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  1. Public Bookmark 32

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    One year after being married and being on the Ottawa Centaurs, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov start couples therapy. They begin talking about the impact of hockey on their relationship, goals for a family, and dredging up hurts from their past. POV is from the therapist.

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    18 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

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    "If things only stay exactly like this, nothing will go wrong.

    Nobody will get hurt."

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has already lost a loved one to suicide. He can’t let it happen again.

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    Chapters:
    5/5
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    9,384

    18 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 9

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    Everything becomes too much for Ilya. He tries to follow in his mother's footsteps.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    7
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    109
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    1,341

    18 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 14

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    “I don't know what's going on with us Ilya." Shane sighed he felt like he was going to start crying.

    Ilya looked at Shane. “It feels like we're arguing all the time and half the time I don't even know why and the other half it's just you being mad at me.”

    “Can we please just talk about this when we get back from practice.”

    “You never wanna talk, you're just gonna leave after practice to go somewhere and then come back whenever you feel like and then come home just to yell at me when I'm concerned but sure we'll talk later.” Shane grabbed his keys and hockey stuff.

    “You know what, I think I'm going to stay at my parents for a while until you're ready to tell me whatever is going on with you.”

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    Ilyas getting bad again and taking it out on Shane.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    9
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    65
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    14
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    2,334

    17 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 10

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    Following their reunion at the All-Stars Game in Tampa, Shane can't help but throw a smile back at Ilya on the ice at their next match-up, despite all his reservations and the voice in the back of his mind telling him it was too risky. If only Shane had been more careful, because then he wouldn't be in the hospital and Ilya wouldn't be thinking about the day he found his mother dead. Throughout the night and the next morning, Ilya is consumed by flashbacks to that day and all the what-ifs of Shane's injury: What if Shane never moves? What if Shane never wakes up? What if Shane suffers the same fate as Ilya's mother? What if Ilya has to suffer another loss so soon? What if Ilya has to go through that grief all over again?

    Or: Seeing Shane injured on the ice triggers Ilya's PTSD from finding his mother after she took her life. Ilya dissociates the rest of the night, hounded by PTSD flashbacks of his mother's death.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    3
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    1,142

    17 Feb 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 14

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    Shane helps Ilya after a difficult therapy session.

    A little bit of hurt - not really angst - and loads of comfort and fluff.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    118
    Bookmarks:
    14
    Hits:
    1,231

    17 Feb 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 6

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    If you asked him a few years ago, what did he think about being in the spotlight he probably have said that he is thrilled about it, he loves it.
    Of course back than he didn't know that this very same spotlight would be the one that destroys him.

    So why was he a mess, again?

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    4,227
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    78
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    1,004

    15 Feb 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 2

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    Josh's life is changed when Tyler commits suicide

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    Chapters:
    6/6
    Kudos:
    12
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    238

    12 Feb 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 10

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    Tyler leaves him alone for a week.

    Josh doesn't deal with silence well.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    59
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    135
    Bookmarks:
    10
    Hits:
    1,623

    04 Feb 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 18

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    Tyler has cancer for the third time. The last time, he’d become so sick that Josh had been told to say goodbye, but instead he rushed to marry him in the ICU.

    He isn’t sure he has the strength to go through the wringer again. Can he convince Josh to say goodbye this time?

    Updates Wednesdays and Sundays

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    Chapters:
    13/13
    Comments:
    48
    Kudos:
    82
    Bookmarks:
    18
    Hits:
    2,744

    29 Jan 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 6

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    Carmen runs a caper on her own for a night, and the after effects are anything but expected. What other choice does she have when Ivy is the one to come and check on her that night but to depend on one of her most trusted friends?
    One night feels like something a little more.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    53
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    890

    02 Jan 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 1

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    The drum show music video shoot is a little too much for Josh. Things go bad, Tyler helps.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    34
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    198

    31 Dec 2025

  13. Public Bookmark 5

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    After a terrible accident Dan is forever changed. Phil learns that he isn’t completely unaffected either. They help each other heal.

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
    2
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    29
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    426

    26 Dec 2025

  14. Public Bookmark 3

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
    3
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    27
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    1,021

    26 Dec 2025

  15. Public Bookmark 26

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    It's funny how even in a two-piece band, the drummer is still overlooked.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    26
    Kudos:
    250
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    26
    Hits:
    3,255

    24 Dec 2025

  16. Public Bookmark 1

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    Tommy gains back control... but does he really?

    ONGOING*

    *TW/CW will be updated as story progresses.

    Language:
    English
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    Chapters:
    4/10
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    5
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    121

    08 Dec 2025

  17. Public Bookmark 4

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    Tommy didn’t mean to text Wilbur, but the guilt and the ‘what if’s were’ weighing down on him. He just missed his friend, the way things used to be, he missed someone who understood him completely

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    What I think would happen if Tommy and Wilbur contacted each other after the allegations

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    Chapters:
    5/?
    Comments:
    21
    Kudos:
    48
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    572

    08 Dec 2025

  18. Public Bookmark 8

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    an early morning with addison and meredith at the beginning of their relationship.

    addison wakes up early to find that meredith isn't there. what is the intern up to?

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    1,126
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    81
    Bookmarks:
    8
    Hits:
    821

    04 Dec 2025

  19. Public Bookmark 5

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    Phil wakes up from a nightmare and seeks comfort from his friend and flatemate, Dan.

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    Language:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    121
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    2,007

    04 Dec 2025

  20. Public Bookmark 4

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    Phil is too tired to function because of tour, so Dan takes care of him (despite also being quite tired).

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    90
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    1,880

    03 Dec 2025

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