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    Before a game against Chicago, Ilya receives a text from Shane that he never thought he'd receive. As he rushes to be by Shane's side, Ilya gets in contact with Hayden and Shane's mom to hopefully make it in time to save Shane from himself. When they'd been outed months before, Ilya hadn't worried because Shane had told him he was fine. Now he's questioning everything to figure out what he missed.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    shane hollander writes about the events leading to his self inflicted death

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Loving Shane Hollander had taught Ilya Rozanov how to slow down.

    They had a plan now. A life that made sense. Something quiet, stable, and boring. For once, Ilya believed peace might be something he could actually have, not just something he pretended not to want.

    Then Troy Barrett arrives from Toronto and starts looking at what Ilya has built like it’s something he might take. Like peace is something might need too.

    Ilya tells himself it’s nothing. A misunderstanding. He plays captain. He plays fair. He plays nice.

    But loathing has always come easier than love, and once everything starts to unravel, Ilya learns there are only so many times you can choose peace before you are forced to show how far you’ll go to keep Shane Hollander to yourself.

     

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    Troy Barrett wants Shane badly enough to burn with the ship. Ilya is determined to get rid of him before everything between him and his freckled love falls apart.

     

    (Ilya’s POV of the series of unfortunate events best called ‘Troy Barrett’)

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    13 Feb 2026

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    What if Shane started learning Russian after the first time they hooked up without telling Ilya? What if Shane never told him because he was afraid of being judged? And what if Shane actually understood everything Ilya said on the phonecall?

    A quick one-shot where Shane understands everything Ilya said on the phone + one time Shane tells Ilya how he feels about him in Russian.

    Title from 'Talk Talk' by Charli XCX and Troye Sivan

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    13 Feb 2026

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    “You will not be so nice when we beat you,” Ilya told Shane Hollander, holding onto his hand, not letting him pull away. Not yet.

    But Hollander’s brow furrowed, not in anger but in confusion. “Ah, um, sorry,” Hollander said. “Merci. My English is bad. Worse… than you. Maybe slower?” And he leaned in, like that would help him understand.

    Ilya’s eyebrows rose, and his smile widened.

    Or, Ilya Rozanov grew up in Russia. Shane Hollander was raised in France. When they first meet, neither of them can speak English very well. Somehow, it’s easier to understand each other when words aren’t getting in the way.

    (Stand-alone remix of “I’m Reading Your Lips (You’re Speaking My Language)” but this time neither of them are native English speakers, and learning a new language is sort of like falling in love, if you think about it.)

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    13 Feb 2026