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stay through the night, I'd spend the mornings by your side by Elgney
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
26 Dec 2025
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Eddie tried to figure out how to explain. “My, uh, apartment walls are pretty thin.”
“Mhm,” she said.
“So, I can, you know. Hear things. Coming from the other side of the wall. Which, like, I guess is his bedroom.” Eddie’s face was on fire. “So, the second time it happened, I thought, I’ll just wait until he opens the door so I can introduce myself and ask him to keep it down.”
“But then you saw him,” she finished.
“But then I saw him.”
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Eddie just moved to LA with Chris for a fresh start. What he gets instead is an earful of his neighbor’s sex life, several pairs of earplugs, and just maybe, the love of his life.
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09 Mar 2026
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“I'm not in love with you.” There’s a jolt in Eddie’s stomach at that. “I’m not secretly pining for you, or anything like that. I don’t even see you that way.”
“Oh,” Eddie says, then forces out a laugh he hopes sounds casual. Buck’s eyes are wide, honest, like he’s desperate for Eddie to be reassured by this admission, to believe him. And how much clearer could he be? He’s not in love with Eddie. That’s fine. Eddie never expected him to be. His now empty beer bottle hits the counter too loudly, “No, of course not.”
Or: Buck reassures Eddie that he's not in love with him. Eddie feels some type of way about that.
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27 Feb 2026
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So, the first thing that happens is Castiel comes back.
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"Right," Dean says eventually, gruffly. He looks down at his shoes. "I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life, man. It's—you know, yours. Do your thing, love who you love, whatever. I can't really stop you from loving me, if that's what you've decided to do, but I don't—I can't—"
"I know," Castiel murmurs, still just smiling a little, not looking heartbroken at all. "Don't worry about it, Dean, that's all I ask."
"So we're—" Dean risks a glance up, swallowing thickly. "We're good?"
Castiel hums. "We're good."
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30 Jan 2026
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If Buck draws a line from the day of that earthquake until today, he’s pretty sure it would be as red as the string of fate and as strong as spidersilk. When he was living in Eddie’s house, Buck realised just how caught up in Eddie’s web he was and ran away, desperate to free Eddie from the depth of his emotions. Now, even though he’s moved out, a single smile from his best friend reels him back in, and he finds himself wishing for more time in Eddie’s orbit.
So when the ceiling collapses in on them, trapping him and Eddie inside the parking lot, there might be a tiny, microscopic chance that it’s Buck’s fault for jinxing them.
Or, a month after Buck moves out from Eddie's house, Buck and Eddie get trapped underground together during an earthquake and have a conversation that's long overdue.
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19 Jan 2026
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"I can't believe you went for boba without me and you liked it." Buck fakes a faint and falls back into Eddie's shoulder playfully. Eddie smacks at him and grabs him by the waist to hoist him fully upright. May watches the way his hands linger for a moment, and then as if sensing her eyes, he pulls back and slaps them against his waist.
"Are you alright?" Buck looks at Eddie with concern.
May watches Eddie's face panic, and being the wonderful human she is, she falls on the sword instead, "I'm having a gay crisis."
Or: When May's sexuality crisis hits a little too close to home for Eddie the two of them join forces to create May-and-Eddie-Mondays as they navigate their queer identities.
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29 Dec 2025
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The crowd is denser than when they first got here, the music is loud, and Eddie feels old. Well, not old, exactly, but a little out of his element.
When the hell did that happen?
To be fair, it’s been a couple years since he’s been out like this. Not that he’s ever really been out like this before—with the sole intention to get laid. But he can't see himself getting on the apps like Buck and Ravi, so his only option is in person. Which brings them here. Tonight.
Maybe he should have gotten them a round of shots, too, just to take the edge off a bit.
A night out doesn't go to plan, leaving Eddie frustrated but not understanding why.
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29 Dec 2025
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Maddie says, “What's this about a meth lab?”
“Buck has a crackpot theory,” says Eddie, and he can’t keep the fondness out of his voice.
“No, no, okay, listen,” says Buck, grinning at Eddie. “The guy down the street from Eddie is definitely running a meth lab.”
