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  1. Summary

    An exploration of hunger and restraint starring Kamishiro Rui, and how he's taught to reach for what he wants.

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  2. Summary

    Dragon Tsukasa and Imperial Strategist Rui AU.

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  3. Summary

    Neither Bourbon nor Scotch are NOCs. On one hand, that means Scotch gets to live. On the other hand, Conan's life is significantly harder.

    (Unsurprisingly, it makes no difference to Akai.)

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  1. Public Bookmark *

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    A simple concept: If Dexter had kept up his "heroin addict" alibi, things might've gone a little differently.

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    20 Dec 2025

  2. Rec *

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    Dean Winchester’s been camp manager of a science research station on the Alaskan tundra for thirteen years. Dean likes his job; fixing the camp trucks, troubleshooting the generators, keeping clueless undergrads and NSF bigwigs from walking into grizzly bears or getting lost in snowstorms — it’s all in a day’s work. It keeps him pretty busy, and this year his brother Sam's visiting too, so he's even busier. So it’s really not any of Dean’s business when some weirdo antisocial ornithologist sets up a tent a few miles away, a dark-haired blue-eyed guy who’s doing a “very long-term" study on birds or wings or something, and who never, ever takes off his big lumpy backpack. But then the new guy starts dropping by camp for coffee and... well, he’s not officially part of camp; he's not Dean’s responsibility; he’s really not Dean’s problem at all, but when a strange blizzard comes sweeping in, Dean gets worried and goes to check. Thing is, Dean's spent years in the sweeping vistas of the Arctic. He knows all about the midnight sun and the northern lights, the ice caves and avalanches, the rough-and-ready Haul Road truckers and the even rougher-and-readier wild animals. But even so, what he finds is much more than he bargained for.

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    06 Nov 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    blew my mind. this is a love story to the arctic tundra and to team free will. i'm speechless. what an insanely crafted fic.......wow

  3. Rec *

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    He misplaced his angel. He didn’t hold on hard enough. He got Cas back only to lose him immediately.

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    Cas comes back on a Thursday.

    And then keeps coming back on Thursdays. He doesn’t seem to have much choice in the matter, actually. For the rest of the week, he’s stuck in the Empty, and Dean is left trying to figure out how to save him, how to talk to him—and how to get him out for good.

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    31 Oct 2025

  4. Rec *

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    Dean is addicted to Castiel's Grace. Cas is content to give him as much as he wants, and more. Both get more than they bargain for when their uneasy courtship spirals out of control.

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    24/24
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    30 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    big time fav. i was in rome and skipped out on the pantheon to read this

  5. Rec *

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    It’s September 18, 2008. Castiel is being deployed to rescue Dean Winchester from Hell.

    He lands in Dean Winchester’s motel room in 2003. Things go from there.

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    07 Oct 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    UGH!!!! THERE'S A BULLETPROOF GUY IN MY ROOM!!!