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休戦 (kyūsen): meaning cease-fire, truce, armistice
The match versus Japan’s under-twenty was now nothing more than bittersweet history. Now on a mandated two-week break, Rin finds himself in a strange period, not unlike an intermission. Already out of sorts, Rin must grapple with setbacks arising before his progress can truly begin. Outside of soccer, Rin now existed in a vulnerable state like a raw wound. What could Rin do when those in his immediate family started acting so strangely? What was he to do when a rare moment of joy backfired so spectacularly? Things were truly starting to progress for Rin, if an unpredictable spiralling could be labelled as such…
After all, HE was home.
(Or: the author got a glimpse of the Itoshi parents and decided to go all-out with theorising on family dynamics. More of a character and relationship study with a side of plot. Enjoy!)
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“Rin,” a familiar voice called, commanding his attention. Like a moth to a flame, Rin’s mind went blank as his body moved of its own accord, eyes locked onto the one person he had been trying desperately not to think about. Itoshi Sae towered above him, the harsh glare of the stadium lights painting him in an otherworldly glow. Rin’s senses zeroed in on the older and with all other distractions fading away it was like he was looking at the centre of the universe.
A fic in which "the talk" goes down differently post U-20 match.
(Or, the author is Totally Normal about the Itoshi siblings and needs others to appreciate them)
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Rin is drowning; Sae, his parents, the expectations and desperation he imposed on himself to be the very best and finally prove himself to be worth something, anything, were really starting to take its toll… and the U-20 match had been the final crack in Rin’s already sinking boat, in the only thing keeping him afloat and safe from the tumulus waves of emotions crashing around in his mind like a never-ending storm. Day by day, each cold, dismissive glance, each sharp, biting word from what-used-to-be his older brother’s unloving, uncaring mouth continued to chip and crack away at Rin’s mind… and, at some point, the prospect of simply being swept away and forever-submerged by the tides stopped seeming so daunting.
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How will Itoshi Sae, with a deeply-internalized, effortlessly-cold, and emotionally-detached heart confront his darkness-shrouded past, sense-of-self, and relationship with his little-brother when, after a eye-opening, grief-filled night of regret and terror, he realized that the consequences of his actions and the price paid for the perfectly-crafted mask of utter uncaring that he prided himself on were much steeper than he originally realized?
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21 May 2025
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i look at you and feel the same (could you forgive me for that pain?) by kitswag
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
18 May 2025
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Right after the U-20 match, Rin wrecked his body by training harshly, fueled with something said by a certain shitty brother right after the game was over. Of course, Rin figured it wouldn't be his life if his choices didn't absolutely bite him in the back. Obviously, he was still much too half-baked to stomach the train, and his body fell deep into illness.
While the other Blue Lock players were leisurely enjoying their two-weeks-off, Rin was bound to a bed, unable to move. Even worse, his Shitty Brother decided to be present of all times during the break, and naturally, Rin only had him as his sole caretaker, because for the life of him- he cannot even sit up. Once again, looking at this predicament, Rin re-realised that being alive, was indeed such a disgusting pain in the ass.
Or; Rin got sick during the break. Sae is there to help. Emotions ensues. Communication? Well...
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19 May 2025
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Ties That Bind by Imagined
Fandoms: Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, Star Wars - All Media Types
16 Oct 2025
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Commander Cody cleared his throat subtly. “Erm, may I ask, sir… how old is he?”
“I’m nine,” Anakin said. “But really, I promise I won’t be in the way while you fight, Master Obi-Wan. Maybe I can help in a starfighter!”
“Sir,” Commander Cody said. He sounded strangled.
Or: The Clone Wars start a week after Qui-Gon dies and Anakin becomes Obi-Wan's Padawan. Burdened with doubts, new responsibilities, and a former slave child to take care of, a twenty-year-old Obi-Wan finds himself adopted by an army of clones. The clones take care of their own, after all—but then again, so does Obi-Wan.
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21 Feb 2025
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Something was very, very wrong. His body normally didn’t feel this… alive.
A face stared back at him. Wide pink eyes, framed by long blond lashes. Sae's breath caught in his throat.
No. No way.
He lifted a hand to his cheek. The reflection mimicked him. He flexed his fingers. The reflection flexed. His stomach lurched.
He wasn't looking at himself.
He was looking at Shidou Ryuusei.
[ Sae and Shidou switch bodies. Whilst Shidou is enjoying Sae’s lavish, extravagant lifestyle; Sae struggles to mimic Shidou’s wild personality in Blue Lock. But amid the frustration, Sae learns something he never expected: the storm of unresolved emotion, admiration, and longing that Rin has, buried beneath his hatred. ]Bookmarked by TOROtitanium
19 Feb 2025
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FULL OF RAGE, FULL OF GRIEF by chowderpuff
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
10 Jan 2025
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Isn’t this how it always goes, with them? Sae leaves, and he comes back different. He goes to Spain and comes back a stranger, leaves again and comes back a coldhearted judge, looking at anyone, anyone but Rin, and tonight he shows up like a fleeting apparition just to disappear once again into the dark.
“Why does tragedy exist? Because you are full of rage. Why are you full of rage? Because you are full of grief.” - Anne Carson
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04 Jan 2025