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    when shane gets the injury that would come to end his career, in the moment he’s just thankful he didn’t break his jaw.

    or: shane knew, in the abstract, that one day he would play his last professional nhl game. it never occurred to him that hockey would choose that day for him.

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    01 Jan 2026

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    “It’s just that—I died,” Buck continues, voice unsteady enough that Eddie wonders if this is the first time he’s acknowledged that out loud. “I died, and there’s so much more. There’s so much more I want to do, things I don’t even know I want to do yet, and I almost had the chance to have and live them taken away. I don’t want to die and regret missing out on everything else, Eddie.”

     

    “So let’s make a list,” Eddie says. “Let’s do them.”

     

    or, a bucket list that’s really about buck needing to make a change and an eddie who’s ready to do anything to see him fall in love with life again. it takes some crossing off for eddie to realise—the thing at the top of the list in his own heart? it’s been right here all along

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    08 Jun 2024

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    eddie's not entirely sure he believes in getting help, at least not for himself. there's only so much healing to be had for a body torn apart by bullets, for a mind that's only half there, for a man who's been leaving pieces of himself behind all his life with nothing to take their place.

    except, as it turns out, falling apart happens in increments, and healing does, too: it happens when you gnaw a hole in your lip trying to keep quiet only to have the words escape; when you realize that the ghost you've been seeing out of the corner of your eye is yourself; when your best friend smiles, and you allow it to take your breath away.

    it happens through the smallest of things: bird feeders, and cacti, and pasta shapes.

    meanwhile, the world goes on.

    (or: the entity often affectionately referred to as the unrepression fic.)

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    02 Jun 2024

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    Really, Eddie doesn’t care that the PTA aren’t his biggest fan. He knows he misses too many meetings, and it’s not like he’s best friends with any of the other parents. It doesn’t affect Christopher, so it doesn’t bother him. He’ll pay for the annual fundraising mugs and consider his duty done.

    But then Buck picks Christopher up from a class trip and it all goes to hell.

    Like, of course Buck is everyone’s dream guy. He’s responsible with kids, and kind, and funny and interesting and hot to touch. That’s obvious. But now Eddie’s fighting to keep the PTA moms, teachers, and dads, all off an unsuspecting and tempting Buck.

    Because Eddie is a good friend. Right?

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    25 May 2024

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    “Family doesn’t have to be you, and Christopher, and a woman that could maybe be his mother. It can just be you and Christopher. It can be you, and Christopher, and the people around you that love you enough to never stop trying.”

    “Like Buck.” Eddie doesn’t mean to voice it, but it feels nice to do it anyway.

    “Sure,” Frank nods. There is a smile on his face, one that Eddie doesn’t think he’s seen before. “Like Buck.”

    ***

    Eddie Diaz’s life is going great. He’s in therapy, he’s got a great girlfriend, a great kid, his friend is getting married to the woman of his dreams, and his best friend just came out to him.

    Now his best friend is dating their new friend.

    Things are going great. He promises.

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    23 May 2024