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It had only been four weeks since Bobby passed and Buck felt all of it settling harshly right into his bones. It felt like months had passed rather than just weeks and at the same time, like no time at all. It was no wonder he’d had to come out to the beach all on his own in the middle of the night.
Did he not ask what it was like for Eddie to find out?
Or, Buck is grieving, Eddie is the worst, and Tommy is the soft place that Buck needs to deal with it all. 8x17 and 8x18 fix it fic.
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16 Jun 2025
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What if Buck finally realized after the humiliating blowout, on how Eddie said what was wrong, how he made everything about himself and how Eddie called him exhausting throughout the years they were friends (yes, past tense) and abandoned his plans to sublet Eddie’s place. He still needed a place to live and managed to find a run-down place in North Hollywood that needed TLC.
This is a story where Buck builds back his life one step at a time and heals himself.
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09 Jun 2025
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“I think maybe I should get away for a while.” Buck keeps his eyes down, fixed on his nephew, sleeping peacefully in his arms.
“Oh?” Maddie stills next to him in the middle of folding laundry. Her surprise isn’t a shock, he’s never been the runner in the family, except once.
A grieving Buck and a freshly suspended Tommy go on a road trip. They find themselves and their way back to each other along the way.
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06 Jun 2025
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Evan and Tommy decide to take the plunge to adopt kids. The discuss it between them, with Evan stating that he wants a baby. Tommy goes along with it, wanting whatever will make Evan happy. During the whole process, Evan keeps it in his head that they're going to raise a child together but when it comes time to choose a child, they're drawn to seventeen year old troubled teen Branson Rodriguez. Something about him speaks to both men.
Branson is a broken child just looking for a place to settle and has a lot of trouble trusting others. He's used to being looked down on and tossed aside and he expects these two queer men to treat him just the same. Adults have never taken the time to dig deep and find the root cause of all his issues so why would Buck and Tommy?
This is a story about finding a place to belong, and the love it takes to heal a broken child's heart.
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06 Jun 2025
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I Make The Same Mistakes Every Time(Windows Boarded Up After the Storm) by Minimoon46
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
08 Oct 2024
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“What about you? I hear I wasn’t the only hero of the shift. Howie blew up my phone about you saving Gerrard and having the best little brother in law,” Tommy said and just like that. All the warmth faded.
“I, um,” Buck said, “That was a thing. That happened. In Chim’s eyes, yes.”
Tommy put his fork down, frowning.
“Sweetheart, what happened with Gerrard?” He asked softly, reaching to take Buck’s hand in his.
(OR, after the plane disaster, Buck goes to Tommy's and they discuss what happened with Gerrard, therapy, the long summer, and how much they care about each other.)
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05 Jun 2025
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My Heart was Never Not Yours(There Were Sirens In the Beat of Your Heart) by Minimoon46
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
28 Nov 2024
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“So when you said firsts aren’t lasts, you were truly speaking from experience,” Buck said, understanding. Tommy nodded.
“The moment you said it was your first date with a dude, I had sirens going off, Evan. But I liked you. And when you sat here on this patio and asked for a second chance, I pushed them back and decided it’d be fun. I have never fallen for anyone like I have you. Baby, I have stopped myself from looking at rings. I wanted you living with me within a month of Gerrard’s reinstatement. Seeing you come home in emotional pain was torture for me. It wasn’t fun. It was for real. And then you started talking like you never saw me as anything but some gay mentor you put on some pedestal and I knew I had to run to save myself. If you left me for passion, for someone else, I would be getting over you my entire life. Baby, sweetheart, Evan, there is no one after you breaking my heart,” Tommy said.
(The week that would've been their first anniversary, Tommy reaches out to Buck to see if he can explain himself. They both meet on the patio of a coffee shop they sat at a year previous, wanting to try again and ready to trust.)
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05 Jun 2025
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02 Jun 2025
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What Happens In Vegas (Definitely Doesn't Stay There) by fighterkimburgess
Fandoms: Chicago Fire
02 May 2021
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When Sylvie Brett decided to accompany Kelly Severide to Vegas, she didn't expect to wake up married to him. And when they decided to annul their marriage, she definitely didn't expect to become such good friends with him. But with Kelly's friendship she learns her place in 51, in Chicago, and how to be the person she wants to be.
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26 May 2025
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Or, Tommy suffers consequences for helping Buck and Athena in 8x15, and it turns out the price has yet to be fully paid. Written mostly before watching 8x16 and partly after the emotional trauma.
Featuring sassy Maddie, concerned Lucy, and a BuckTommy make up because for god’s sake we deserve that.Series
- Part 1 of BuckTommy Deserves Better
- Part 3 of Call An Ambulance (But Not for Me)
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19 May 2025
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At first Buck blames grief. Bobby’s dead; it makes perfect sense that he can’t hold anything down, that smelling food makes him nauseous, that he’s tired all the time.
