15 Bookmarks by Cmandrecyk

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya?” Shane gasps at the barely standing figure at his doorstep.

    “Sorry.” Ilya hiccups. “Did not know where else to go.” That’s the last thing he says before he collapses into Shane’s arms.

    Or the Fighter Ilya x Nurse Shane AU nobody asked for.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    02 Jun 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on vacation.

    This is, objectively, a great idea. There is sun. There is a private villa. There is Luca, who fits into Shane’s life with the ease of something long-established. Brotherly, familiar, and currently eyeing the entire resort like it’s a personal challenge.

    There is also Ilya Rozanov.

    This was not mentioned. This was not in the plan.

    It’s fine. They’re fine. They’ve always been fine. Years later, different lives, perfectly capable of sharing a beach, a drink, and conversation that slips a little too easily into something familiar.

    Fine enough not to think about it.

    Around them, things stay uncomplicated. Luca is already making decisions Shane will have to deal with later. Marley is encouraging him. Svetlana is watching like she already knows how this ends.

    And Shane, who is absolutely, completely fine, starts to realize something mildly inconvenient:

    nothing else ever really measured up.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Something like grief churned in his sternum–that same something that would hit him in Boston winter when he was surrounded by stark, grey streets, and old buildings coated in snow, and twinkling Christmas lights in shop windows. The shape of it felt like Moscow along its jagged edges. Ilya shut his eyes and breathed.

    This time of year, the snow, all of it made him think of his mother. Of her warm blonde hair tucked into her fuzzy winter coat and of her magenta gloves bright against the snow as she balled up handfuls of snow to throw at Ilya and Alexei. Irina had loved the snow, had loved celebrating the festive season, and Ilya had spent the last decade and a half avoiding reminders of it.

    Or: Shane invites Ilya to Ottawa to spend the Christmas break with his family. Ilya deals with complex feelings about home, family, belonging, and grief.

    Set in the last year Ilya played for Boston before moving to Ottawa.

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    31 May 2026

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    ”Just a few months,” he heard himself say, haltingly.

    Ilya’s eyes sparkled. ”Yes.”

    ”And you will behave, Rozanov.”

    ”I always behave, Hollander.” He shoved at Ilya’s shoulder at this. Ilya caught his wrist and held on. He was grinning. ”It’s going to be fine. No big deal, yes?”

    No big deal. Right. ”Just to get Hayden to leave me alone,” Shane muttered. Ilya nodded but didn’t make a comment about Hayden this time, which Shane appreciated, actually. And then he said, ”Fine, you’ll win your stupid bet,” and twisted his wrist out of Ilya’s grip. ”Let’s try.”

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    30 May 2026

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    “Okay, give me five minutes. This patient will not take long.”

    Luca nods in thanks and scurries off to busy himself in the meantime. Ilya huffs another sigh, shaking his head as he finally pulls up the digital chart.

    Shane Hollander
    Age: 27
    Height: 177.8cm
    Weight: 88.5Kg
    Temp: 36.6
    BP: 118/75

    -Patient presented with syncope, nausea and vertigo.

     

    -shane hollander comes into ilya rozanov's ER, two months after they had a wild one-night stand)

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    30 May 2026

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    Ilya liked Shane’s parents. He really did. David and Yuna Hollander were entirely devoted to their only child–maybe sometimes a bit intense, if not a little overbearing, in Yuna’s case–and their attentiveness had moulded him into a kind, hardworking, and thoughtful man. Truly, their son was a testament to the quality of both their character’s–Shane’s soft underbelly nurtured by his father’s patient tone and earnest gaze and his shrewdness and talent sharpened by his mother’s fierce mettle. Shane was the sum of his parent’s parts, yet entirely his own, and Ilya was very grateful to the tender, yet firm, hands that had shaped the man he loved. But right now, well, right now Ilya was not their biggest fan.

    Jane:
    My parents are going to be staying at my place after the game on Friday.

    Ilya missed Shane. Ilya really needed to have sex with Shane. Now the man's parents were in the way.

    Or: Ilya is finally seeing Shane for the first time since their summer at the cottage but Shane's parents crash their first evening alone in weeks. Set during that agonising final season Ilya plays for Boston.

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    64,154

    29 May 2026

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    A storm strands Yuna Hollander in Boston with no flights, no taxis, and no hotel rooms. Her unexpected rescuer? Shane Hollander’s biggest rival, Ilya Rozanov. But one night in Ilya’s apartment reveals hockey’s greatest secret: the NHL’s fiercest enemies have been secretly, hopelessly in love for ten years.

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    29 May 2026

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    After Ilya breaks Shane's heart in Sochi, Shane builds a life out of control.

    Three cups. Captaincy. Precision. Routine. Emptiness.

    When no achievement manages to make him feel anything, he turns to a mysterious phone service instead.

    Intimate in ways that should be impossible between strangers. A man who understands exactly how to pull Shane apart without ever touching him. Who gives him structure instead of chaos. Relief instead of performance.

    Shane finds himself pulled toward something he thought he buried years ago.

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    Set 4 years after Sochi, where both Ilya and Shane were left with shattered hearts, this is a story about second chances and being brave enough to trust again. To want anew.

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    Chapters:
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    28 May 2026

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    Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back.

    So. Not stealing.

    But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there?

    Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is.

    Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.

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    4/4
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    27 May 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
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    25,362
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    691,194

    25 May 2026

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    Chapters:
    11/11
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    1,540
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    184,250

    25 May 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    Chapters:
    9/9
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    4,542
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    575,902

    20 May 2026

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