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  1. Public Bookmark 73

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    “You are not… hole. You are” Ilya gestures emphatically to encompass Shane and his entire body “You are… whole!” He frowns. “English is stupid.”

    They’ve tried virtually everything together at this point, or at least everything they care to try, and it’s all been good, great, bordering on perfect, so why does this feel different?

     

    Or, musings on the social significance of sexual roles, internalized homophobia/misogyny, and Ilya’s perfect butt.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    It wasn’t like he had to throw up, Ilya reasoned. It was just a bad habit, and he quit those all the time. But he was leaving the cottage in two days, and the thought of packing up this life with Shane into his carry-on and flying back to Boston alone was tying him in knots. He was just stressed, and vomiting made him feel lighter. He didn’t need to, though.

    Or, a study of Ilya's recklessness and unhealthy coping as a foil to Shane's ED-coded behaviors, where he has his own disordered habits. He has it under control, until he doesn't. This work is fully finished, just updating as I edit :)

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    27 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 59

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    Shane rests his head on Ilya’s shoulder. “Is it the medication, you think?”

    Ilya hates the question, but he nods anyway. “Probably, yes. I was not like this before.”

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    Or: Ilya Rozanov used to know exactly what he wanted and how to get it. Now, after months of being on antidepressants, desire feels like a stranger to him, and not even Shane Hollander is able to bring it back.

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    27 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 13

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    Jeremy clenches his fists, desperately trying to keep his hips still. It’s weird to think of Jean as cute, but he is right now. He’s adorable and hot and so attractive it’s not safe for Jeremy’s psyche. Omegas aren’t supposed to look like Jean; they aren’t supposed to be built like semis, or have thighs made for crushing things between them, or have long, thick cocks that are bigger than some alphas. Jean doesn’t have a knot either—each thrust would be deep and thorough, nothing to catch an inch or two up and stop him from impaling someone.

    Jeremy pinches himself to escape that line of thought.

    He reminds himself that normal alphas usually aren’t focused on male omega’s dicks.

    ———

    AKA: Jean’s longterm suppressants finally wear off, and his first heat reveals to Jeremy his status as an omega. When Jean asks for help working through it, of course Jeremy complies.

    It quickly becomes apparent that Jeremy is in over his head, and Jean is anything but a typical omega.

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    27 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 83

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    Ilya asks Shane to hit him during sex and ends up getting a lot more than that.

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    25 Feb 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 6

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    "Happy Valentine's Day," Jean says, her husky voice pitched even lower than normal. Jeremy almost whimpers and melts to a puddle right where she's sitting on the bed. "Do you want your treat?"

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    25 Feb 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 8

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    He looks up at the sky for a moment, and his jaw falls open, and suddenly water is entering his mouth and nose and sliding down his throat to fill his lungs and Jean thinks oh, I must be drowning, and then his head slips under the water and that's it.

    Jean nearly drowns. Kevin and Neil are there to pick up the pieces after.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    Ilya gets injured during the Centaurs hot streak and spirals. Shane takes care of him, and has to get creative about it (aka they both have to grapple with some role reversals + Ilya gets railed for a change)

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    20 Feb 2026

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    They’re arguing in bed about something stupid — “Are there more wheels or doors in the world?” — and Ilya says something snarky, so Shane reaches out and pinches his nipple.

    He expects Ilya to jerk away and say “Quit it, Hollander” or to laugh it off, but instead what he gets is a moan. A loud one, too unexpected to be stifled in time.

    Or, Shane makes an important discovery.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Shane answered his phone halfway out of the living room, the voices of his parents becoming vaguer with each step. “Hey, what's–”

    “It is gone,” Ilya said, his quiet voice heavy. 

    Shane immediately tensed. “Are you okay? Has something happened? What’s gone?”

    There was a pause, and Shane’s heart started beating, his mind racing with all the possibilities that could have happened.

    “My necklace. It is gone."

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    15 Feb 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 50

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    "You're freezing," Shane said cautiously.

    “No, no, I am so warm. But it is great! Here, look, I made food,” Ilya said and all but tore his hand back because Shane was trying to turn it over to where the cut was. He turned back to the frying pan.

