that, he can tell that he already has the other wrapped around his finger.
Just to be a tease, Ray continues speaking. “You said you're open,” he hums. “Open enough for someone like me?”
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- Part 5 of SandRay
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I know I won't be your cry baby by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
01 Jan 2026
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After everything with Sand, Ray feels empty, and goes to the only friend that he feels worthy of hanging out with. Boston.
However, Boston is still bitter about what happened with the recording, so he uses his chance for some mild revenge.
It doesn't really go according to plan.
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- Part 6 of SandRay
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Ray has never felt comfortable with his own identity, even after transitioning.
When he meets Sand, he finally realises that it's not his own fault, but rather that of people's ways of treating him.
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or, what if Ray was a transman?
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- Part 7 of SandRay
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All I can taste is this moment by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
06 Jan 2026
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After a rough nightmare about his mother's death, Ray wakes up panicked, unable to function, unable to - unable to - unable to anything.
As always, Sand puts him back together. Bit by bit. Careful, patient. They calm down together before deciding to take a stroll to distract Ray. However, with emotions swirling around in their chests, the night turns into something unexpected.
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- Part 8 of SandRay
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I keep closing my eyes (but I can't block you out) by kozulin
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
11 Jan 2026
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Life is not easy. It's never been easy. Sand knows this, and he's always been annoyed with that fact.
Yet, when a pretty asshole with alcohol problems makes his life even harder, Sand can't do anything but to hold open the door to his life for him. What is he even doing?
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- Part 9 of SandRay