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    When Shane stops answering his phone, Ilya drives to Montreal expecting irritation, maybe a fight, maybe another one of Shane’s ridiculous explanations

    Instead, he finds Shane dead in their bed.

    After the funeral, Ilya tries desperately to survive the grief, leaning on teammates, family, and the life they built together. Then Shane starts appearing in places he shouldn’t be, asking Ilya to do small, ordinary things that slowly begin erasing their shared history from existence.

    Ottawa disappears first.

    Then the cottage.

    Then the MLH.

    Then Shane himself.

    And somewhere beneath the unraveling nightmare waiting for him is the life Ilya Rozanov was supposed to have if he had never met Shane Hollander at all.

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    29 May 2026

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    Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.

    Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”

    Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”

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    Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever

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    29 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov wakes up to a best friend, a team, a family, a puppy, and best of all, a husband that loves him. The only problem? He doesn't remember any of it.

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    An amnesia fic that sees Ilya wake to a life that he loves, one that he fought for even if he can't remember what that fight looked like. With the hesitant help of Troy Barrett, he'll do everything he can to keep it.

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    29 May 2026

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    Hayden Pike found out who Boston Lily was through a mishap of his own making, in Boston, 2014.

    Cliff Marlow figured out the truth behind Montreal Jane through the power of friendship and vodka, in Montreal, 2015.

    In 2017, they found themselves working together to cover for the Most Obvious Secret in NHL, while Boston Raiders and Montreal Metros were trapped together during a snowstorm.

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    28 May 2026

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    Alexei Rozanov was dead.

    Shane Hollander may as well be.

    After a hit gone wrong, Shane must pay for killing Alexei Rozanov. Ilya Rozanov, heir to the Rozanov empire, has a plan for the man.

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    27 May 2026