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• dabbling in death by galstruck

  Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Work in Progress

  28 May 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Alhaitham/Kaveh (Genshin Impact)
  • cynari mentioned but not really relevant
  • Alhaitham (Genshin Impact)
  • Kaveh (Genshin Impact)
  • Tighnari (Genshin Impact)
  • Cyno (Genshin Impact)
  • other Sumeru characters might be mentioned
  • Other Character Tags to Be Added
  • Hurt Alhaitham (Genshin Impact)
  • Alhaitham-centric (Genshin Impact)
  • Self-Harm
  • Self-Hatred
  • Suicide Attempt
  • twice!
  • Kinda?
  • Fluff and Angst
  • Suicidal Thoughts
  • Panic Attacks
  • Hallucinations
  • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
  • Alhaitham is Not Okay (Genshin Impact)
  • Depressed Alhaitham (Genshin Impact)
  • i wrote 2 of these chapters in spanish class
  • I Can't Believe I Wrote This
  • Why Did I Write This?
  • I Tried
  • i cringe at my own works
  • no beta we die like alhaitham tries to

  Summary

  Alhaitham is struggling. Keeping up a stoic facade is too much work. His newest position as Acting Grand Sage — why did Nahida think he was a good fit? — is too much work. This notion scares him, as his logic has always told him that his work is sufficient for a man of his status. Alhaitham is succumbing to his mind and the little voice in the back of his brain is telling him that he lacks value to the world. He’s beginning to believe he’d prefer being dead.

  Series

  • Part 1 of alhaitham is going through it

  Language:

  English

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  Chapters:

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