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    And despite that... Kaveh is… “Lovesick?”

    Kaveh’s hands move to cover his face, palms muffling his words as he mutters, “It’s—not quite like that.”

    “Well, the ‘sick’ aspect is accurate, at least.”

    “No shit,” Kaveh snorts. “The ‘love’ component, though—it’s, uh—”

    “You’re not in love?”

    He coughs. “The greenhouse in my lungs begs to differ. I—it’s more that my body is mourning a love it knows can’t ever be requited.”

    For all the negative feelings Alhaitham’s encountered over the past twelve hours, the sensation that creeps through him now is…

    Unfamiliar.

    Unknowable.

    Despite all the languages he’s fluent in, Alhaitham is unable to conjure a word or phrase with which he can immediately label it. He just knows that whatever this feeling is, it’s unbelievably unpleasant. Like his body is stationary, yet his internal organs are plummeting into the Abyss.

    “You love someone who doesn’t love you back?” he asks after a moment.

    Kaveh has Hanahaki. That much is known. But who he loves, and whether Alhaitham will be able to save him, is up in the air.

     

    (Haikavah vs. Hanahaki vs. A/B/O dynamics)

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    30 Jun 2025

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    It is easy to imagine, the two of them passing out presents to the children at the fete. Wriothesley handing him a box, Neuvillette’s fingers brushing against his as he accepts the box. Their eyes meeting across the top of the present. A charged, knowing moment passing between them. And then, later, Wriothesley might pull Neuvillette aside, might confess to him that his heart is too full in the way the Neuvillette’s is, and Neuvillette might, at last, have someone to love and be loved by on the Solstice.

    How wonderful that might be.

    What a shame it must remain a fantasy.

    Neuvillette finds himself trapped in a time loop on the eve of the midwinter solstice.

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    Then, Neuvillette lowers his umbrella, and the shadow is gone; back to an ordinary shell, as mundane as the next. But it’s not, is it? The memory of his fixed look will decorate the halls of his mind for weeks, a perfect compliment to the various others of similar stature, a room full of blue and elegance and grace.

    “Keep it,” Neuvillette murmurs. “A reminder. Perhaps, a catalyst.”

    “But—” Wriothesley coughs around the lump in his throat. “I was looking at them for you.”

    “If you were searching on my behalf,” Neuvillette laughs, bright and glorious, “next time, bring me one closer to the shade of your own eyes, Your Grace.”

    Wriothesley's always had a love for the sea, and recently he's also developed a love for the man who always seems to be around it. What the two have in common, well, Wriothesley doesn't know—but he'll be damned if he doesn't get to the bottom of it.

    Little does he know, the sea, and its sovereign, love him just as much.

    or: Wriothesley, Neuvillette, and the ocean, and how each comes together to form their very own fucked-up version of love; but love nonetheless.

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    04 Dec 2024

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    “How the fuck do you know my name?” Dean hisses.

    The man doesn’t look scared. He is watching Dean like there is nothing else worth watching, lips a little parted, eyes a little soft. And blue. Real blue, like the ocean on a postcard.

    The ice spreading down Dean’s spine makes him shiver.

    “I suppose you could say I’m your guardian angel,” the man murmurs. His breath fogs pale between them. All of him is unnaturally warm, like Dean’s touching somebody with the sun sewn up beneath their skin. “I have known you, Dean Winchester, for a very long time.”

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    Dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there.

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    17 Oct 2024

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    Two Deans, one Cas - it's not as sexy as it sounds

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    An ethics lesson from Hell

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    The one where Dean from the past meets Dean in the present. They're not sure they like each other very much.

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    10 Oct 2024