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  1. Public Bookmark 70

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    “You are not… hole. You are” Ilya gestures emphatically to encompass Shane and his entire body “You are… whole!” He frowns. “English is stupid.”

    They’ve tried virtually everything together at this point, or at least everything they care to try, and it’s all been good, great, bordering on perfect, so why does this feel different?

     

    Or, musings on the social significance of sexual roles, internalized homophobia/misogyny, and Ilya’s perfect butt.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    It wasn’t like he had to throw up, Ilya reasoned. It was just a bad habit, and he quit those all the time. But he was leaving the cottage in two days, and the thought of packing up this life with Shane into his carry-on and flying back to Boston alone was tying him in knots. He was just stressed, and vomiting made him feel lighter. He didn’t need to, though.

    Or, a study of Ilya's recklessness and unhealthy coping as a foil to Shane's ED-coded behaviors, where he has his own disordered habits. He has it under control, until he doesn't. This work is fully finished, just updating as I edit :)

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    27 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 59

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    Shane rests his head on Ilya’s shoulder. “Is it the medication, you think?”

    Ilya hates the question, but he nods anyway. “Probably, yes. I was not like this before.”

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    Or: Ilya Rozanov used to know exactly what he wanted and how to get it. Now, after months of being on antidepressants, desire feels like a stranger to him, and not even Shane Hollander is able to bring it back.

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    27 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 12

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    Jeremy clenches his fists, desperately trying to keep his hips still. It’s weird to think of Jean as cute, but he is right now. He’s adorable and hot and so attractive it’s not safe for Jeremy’s psyche. Omegas aren’t supposed to look like Jean; they aren’t supposed to be built like semis, or have thighs made for crushing things between them, or have long, thick cocks that are bigger than some alphas. Jean doesn’t have a knot either—each thrust would be deep and thorough, nothing to catch an inch or two up and stop him from impaling someone.

    Jeremy pinches himself to escape that line of thought.

    He reminds himself that normal alphas usually aren’t focused on male omega’s dicks.

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    AKA: Jean’s longterm suppressants finally wear off, and his first heat reveals to Jeremy his status as an omega. When Jean asks for help working through it, of course Jeremy complies.

    It quickly becomes apparent that Jeremy is in over his head, and Jean is anything but a typical omega.

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    27 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 83

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    Ilya asks Shane to hit him during sex and ends up getting a lot more than that.

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    25 Feb 2026