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  1. Public Bookmark 72

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    Ilya hadn't cried the first time his father hit him, but he was crying now. Ilya should have been that light for Shane, he should be uncomplicated and caring. Instead he’s sitting on his own bathroom floor covered in his own blood not even considering how Shane would feel upon finding out their tiles may never recover.

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    23 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 72

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    The irony—that it's Shane who once made everything bearable, and Shane who now makes even leaving unbearable—registers, but without bitterness now, without panic, not even with regret. The dichotomy swirls inside him, and he just watches it spin, as he’s done so many times.

    Ilya thinks, with a strange, aching tenderness, that Shane was the first and only person to give his adult life shape and meaning. The first person who ever made him feel real. Chosen. The first and only person to see him; really see him.

    It's only fitting, he thinks hazily, that you are the last.

    Loving Shane Hollander changes Ilya Rozanov’s life.

    It doesn't save it.

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    22 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 24

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    "𝘐𝘭𝘺𝘢 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘰𝘮.

    𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘥, 𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐𝘭𝘺𝘢 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘥, 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘭."

    After Fabian’s show, and the subsequent sex that followed, Ilya acts distant before Shane falls asleep. Here’s a look into what Ilya may have been thinking during the end of this scene from Chapter 5 of The Long Game.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Ilya has spent most of his life believing that love is something you need earn.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Ilya didn’t feel like himself sometimes, but Shane would always be Shane — the brighter and braver part of him.

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    Ilya is going through a depressive episode. Shane tries to help.

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    19 Feb 2026