“This is the fourth meth lab he’s uncovered this week,” Eddie interjects. “Since he did that toxic substances training.”
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In which Buck and Eddie do a little off-the-books detective work, a science project, and a lot of flirting.
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25 Dec 2025
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"So," Pepa says without missing a beat, her crow's feet sinking their talons into the delicate skin around her eyes as she smiles beatifically at him. "You love him. What are you going to do about it?"
Eddie's brakes come to a screeching halt again, proverbial smoke coming out of his ears. "I…hadn't got that far."
Right. "I mean, uh, tell him…eventually?" Eddie guesses when Pepa doesn't respond to him and instead stares at him like he's just started speaking Pig Latin.
"Ay," Pepa says in an exasperated little huff. "We used to have romance."
Pepa teaches Eddie how to woo Buck. Buck doesn't quite get the picture.
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04 Dec 2025
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Buck doesn’t know what he’s going to say next. All he hears is the awful sound of splintering wood, a beam emancipating itself from above them. Without another thought, Buck lunges forward and pushes Eddie out of its path.
When Buck falls through the unstable give of the floor, he feels a bone chilling terror. But it’s okay, because Eddie was knocked away. The beam missed him.
Then, a terrible noise like thunder, a mammoth of sound, and Eddie is falling too. Why is Eddie falling too?
Buck takes a great big tumble. Like always, Eddie is right behind him.
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04 Dec 2025
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i know it’s not very sexy when somebody loves you this much and knows you this well by fleetinghearts for greencreekwolf
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
29 Jul 2025
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“I mean,” Eddie backtracks hastily, “that I probably don’t—uh, that I don’t want a hook up. Just the single, uh, kiss. For research.”
“Right,” Buck nods. “For research.”
They turn back to the TV, sipping beers and spooning dessert, room quiet save for the telenovela playing. Buck, gun to his head, could not tell you who or what is on the screen right now. The brave, strong part of his brain has surrendered shamefully, white flag hoisted while the rest of his brain—stupid, stupid—hosts a skillfully imagined supercut of his best friend kissing men. It’s surprisingly new subject matter for him. What’s unsurprising is his distaste for every conjured scenario, discarding each indistinguishable stranger until the reel buffers on something more… familiar.
“Well—”
Eddie waits a patient minute for Buck to continue before asking, “Well, what?”
“I just mean—if it’s just a kiss, right.” Buck pauses. “You could, uh. You could try it with me.”
or, buck thinks kissing men and women feels pretty much the same. eddie’s not buying it. sometimes settling a bet requires kissing your best friend, a lot, for research
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01 Dec 2025
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“Hey, are you okay?” Eddie asks sharply, and it’s only then that Buck realizes he’s shaking, all of the adrenaline he’d managed to sustain throughout the entire hostage crisis draining out of him in a rush, leaving him weak and cold.
“I’m —” fine, Buck tries to say, but it gets stuck behind the lump in his throat that he can suddenly barely get air past, let alone words. A door slams somewhere behind them and Buck flinches, gunshots echoing through his mind and copper flooding his tongue as the reality of what just transpired crashes over him.
It almost happened again, he thinks wildly. It almost happened again.
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An alternate ending to s05e06 Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1.
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30 Nov 2025
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Before Eddie can think of any more excuses, Buck bursts back through the surface of the water with Eddie’s body in his arms.
Eddie looks down at himself, still kneeling on the dock, and then at what is unmistakably also him in the water. Buck sucks in a great gasp of air, but the Eddie in the water doesn’t. His head slumps limp onto Buck’s shoulder, and the puzzle pieces of the last few minutes suddenly fall into place.
Finding himself back on the dock with no memory of how he got there. Buck unable to see or hear him. Eddie’s hand passing right through him.
Oh. He didn’t make it out of the water. He drowned.
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After an injury on a call, Eddie finds himself something he never expected to be...
A ghost.
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28 Nov 2025
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“Were you, uh, dreaming just now?”
Eddie clears his throat.
