BearyaBoo



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    I think I will run until I am too exhausted to panic. Then, and only then, will I go to the hotel. I’ll tell Hayden I was working out, overdid it a bit, then shower and go to sleep. I’ll delete Il–Rozanov’s–number, find a nice girl to date…It will be fine. It will be just. Fucking. Fine.

    That’s the last thought I have before I feel a flash of pain, and then darkness.

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    Or: After running away from tuna melts and an uncomfortable level of vulnerability, Shane is hit by a car. A targeted hit-and-run by a Boston fan leaves Ilya alone to face the prospect of coming out to their teams, the MLH, and Shane’s family.

    Ilya will do anything to be by Shane’s bedside.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    In 2014, Shane Hollander walked away from hockey, from the spotlight, and from every dream he built since he was 8 years old.

    In 2014, Ilya Rozanov felt like he was losing himself. So he pushed everything away, so no one would get hurt when he eventually cracked.

    Years later, they reunite, Shane — with so many scars, a thousand secrets, and a heart that never learned how to let go.

    Ilya Rozanov thought he knew what losing felt like.
    He was wrong.

    Or: Sometimes, love doesn’t leave.
    Sometimes, someone keeps it for you.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    The Boston Bears had the first pick and chose Ilya Rozanov, but the Ottawa Centaurs had the second pick and Shane Hollander got to join the team he'd grown up cheering for. It wasn't the most exciting move for the rivalry that was already being built between the two prodigies but their competitiveness remains, even if the Centaurs are more focused on being good sports than being good at the sport.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    It has been years since anyone has heard from Shane Hollander after he left the League during the Covid-19 pandemic. Ilya Rozanov lives day-to-day: eating, sleeping, playing hockey, and being haunted by his memories of the kind Canadian man he had slowly fallen in love with.

    When travel restrictions finally lift, Ilya gets in his car and starts driving.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    When hockey superstar Shane Hollander dies suddenly during a private trip to Ontario, the sports world mourns the loss of a beloved captain, teammate, and public figure.

    But no one knows the truth.

    No one knows that Shane was the love of Ilya Rozanov's life.

    Told through a mixture of narrative, text messages, news articles, social media posts, and everything in between, the story follows the aftermath of a death that became public property—and the man left behind to carry a love no one else was allowed to see.

    (Previously Fucking asshole, I love you)

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    21 Jun 2026