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    “I’ve got a lot to live without / I’m never gonna meet / What could’ve been, would’ve been / What should’ve been you.”

    It’s a special sort of pain, the pain that comes from the loss of someone that never was. One is haunted by thoughts of a thousand what ifs. One is haunted by a thousand non-things.

    Or, Rhaenyra suffers from multiple pregnancy losses.

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    08 Jan 2026

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    5 times Ilya Rozanov ruined his Shane Hollander’s “good boy” image & the 1 time he does it himself.

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    31 Dec 2025

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    Ilya never meant for this to get so far. So big.

    It had started off with a couple hate tweets here and there. Nothing unusual, every hockey player had haters, especially ones as prominent and talented as him and Hollander.

    Ilya never listened to what people on the Internet said. Why should he care what random people behind a screen thought of him? Especially when they were Scott Hunter fans. Or worse, Pike fans.

    He thought it was the same for Shane, who barely ever used social media in the first place, let alone look up his name on them to see what people were saying about him. But Ilya was wrong.

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    Ilya creates a secret Shane Hollander fan account to defend his boyfriend's honor while still hating on Scott Hunter and destroying Hayden Pike

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    31 Dec 2025

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    They were only supposed to be hooking up. That’s what it was supposed to be. They were never supposed to become anything real.

    Falling in love with Shane Hollander had never been part of the plan.

    So he ends it.

    Months later, during a heated game, one explosive check from Ilya sends Shane crashing to the ice and fighting for his life. As Shane lies on the edge of survival, Ilya is swallowed by guilt, terror, and the crushing realization that he walked away from the one person he can’t imagine losing, and that he might be too late to make it right.

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    23 Dec 2025

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    20 Dec 2025