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  1. Public Bookmark 42

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    The thing about being gay and closeted---gay and closeted and desperate to stay there and terrified that the people around you will figure it out---is that it leads to a lot of walking on eggshells. You wear a purple shirt one time and a teammate says that it's girly, what are you, gay?, and you laugh it off then throw the shirt away and never wear anything purple (or pink, or orange or yellow, just to be safe) again. You can sacrifice that to keep your secret, your friendships, your career safe.

    One locker room joke about bands that wear eyeliner, and rookie Shane Hollander (whose buddy Joe lost a stick of liner in his car on their way to Warped Tour that summer to celebrate the start of his NHL career) panics and says he doesn't listen to music at all, ever. To keep the lie going, he stops listening to music in public for over a decade---until Harris is trying to talk to him about a social media trend and references a song Shane is too distracted to pretend he doesn't know.

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  2. Public Bookmark 14

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    Stand alone (unless stated otherwise✨️) Hollanov fics to ease the pain till season 2. Lots of angst, fluff, an excessive use of russian pet names (thank u google), and sex. Lots and LOTS of sex.

    Aka this show has a chokehold on me like no other show ever has. I don't remember who I was before it and im perpetually slinking around the cottage. I should really touch grass but this is much more fun :)

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  3. Public Bookmark 34

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    Shane is back from the summer of romance and feeling better than ever. He is married and getting a better grasp on his mental health as he starts this new chapter. Then Wyatt opens his big mouth.

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    When Ilya is concussed during a game, he experiences a weird gap in his memories. He has completely forgotten two people he should apparently know: his longtime rival Shane Hollander, and a regular hookup named Jane.

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    It takes some time for Shane to notice.

    With three kids, they are busy, so it’s not surprising when Shane doesn’t observe at first. Shane and Ilya are both forty-five years old, and they have such full lives that sometimes time feels like a cruel joke. They’re busy, and always on the go, and blindingly happy.

    Shane tells himself this is why it takes him so long to realize. 

    That lately, Ilya’s gone quieter during their evening nighttime routine before bed. When they shower and brush their teeth, Shane meticulously flossing between each molar while Ilya sort of haphazardly takes care of his own business, that Ilya doesn’t joke or laugh as much as usual. When they shower, he lets Shane get out first every time, and spends a little extra moment to himself. That he doesn’t lean in to let Shane card his hands through his hair anymore, and he used to love the feeling of that.

     

    -- or, a study of aging beside the person you love, via hollanov--

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