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  1. Public Bookmark 34

    believe me (can you?) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    22 Oct 2026

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    When Ilya came clean about his depression, he expected life to change a little bit.

    But he never expected to be cornered by Shane and his worry-wart group of misfit pals over a simple injury.

    OR: Ilya accidentally gets a bad cut from his skates. Everyone, and he means everyone, assumes it’s self harm and he can’t convince them otherwise.

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    23 Oct 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 8

    I Know What It's Like to Be Afraid of Your Own Mind by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    17 Oct 2026

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    Ilya hated the way his body responded to Shane’s voice. He tried to ignore the wave of warmth he got just being near the other man. The longing that tried to desperately crawl its way out of his skin, begging for the space to breathe in a life where maybe he could have this. Have him. But he couldn’t have this. He couldn’t have him. He had Russia, and he had his obligations to his family, and the weight of disappointment under the expectations of his father.
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    OR, an alternate version of the rooftop scene where Irina haunts the narrative, and Ilya fears he’s becoming too much like her. 

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    17 Oct 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 16

    (s)elf (h)elp by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    12 Oct 2026

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    It’s not like Ilya is doing these things on purpose.

    (except he totally is)

    And it’s not like anyone has any reason to worry about him.

    (he’s staring longingly at everything sharp)

    Everyone is overreacting, to be clear.

    (Shane caught him stealing his razor blades)

    OR: In which Ilya Rozanov takes after his mother and begins to struggle with depression. He tries to cope with it the only way he knows how: with adrenaline and pain. Svetlana, Shane, Rose, and even damn Hayden stage an intervention.

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    13 Oct 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 45

    Cigarette Burns by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    14 Jan 2026

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    Shane has long noticed the scars and burns on Ilya’s hands, but he’s never confronted him about them, until one quiet morning when he traces the marks while Ilya sleeps. The vulnerability of the moment exposes the depth of Shane’s concern and Ilya’s self destructive tendencies. Their tension escalates as Shane struggles with helplessness, and Ilya vacillates between shutting him out and craving closeness.

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    01 Oct 2026

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    the third option by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    29 Aug 2026

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    A teenage Ilya arrives at an elite six-month development programme already planning to kill himself.

    Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.

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    26 Sep 2026