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- Part 1 of Lean Upon the Friends Who See
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17 May 2025
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“Buck, that’s not fair -”
“It’s plenty fair! I am not a child! I do not need to be coddled or made fun of like I was the class clown! I am not your fucking golden retriever that you can just pat on the head and send off with a treat. All I wanted was to be talked to. To have someone to just listen and let me listen in turn but all of you –” He twirled on his heel and almost toppled over. “- pushed me away, told me I was too much. That I was exhausting.”
Weeks have gone by and life is returning to normal for everyone but Buck. As much as he tries, he can't move on. And then one day, all it takes is just one off handed comment to send him right over the edge. He's had enough of this shit and he's gonna let everyone know just that.
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17 May 2025
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“Do you still love him?”
“Who?”
“Winston Churchill.”
“What?”
“My brother, dummy.”
“You’re asking me this now?”
Maddie pressed her hand to the wall of the hallway they were currently walking down, neck bent forward as she groaned. “What else - fuck - are we gonna talk - shit - about?”
Tommy finds himself kidnapped by a snarky pregnant lady while grocery shopping, winds up as her birthing coach, contemplates the world as he had thought he had known it as he waits for news about the building collapse, and gets the love of his life back. All in that order.
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17 May 2025
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Tommy goes grocery shopping, runs into his ex's sister, gets stuck in the middle of a shelter-in-place order, and delivers a baby. Things only get more awkward from there.
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17 May 2025
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Evan sits back on his haunches, unweighting Tommy's legs, and he feels like maybe he could float away from here, unmoored as he is from the bed, from the situation. He's in trouble now, or he will be in a few seconds, but for just this moment he's removed from the forces of gravity, and it feels nice.
"Tommy," Evan says, a tremor in his voice, and that's enough to bring Tommy rocketing back down to Earth. "That wasn't a sext, was it."
Tommy makes a decision. Buck meets him halfway.
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- Part 1 of A tunnel to crawl through
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17 May 2025
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Tommy gets a black eye, gets adopted by nine middle-schoolers, wins a trophy, contemplates his life, and gets his man back.
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17 May 2025
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"Evan," Tommy says, and the brittle look on his face makes Buck stop laughing right then and there. "What's going on?"
"Oh, you know," Buck says. "I'm being evicted."
Buck doesn't find a new home. He makes it.
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17 May 2025
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By the end of his speech, tears are falling from Buck’s chin to where his hands are still stuck, half-reaching out for Tommy’s. “I’m so sorry,” Buck whispers, with his stupid big eyes and his stupid big heart and of course he looks absolutely gutted, because he’s never felt anything but the full weight of everyone else’s emotions, “I had no idea. You never told me.”
“I didn’t tell you a lot of things,” Tommy says, “And I regret it. I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay,” Buck assures him, a tinge of desperation on his tongue, “I—I—I forgive you. I wasn’t there for the first bit, but I’m here now, and—and whatever you need, whatever the—the baby needs, I’ll do it.”
“You’re gonna be such a good dad,” Tommy smiles, and this is the part he knew was going to hurt. This is the part he almost couldn’t stomach. This is the part he knows he has to do more than anything else. “That’s why I’m relinquishing parental rights. The baby’s going to be yours—just yours.”
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10 May 2025
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There aren't a lot of places Buck can sit comfortably with his thoughts, but here—out on the water, body weightless as long as he lies still, no sound but the lap of the waves and the breath thrumming in his chest—here there's nothing in the world to drag him down, no anger no worry and, most of all, no regrets to fill his lungs and suffocate him. Here on the water it's fine that he's alone.
He wonders if Maddie felt alone when she died.
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Five years after his sister is legally declared dead, Buck finds his way to Los Angeles and joins the 118, hoping he can make Maddie's memory proud.
And the universe smiles down on him.
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- Part 1 of Buckley Siblings AU
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04 May 2025
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words, how little they mean when they're a little too late by Polish_Amber
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
12 Mar 2023
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Margaret and Phillip spent years not seeing their children and then slowly got back into contact with them until this point, where they think they’re in a pretty decent place, actually.
Except then Buck gets injured and, as his hospital room fills with evidence of a life they know absolutely nothing about and they meet and hear about people they’ve never heard of (including a child?!), they realise that perhaps it was all simply too little, too late after all.
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Or, the one where Buck builds a family and his birth parents get exposed to pieces of it in the aftermath of 6x10: In a Flash.
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04 May 2025
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How you will heal and you'll rise above by Director_DiNozzo for Sirius4Life
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
04 Sep 2022
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Buck had learned to hate the question, “Hey, how are you?”
The simple phrase had become the worst thing someone could ask. The words made him anxious, upset, sorrowful, and downright failingly. They were a million emotions, all wrapped up in four words and Buck knew only this; he wasn’t fine.
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03 May 2025