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they say, "you'll get used to it,"
but it never goes away
if I get through this,
I'll never be the same.
or, pieces of shane have been scattered to the wind but at least he had ilya.
at least he had ilya.
at least.
he had ilya.
ilya.
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08 Feb 2026
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and i don't want the world to see me by avocadoestoastyyy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Feb 2026
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incredibly whumpy shane hollander subdrops/has an anxiety attack and austistic meltdown after vegas 2014, soft dom ilya rozanov is there to pick up the pieces
or: extremely self indulgent hollanov subdrop fic
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08 Feb 2026
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His entire brain feels like it’s been scrambled like an egg, and by the time the pain recedes, Hollander and Hunter are being hauled off the ice by their boys. When Hollander spits a pink-tinged glob onto the ice, Ilya tastes blood that isn’t there on his tongue.
or: scott hunter and shane hollander get into a fight on the ice, but somehow ilya rozanov is the one who ends up getting his shit rocked.
a prequel to achilles, come down: a hollanov injury/pain-sharing soulmates fic.
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- Part 1 of the most dangerous thing
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05 Feb 2026
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When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
____Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.
“Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”
“Mom,” Shane managed.
“Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”
Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.
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03 Feb 2026
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"I'm a professional athlete, of course I'm not going to treat my body 'normally'."
"So am I," Ilya reminds him, "and I don't do the things you do. That excuse might work on your mom or your friends, but it does not work with me."
"It's not an excuse, it's the truth."
Watching Shane do this to himself is a hell like no other. Ilya has no idea how to bring it up, but he doesn't have a choice.
He's fucking terrified.
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- Part 2 of cumbersome and heavy
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31 Jan 2026
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"Panic attack," Shane corrected.
"Yes, that. So." He tapped the bottom of the can. "Cold. And sugar. And," he squeezed, tight but not sudden, "this. Pressure. Warm."In which Shane panics just a little harder, post tuna melts. Ilya responds well to panic.
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27 Jan 2026
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you could never lose me by virtual_typewriter
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Jan 2026
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Shane is aware that he is an absolute mess, with hands trembling and shoulders shaking. His breaths are coming in short bursts, quicker than he is able to control them.
The confession sits like an elephant between them, and yet, Ilya hasn’t moved, tracing soothing circles between Shane’s shoulder blades.
“Sweetheart.” His husband’s voice is steady, soothing. “You need to breathe for me, okay? This isn’t good for you.”
OR, after a night out with J.J. and Hayden, Shane wakes up, certain that he has cheated on Ilya. (Spoiler alert: he hasn’t)
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26 Jan 2026
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It wasn’t something he did on purpose. And he doesn’t remember exactly when he started. All Shane knows is one day, when he was 16, he got a bad grade on a math test, and his parents rule was that as soon as any of his grades dipped below a B-, he was off the hockey team.
He was still standing strong with a B+, and with only a couple months left of the year, chances are things would stay that way, but Shane still worked himself into a panic, and before he knew it, he was pinching his upper arm so hard that once he finally loosened his grip, it bruised immediately.
So yeah. That became a thing.
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Shane doesn't mean to hurt himself. It just ... happens.
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Set between 'Heated Rivalry' and 'The Long Game'.
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26 Jan 2026
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The reassuring quiet of boring days by mareastralis
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
20 Nov 2025
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Ilya calls Shane "boring". It's a joke, it has been for years. One night, alone in bed while his husband is out partying, Shane wonders if it could be more than that.
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- Part 2 of Hollander-Rozanov (they hyphenated)
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04 Jan 2026
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Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.
The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.
It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.
There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.
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Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.
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29 Dec 2025
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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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27 Dec 2025
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After a medical technology giant goes missing, Peter is given the task of investigating as his first mission as a Night Agent. When a chilling discovery leads him right back to Rose Larkin, the pair embark on a new quest to figure out what's going on while trying to avoid being the next two dead bodies added to an ever growing list.
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11 Feb 2025
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begging for you to take my hand, that's my man by cozypancakes
Fandoms: The Night Agent (TV)
24 Apr 2023
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The Rome Tome conspiracy freaks attack Peter and Rose outside of his apartment. Peter is terrified Rose will leave him because of the incident and Rose is pissed Peter would ever assume something like that of her.
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- Part 4 of Blind Date AU
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08 Feb 2025
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someday, maybe (i'll wake up there with you, baby) by skittlebox
Fandoms: The Night Agent (TV)
28 Jan 2025
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She lets Scott kiss her on the cheek when he leaves—feels a sense of satisfaction at the way Peter’s lip curls slightly in disgust.
He looks her up and down, doesn’t even try to hide it. Says, “You look good,” like that isn’t the first thing he’s said to her in three fucking years.
She hates—fucking hates—the throb she feels between her thighs when his eyes are on her.
“You don’t,” she says as she gives him the same up and down look. “You look like shit.”
Peter chuckles, scrubs a hand over his chin, like what she said took him by surprise but he finds it fucking endearing or some shit.
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Rose waits for Peter to call. He never does.
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07 Feb 2025
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“Who did this to you?”
Your head shot up a little too quickly at the unexpected company, and the world began to spin all over again. With a groan, you laid your head back on the bartop, hoping the flat wood would help the world right itself faster.
You’d been lying there with your forehead pressed on the cool wood of the bar, sitting directly under an air vent, for the better part of thirty minutes. The Hard Deck’s AC was working overtime to keep the heat outside, and the rush of cold air blowing down the back of your shirt was doing wonders for your sore arms and back.
“Hurricane, who did this to you?”
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29 Dec 2024
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we can't be friends (but i'd like to just pretend) by TrickPhotography2 (TrickPhotography)
Fandoms: Top Gun (Movies)
02 Jun 2024
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Jake's not entirely sure how the bet came about other than being too drunk and maybe a little bored at the Fourth of July party. But after shaking on it with Yale, he agrees to help the new WSO - Ladybug - out with her crush on Rooster and figure out how to get the two of them to the Navy Ball together. With four months to get it done, it'll be simple. But when the reserved aviator is harder to get to know than expected, Jake has to push her to get out of her own way.
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06 Dec 2024
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As members of rival storm chasing groups, you and Tyler Owens have hated each other since the start – well, you were supposed to. Little do you know, Tyler has been head over heels for you for months, and it’s only when he nearly loses you that he realises he’s done with pretending to hate you.
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26 Nov 2024
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After finding out his girlfriend is pregnant, Jake is ready to move in and get married. The last thing he expected was to be hit with a six-month deployment at sea and missing the birth of his first child.
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- Part 1 of D-Day (Jake and Darlin')
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06 Nov 2024
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You’re afraid that all you’ll ever be to your boys is an interlude.
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25 Apr 2024
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Carmy purses his lips and turns back to the table. There's a small gumball machine there. It's a squat little thing with a periwinkle blue base; its typically see-through globe is painted white. The words Get What You Get are embossed on the globe, in a slick, slanted, dreamy sort of font.
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03 Apr 2024