“Yeah,” he lies, because what is he supposed to say? The truth? He pushes himself up, still keeping himself angled away, scrubbing his palm down his face. “Yeah, I think I was.”
At the very least, it isn’t broad daylight, so his cheeks won’t betray how goddamn hot his face is. He looks over at Buck; the dashboard of the Jeep and the moon in the sky cast a soft glow on his features.
With a sidelong look, a sly little smile pulls at Buck’s lips. “Sounded like it mighta been a good one,” he teases, wagging his eyebrows.
Halfway through their drive from El Paso to LA, Buck gives Eddie permission to let go.
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15 Sep 2025
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Lucy was content with never telling her best friend that she was in love with him, but when a mission goes wrong and forces them to reveal their secrets, she may not have a choice.
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20 Aug 2025
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Five years into his job as a phone sex operator, Buck receives an unexpected call from a very confused man. He does everything in his power to help him through his crisis, but ends up creating a crisis of his own.
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What if it was 1998?
What if Buck 1.0 was the best phone sex operator in the country?
What if S8 Eddie had a sexuality crisis and decided to call a gay phone sex line to try to figure it out?
What if they both ended up getting more than they bargained for?
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29 Jul 2025
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Karen sits on the coffee table across from him, leaning in and placing a steady weight on his knees.
Above them, he hears, “Did something happen to Buck? Should we call Maddie?”
Eddie chokes, sitting upright, and looking over his shoulder at Hen, “No,” he says, voice gravelly. “Do not call Maddie.”
“Okay,” Hen says, frowning. “Why?”
He groans, turning back around and burying his face in his hands again. “Because Bucks probably already told her and there’s no doubt I’ve jumped to the top of her to be killed list.” He looks up. “Don’t tell me she doesn’t have a to be killed list, because I guarantee she does now.”
“Okay. What’s going on?”
He takes a deep breath, shaking his head. “I kissed Buck.”
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09 Jul 2025
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Eddie doesn’t mean to keep setting out two coffee mugs in the morning. It’s just habit — like glancing out the window for Buck’s Jeep, or cooking too much without thinking, or leaving Buck’s favourite throw blanket folded neatly on the couch, even though it’s been weeks since he last used it.
They say it takes sixty-six days to break a habit.
It’s only been eighteen.
Fuck.Or, Buck moves out, Eddie spirals, and a coffee mug becomes his final straw.
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10 Jun 2025
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Eddie freezes at the doorway, tray in hand, the voices drifting from inside stopping him cold.
“Oh, your stepdad doesn’t live with you?” Mark asks, gesturing to a framed photo of Buck and Christopher.
There’s a beat of silence—too long, too loaded.Eddie’s heart stutters, thudding hard against his ribs as he waits, breath held. God's really decided to test him today.
Then Christopher answers, casually, like it’s the easiest thing in the world. “No… he lives in L.A.”
or Eddie overhears a conversation between Christopher and his friend, then proceeds to spiral about being in love with Buck while also being insanely jealous of 118's new recruit
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10 Jun 2025
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Eddie finally has his son back, living with him full time. They still have some issues to work out, some hard conversations need to be had, but they begin to find their routine. So why does Eddie still feel like something is missing?
After months of "learning how to be alone", Buck decides he's finally ready to try dating again. It ends up being about as disastrous as you'd expect.
When Eddie and Chris surprise Buck by coming to visit in LA for a week, Buck has a revelation about how he truly feels about his "straight" best friend. If he can just act normal, everything will end up alright.
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08 Jun 2025
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Buck gets assigned to manage the official LAFD merch account during his recovery (yes, he broke his leg AGAIN), and he enjoys it way more than he’s willing to admit. Twitter? Oh—chef’s kiss.
LAFD Merchandise @LAFDmerch
Every time you don’t buy a mug, a firefighter sighs 😮💨☕️froggychair @froggy
can the mug hold soup?LAFD Merchandise @LAFDmerch
It can hold my emotions so I think it can hold anything as long as you can fit it inside(HTML traumatized me. Why did I spend four nights doing this? Almost died 10/10 would do it again :D)
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05 Jun 2025