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    “You know what that sounds like, baby?” Yuna said carefully. “You could lose—”

    “I don’t care!” Shane snapped. “Let everyone think I’m a slut, a whore—I don’t care! I don’t fucking care about my reputation—or, or endorsement money! Don’t tell me I need to represent—”

    “No, baby,” Yuna interrupted softly. “I meant hockey. You could lose hockey.”

    Hockey.

    Shane froze.

    Hockey had run in his blood since he put on his first pair of skates at four. Hockey shaped his brain. Hockey was why he ate, why he moved, why he dreamed. Hockey was how he made a living, how he found joy when he was free. Hockey connected him to everyone he loved. Hockey was what he was good for. Hockey was his name.

    Hockey was the purpose of Shane Hollander’s existence.

    Tears ran silently down his face.

    Inside, he felt strangely hollow.

    “I… want him back,” he managed to choke out. “I need Ilya back here with me. I NEED him safe.”

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    Ilya was outed at the worst possible time – when he was in Russia. There was nothing they could do to save him. Except one.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    Scott and Eric gave eachother a look that Shane and Ilya knew all too well. The slightly disapproving, how the fuck did this even happen look. It never seemed to bother Shane much, but it always got under Ilya’s skin. Loving Shane was the easiest thing in the world for him, so why did everyone else have such a hard time accepting it? He could understand the initial shock, but it had been two years since they were outed. No one gave Scott and Kip that look anymore, or Eric and Kyle. So why them?

    “What?” Ilya asked, annoyed.

    “Nothing! Nothing,” Scott said defensively. “It’s just still a little weird to me.”

    “Is weird to you that I am in love with a man? You are homophobic now, Hunter?”

    “That is obviously not what I meant. It’s just… you two. Together. It has never made sense. Like some sort of weird enemies-to-lovers trope.”

    Or Ilya defends him and Shane's relationship to their friends, and Shane is stupidly in love.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    Shane’s catching his breath against Ilya’s neck when he feels a tingle on his arm, a sort of pinching feeling on his wrist, and he raises his hand in front of his eyes that blink to adjust to the newfound glow in the darkness.

    365:00:00

    All at once, Shane’s blood runs cold. The timer starts to tick down, a number going down with each minute that passes as he stares, and stares, and… stares.

    or, after saying each other’s first names, shane has a year left to live. and it’s all because of ilya rozanov.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    Shane begins his yoga breathing techniques again. He knew this interview wouldn't go well because Ilya is Ilya—a professional ragebaiter who can't even take the day off for an immigration interview—but he wasn't prepared for this level of Ilya. Like, on-the-ice-chirping-his-own-teammates, singing-Taylor-Swift-lyrics, casually-discussing-territorial-blowjobs Ilya.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    Hayden: Babe.
    Hayden:...do you think Shane could be gay?

    Jackie: Definitely.

    Hayden: Wait, seriously?

    Jackie: Yeah, I’ve suspected for years.
    Jackie: But why do you think so all of a sudden?

    Hayden: Okay, we have to come back to that but.
    Hayden: I got a message from him that I don’t think was meant for me…

    Jackie: What did it say?

    Hayden: You’re going to make me type it out?

    Jackie: Hayden, you’re thirty years old. Type out the message. It can’t be that bad.

    Hayden: Something about missing a cock desperately.

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    09 Mar 2026