    The meat was burnt. Why did that keep happening?

    “Ilya. You're really, really freaking me out right now.”

    ---

    Ilya was a hiker. He lived on mountains and in their ravines. It was life as he had known it for over a decade. It was how Ilya was, a trait passed down from his mother.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    "биполярное расстройство."

    Shane was quiet for a moment, ticking through the words he had learned and picked up over the years. As Ilya suspected, this was not one of them.

    Inevitably he asked, "what does it mean?"

    It was Ilya's turn to be quiet.

    Or a continuation of Ilya getting mental health treatment after the Long Game ends that nobody asked for and him coming to terms with being diagnosed with bipolar 2.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Ilya nodded, pink lips slightly parted as he stared expectantly at the screen. “Yes. Yes, please, sweetheart, I’ve been so mean. Help me, please.”

    Help him, like whatever correction Shane doled out was something he needed. Like it was a kindness, something to be grateful for. Fuck, Shane was so hard. He liked this. Ilya needed help. Ilya was helpless.

    Shane was going to help him.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    "Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."

    "You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"

    "I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."

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    Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    “I think you are silly all the time, but not for this. Do you want to?”

    Shane felt like he had whiplash, especially because he had found it increasingly hard to concentrate once Ilya’s hands had started roaming his hips and brushing his thumbs under the hem of Shane’s shirt.

    “Want to— what?”

    Ilya pulled him forward in one smooth motion. Their hips were flush together and Shane could feel his own erection bumping against Ilya’s. 

    “Do you want to fuck me, Hollander?”

    based on the prompt: it's shane's first time topping a man. he tries not to cum as soon as he gets the tip in (it's okay if he fails)

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    08 Feb 2026

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    The first picture could almost be construed as innocent. Maybe.

    Shane makes the rookie mistake of opening his texts from “Lily” before his game against Buffalo.

    ——

    Or: Ilya teases Shane before games. He pays the price.

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    03 Feb 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 62

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    Shane had never known an omega that was more averse to heats than Ilya.

    Admittedly, though, the sex in between his existential crises was good.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    “I didn’t know Montreal put the elderly out on the ice,” Ilya took a drag of his cigarette, blowing it out with a shit eating grin. “Makes sense as to why you didn’t get much play time, Captain.”
    “And what makes you think you’re hot shit?” Shane growled back, gripping onto the straps of his bag tightly to try and get his anger out.
    Ilya tilted his chin up just so, letting him look down on the Metro captain. “Everyone is saying that I’m going to beat your record,” he pushed off the wall he’d been leaning on, sauntering over to Shane where he simmered in the cold. “And I intend to. So hold on to it, Shane Hollander. Hold on tight.”

    Shane Hollander is thirty-four years old and on the brink of retirement watching as Ilya Rozanov, the next star player, threatens every title Shane ever won. It does something to him.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    “What the fuck?” Shane breathes, and he knows it’s the wrong thing to say when he sees the hurt flicker through Ilya’s eyes in the dark of his room.
    Ilya falters, just for a second. “Problem, Hollander?”
    “No!” Shane is crossing the room in a second and crawling into bed. (He’s still wearing his pants; he never wears his outside clothes in bed.) Ilya is good at hiding his hurt from Shane, but he’s ‘Hollander’ again, he’s not Shane, he’s not baby, he’s not moya lyubov. He’s on his knees between Ilya’s legs. From here, he can hear everything: the wet sounds of Ilya’s fingers sliding in and out, the rustle of the sheets. His entrance is puffy and swollen, slick with lube. There’s a spot on Shane’s comforter, like Ilya was overzealous with the lube, like he wasn’t sure how much to use on himself.

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    22 Jan 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 20

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    Shane was playing well until he looked at Hollander and remembered their visit a week ago. The collar, the leash, the way he loved being Ilya's little puppy. It felt dirty and degrading and so fucking sexy. It was like nothing they'd ever done.
    Ilya wasn't playing well until he looked at Shane and Shane blushed hard. He knew Shane was thinking of the same thing he was. How pretty he looked and how perfect his collar fit.
    He had bought another gift for Shane and Ilya was so excited to see Shane's cute face when he opened it.

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    22 Jan 2026

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