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    “How did you get home from the hospital?”

    “Took an uber.”

    “Does Maddie know?” Silence. “Does anyone?” More silence. More of Buck refusing to meet his gaze, staring at the door like he thought he could entice Eddie to leave by the power of suggestion. Well, good fucking luck, Eddie thought. Wild horses, and all that. “Why didn’t you call anyone?” he demanded. “Why didn’t you call me?”

    “I did!” Buck snarled. The momentum of his indignation carried him into a sitting position, and Eddie could see him flinch with the pain of it. His unnaturally stoic front was gone, and something raw and wrenching took its place; it occurred to Eddie that he’d never heard Buck raise his voice before. “I did call you, Eddie! As I was bleeding out on my kitchen floor. You. Didn’t. Answer.”

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    The squatter in Buck's attic has a knife. Buck has a bit of a breakdown. Eddie has a plan to make everything right.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Buck knows it’s not sustainable by the fourth night, when he wakes up sweating and unable to breathe, one hand clutching his ribs where she’d stuck him the first time with the cattle prod and the other reaching to turn on the lamp at his bedside.

    It’s been one week since he got back, so four sleepless nights puts him firmly in the "more bad than good" territory. What the hell is he supposed to do about all this shit? He alluded to therapy when he talked with Eddie at work the other day, but he’s not going to do that. Therapy is totally hit or miss for him. He’s been to two therapists, one was a miss, one a hit, which means he’s due for another miss.

    He’s sure as hell not going to talk to Maddie about it, because that’d be, like, super triggering or something. She just got over her own kidnapping a few years ago. And who else, Eddie? Eddie had a traumatic experience in New Mexico as well; he doesn’t need to be responsible for Buck’s too.

    But the fact of the matter is, something’s got to change. So, Buck decides to start self-medicating.

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    or canon compliant up until s9ep14 (DIY), after that it's just angst and hurt and maybe occasional comfort

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    04 Apr 2026

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    He could fall asleep like this, maybe, leaning on Eddie. He's comfortable, slowly warming where they do touch, and he can even ignore the way his neck is going to get a cramp as long as neither of them move a muscle and nobody turns the big light on and the nausea doesn't surge up again and his head doesn't start splitting in two. Maybe he could get a half-hour's sleep in, even. A cat basking in the sun, Buck could shut his eyes and stay right here forever.

    or: Buck's withdrawal leaves him freezing. Eddie keeps him warm.

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    02 Apr 2026

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    About a week after starting back at the 118, and about three weeks before he was supposed to start getting a steady check again, Buck quietly moved out of his loft—

    —and into his jeep.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    Sky has a chronic illness flare. The others try to help him, but some things must simply be endured.

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    25 Sep 2025