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when a beautiful voice makes an awful sound (nothing feels worse when you're coming down) by soultragedy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Feb 2026
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Ilya trips on acid and thinks about Shane.
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01 Mar 2026
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“Shane,” Ilya calls out. “I am here.”
No response, just the ambient hum of Shane’s fridge. The TV is not on or anything. Is Shane even home?
Ilya walks through the kitchen and past the bathroom, still finding nothing. He heads towards the living room next. His imagination is already going, wondering if this is a surprise of some kind. Maybe Shane will come out from around a corner, launch himself at Ilya, push him up against the wall and—
Ilya’s thought process slams into a brick wall when he enters the living room. He stops walking, coming to a halt by the side of the couch.
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Sometimes, Shane gets…fuzzy. That is what Ilya has taken to calling it in his head. Then, Ilya stumbles upon something Shane hadn’t intended for him to see, and the puzzle pieces start to come together.
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28 Feb 2026
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Shane keeps looking at one build a bear online before him and Hayden go. He’s forced to face the fact he likes things more on the feminine side when it comes to comfort.
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- Part 24 of 🧸Soft Heated Rivalry🧸
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- English
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- 1,032
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- 1/1
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28 Feb 2026
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Shane’s mind has been running all day, Ilya turns down the volume by rocking him to watch the sunset over the lake.
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- Part 27 of 🧸Soft Heated Rivalry🧸
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- English
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- 995
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- 1/1
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28 Feb 2026
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Three things are true about Shane Hollander.
1. He demands perfection from himself
2. He was taught early how to carry pressure without breaking.
3. Sometimes his brain slips backward to survive it.After a particularly bad game, Shane starts slipping, something he’s never done in front of anyone else. Somehow, Ilya becomes the perfect place to land.
Or: Shane copes through age regression and Ilya takes care of him.
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28 Feb 2026
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The Comfort He Craves by MoissaniteMadness
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Feb 2026
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Shane wanted that. And he hated it. Wasn’t this crazy? He already felt different and weird in a world where fitting in was easier, why would he want to add to that?
He wanted to run from it so badly.
And yet.Or: Shane is overwhelmed and needs a break, Ilya suggests age regression. They try it for the first time and it goes wonderfully.
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28 Feb 2026
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Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”
“Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”
He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.
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Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.
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27 Feb 2026
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A Sadness in the Soul (I dreamed it long ago) by heyhospiderman
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Feb 2026
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Cliff thought that in the three years since Ilya Rozanov had joined the team, he knew his best friend pretty well. He knew how the guy liked his coffee, what his favourite car was, what his type in women was and more. But Cliff also knew a different side of Ilya, one he had never intentionally shown him, a side that struggled.
It seemed though, that Ilya struggled more than Cliff had ever thought.
New chapter where Ilya talks to Shane about it!
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TW for description of self-harm and depression!
PLEASE take care if yourself. do not read if this triggers you. Stay safe.Title from Sundowner by Fontaines DC
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27 Feb 2026
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Knowing me, knowing you. by writingaway33
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Feb 2026
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When you spend six hours a day around someone, room with them on trips, and hang out on the occasional weekend, you think you know almost everything about them.
Or, Hayden learns about one of Shane's coping habits.
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27 Feb 2026
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In Between by manyfandomsmember
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Feb 2026
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Hayden fake-flirts with Shane the way he always does: dramatically, shamelessly, and with zero actual intent other than to wholeheartedly piss off Ilya Rozanov
And Ilya, unfortunately, has never once in his life been chill.
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25 Feb 2026
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In which Ilya makes a purchase (and the ways he reckons with it)
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- Part 2 of little
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23 Feb 2026
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Shane Hollander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day by A953gd
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Feb 2026
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Shane wakes up on the wrong side of bed and everything goes wrong. Ilya is cluelessly attempting to pick up the pieces and make Shane feel better.
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- Part 6 of Hollanov
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23 Feb 2026
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Shane hates thunderstorms, it’s a known fact about him. At least they’re supposed to stop by nine.
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- Part 15 of 🧸Soft Heated Rivalry🧸
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- English
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- 1,245
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- 1/1
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23 Feb 2026
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After Shane acquires a concussion during a game, Ilya makes sure to watch over him. Nobody warned him how cranky Little Shane could be when he has a headache.
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- Part 7 of Hollanov
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23 Feb 2026
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Shane is too tired, his brain won’t stop. Ilya makes sure he can close his eyes though.
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- Part 17 of 🧸Soft Heated Rivalry🧸
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- English
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- 1,007
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- 1/1
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- 15
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23 Feb 2026
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After a brutal loss for the Metros, Shane does his traditional after-game routine of meeting with his boyfriend, Ilya Rozanov, in a hotel. This time, however, Shane is met with a baby bottle on the nightstand instead of the regular lube and condom box.
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Ilya convinces Shane to experiment with smaller items to see just how young Shane feels comfortable being. A baby bottle with warm oat milk seem to be the resolution.Series
- Part 8 of Hollanov
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23 Feb 2026
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Shane has had enough of today, he wants silence. Okay, he guesses Ilya can speak softly.
My shot at a non verbal moment.
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- Part 20 of 🧸Soft Heated Rivalry🧸
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- English
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- 1,057
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- 1/1
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23 Feb 2026
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Ilya always refuses to admit he's feeling little, but Shane knows every time- and he also knows how to help.
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23 Feb 2026
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tough to be tender by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Feb 2026
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“I feel fine.”
Fine, fine, fine, fine. Shane can’t seem to stop using that word today.
Ilya hums,
“Good. I am glad to hear this. I never want you to feel bad.”
They’re both talking around the same thing without actually talking about it. Shane’s stomach is in knots. He wants to lay himself at Ilya’s feet and beg:
Just make me do it. Tell me I have no choice. You know I want to. You know me.
(or: shane knows what he wants. it's the asking and letting himself have it that's the hard part.)
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23 Feb 2026
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While babysitting Hayden’s girls introduce Shane to the concept of a blankie, he likes that idea
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- Part 21 of 🧸Soft Heated Rivalry🧸
- Language:
- English
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- 1,008
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- 1/1
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22 Feb 2026