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    Roommates for years, Shane Hollander has learned to live within his paper-thin walls - but it has also meant that he had to learn how to live with Ilya Rozanov, and what goes on behind his bedroom door.

    Shane hears everything: the laughter, the kisses and (unfortunately for him) what Ilya sounds like in the throes of pleasure.

    He is completely fine with it, until he isn't anymore.

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    03 Apr 2026

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    "Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."

    "You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"

    "I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."

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    Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    "Shane Hollander is retiring."

    Ilya rolled over to look at his wife, next to him in bed in one of his old Boston t-shirts. She was staring at her phone, scrolling rapidly.

    "What do you mean, Hollander is retiring?"

    Ilya thought back to the last time he'd seen — really seen — Hollander. Hollander had Ilya's cock in his mouth. Ilya could still remember the blend of annoyance and need on Hollander's face, the tears in the corner of his eyes. Ilya had wanted to dominate him, to take him apart, to wreck him and then put him back —

    Svetlana interrupted the memory.

    Or: Ilya and Shane stopped seeing each other before the Sochi Olympics. When Ilya hears Shane is retiring, he decides it's finally time to reconnect. Which means that, after 15 years of mutual unspoken obsession, it is time for both Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov to decide what each man means to the other.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Shane said nothing else. He just sat there, completely fucking numb, and watched with hot bile rising in his throat, as that first damned medic leaned over Ilya’s chest, hands locked, counting loudly, repetitively. He winced as he watched Ilya’s chest dip with every compression, his precious ribs probably cracking under the sheer pressure. There was a mask over Ilya’s nose and mouth, the same sweet, perfect nose that Shane liked to nuzzle with his own, the soft, pink - and helplessly parted - lips that Shane liked to kiss with his own. 

    “Dyshi, Ilya,” Shane was crying now, entirely fucking inconsolable as he watched the man he was engaged to marry lie on the ice, lifeless and cold and dead. “Dyshi, pozhaluysta. Breathe, Ilya. Please.” 

     

    shane hollander took a hit from cliff marlow years ago. he can't remember much of it.

    ilya rozanov takes a hit from one of shane's old teammates, and shane sees red. but it's not because he wants to kill jj. it's the blood pouring from ilya's nose and staining the ice.

    it's watching the love of his life die in front of him.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Ilya was going to murder him.

    He should have just corrected Scott. Should have said, "No, that's my best friend, we grew up together." Simple. But instead he'd agreed to bring his nonexistent boyfriend on the trip like an idiot.

    How was he going to talk Ilya into this?

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    The one where Shane accidentally lets his coworkers assume Ilya is his boyfriend and instead of telling them the truth, he convinces Ilya to play along for the weekend.

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    22 Mar 2026