SquidBrainHole
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Shane built his life on control—on routines so strict they left no room for anything real. What started as harmless discipline turned into something sharper, quieter, until even he couldn’t tell where the control ended and the damage began. By the time anyone noticed, Shane had already given up on himself.
Ilya never believed in control to begin with. His world unraveled slower, heavier—until one night, he stopped trying to hold it together at all. When he wakes up in a hospital bed, broken but alive, the only thing he feels is anger that it didn’t work. Ilya has given up on life entirely.
Against both their wishes, they’re sent to a remote rehab center and forced into the same room—two strangers with nothing in common but the ways they’re falling apart.
As the walls between them slowly crack, anger turns into understanding, and silence into something softer. Because maybe, just maybe… you don’t have to want to be saved to start finding a reason to stay.
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25 May 2026
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Déjà vu by NotEvenCloseToStraight
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
21 May 2026
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2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.
2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.
When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.
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“So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”
“We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”
“No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”
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- Part 6 of Heated Rivalry
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22 May 2026
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After Shane's plan to come out to Ilya in Tampa falls through, the pair have a falling out. There is no cottage. Instead, Ilya is forced to wait and see Shane at a charity event being held in New York. Ilya hopes that, after a miserable summer apart, he and Shane can reconcile.
There's just one problem.
Jordan Bragg, a forward for the New York Admirals, has also come out as gay. Stunningly handsome, funny, and just what a heartbroken Hollander needs, Jordan makes it clear that Ilya Rozanov isn't the only one after the Metro's star centre.
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- Part 1 of Mo & Jo Expanded Universe
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21 May 2026
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When everybody loses their minds, our job here is done by neulichinberlin
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 May 2026
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The sports world is baffled when Ilya Rozanov doesn't renew his contract with Boston and isn't in any hurry to sign with a new team. It descends into pure chaos when shortly thereafter, Montreal's captain Shane Hollander announces his early retirement. As does Ilya Rozoanov. On the same day. That the rivals are getting married is the last straw to a collective psychosis that reaches all parts of society.
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The Tuna Melt Incident went differently. They chose each other. An exit strategy was formulated. The plan: Happily Ever After starts at 27.Bookmarked by SquidBrainHole
18 May 2026
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Closer to where you are (is where I must be) by sistercacao
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 May 2026
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“Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.
Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.
“Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.
Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.
They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.
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17 May 2026