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Eddie tries to ignore the bewildered expressions on his friends' faces as he makes his way onto the small stage. Thoughts like this is dumb, why am I doing this, what the hell am I trying to prove, all run through Eddie's mind. His only comforting thought is at least I can just blame it on the alcohol.
The song he chose might be (definitely is) too revealing, but it's too late to go back and change it as the first notes of the song start to play. He's committed now, so he might as well just go for it…
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or: Eddie pines for his best friend who's already in a relationship with another man, but that doesn't stop him from taking the stage and singing his heart out. consequences be damned. at least, until he walks into Buck's apartment and his heart completely shatters.
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Now, as Buck opens the door looking soft in his sleep-rumpled clothes and unruly curls, all thoughts of what Eddie was going to say flee his mind. All that’s left is the burning need to be close to Buck.
It’s all he wants.
He wants and he wants and he wants. So he lets his instincts take over, hoping he doesn’t completely ruin one of the most amazing friendships he’s ever had with what he’s about to do.
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OR: buck and eddie get caught under the mistletoe and eddie freaks out, leaving buck to question what he thought was impossible (inspired by the end scene in New Girl when Nick kisses Jess for the first time)
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"Eddie, I don't-I don't know what to say." Buck is breathless, his lungs screaming for larger intakes of air but his brain refuses to cooperate with basic functional demands. He swallows around nothing, wincing at the dryness suddenly of his throat.
"You don't have to say anything. I just wanted you to know that you're important to me–to Chris–and no matter what happens, we will always be here for you. And you’ll always be my best friend,” Eddie whispers, his eyes glossy. “I don’t expect you to feel the same way, I’ve already come to terms with that. But…I'm gonna love you anyway, and in any way you let me, Buck, because I can't not feel this way about you. Trust me, I've tried," Eddie chuckles wetly, a splash of pink coloring his cheeks. "I just wanted you to know," he says quietly, looking down at his feet and instantly breaking the connection.
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OR: Eddie confesses his feelings and Buck questions what he believed to be just a solid friendship but may actually be something more, something he hadn't allowed himself to want in a long time.
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Today is cause for celebration. Not for Eddie, it’s actually the opposite for Eddie. It’s more so a day of mourning–mourning for what could have been, what is, and what can never be.
See, his best friend–the man he’s entrusted with his son, his very heart and the center of his entire universe–is getting married today. And to Taylor Kelly, no less. What should be one of the happiest days of Buck’s life is actually the most miserable, soul-crushing day of Eddie’s.
Eddie doesn’t know what’s worse–the fact that Buck is marrying her, or the fact that he isn’t marrying Eddie instead. Because as much as he tried to deny it, to force himself to not feel this all-consuming love for one Evan Buckley, Eddie could never truly carve him out of his heart. He is as much a part of Eddie as Eddie’s own flesh and bones are a part of him.
So, yeah, this day definitely calls for a stronger drink or two or twelve.
OR: it's the day of buck's wedding and eddie is...sitting in a bar, trying his hardest to Not think about buck marrying someone who isn't him
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As he lay there in the bathtub, the liquid surrounding him filled with more blood than water at this point, he can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of disappointment.
Disappointment in knowing he will never see his family again—never make amends for the things he has done—but most of all, in himself for letting this happen. Because once again, it was his own selfish actions that led him here, right to death's door.
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or: post-lawsuit, Buck gets attacked by Chase Mackey in his own home and nearly bleeds to death. Eddie reevaluates his behavior towards Buck and falls apart at the thought of losing one of the two people he can't live without (first 2 chapters are the most graphic/violent, then we get softer as the series goes on)
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“I’m still a firefighter,” Eddie says adamantly. “That hasn’t changed.”
“But you have,” Buck counters. “You used to be the one who talked sense into me. You were the guy who made me think twice. But since you got back from Texas, you’re the one being stupid and reckless. Running into fires against orders, diving off fifty foot bridges--”
“You know, you’re such a hypocrite,” Eddie steps forward, jabbing an accusatory finger into Buck’s chest. “You would have done exactly the same thing if I hadn’t done it first.”
OR: Buck confronts Eddie about his recent recklesness.
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He unlocks the door hesitantly calling out a hello and frowns in disappointment. Buck is on the couch and ... Tommy is in the kitchen. Eddie stands in the hallway, visible to both where Buck is sitting on the couch nursing what looks like a cup of tea, and Tommy is standing in the kitchen, drying some kind of plate with a tea towel, or something, Eddie doesn't particularly care.
"Hi Eddie," Buck smiles brightly from the couch, as Eddie's brain short circuits. His tongue tastes like cotton in his mouth as the possibilities race through his mind of why on earth Tommy would be here. He doesn't like a single option that his brain supplies.
"Hello, Eddie" Tommy says much more coldly.
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Or, Eddie turns up at Buck's house to take care of him, and Tommy is there. For some reason.
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“Oh my God, I’m fine.” Buck says, sounding exasperated. “Will you—will you stop acting like you’re my fucking boyfriend?” he snaps.
Eddie shakes his head, “Acting like... What is that supposed to mean?” he narrows his eyes.
Buck huffs, “You know what it means, Eddie. I can’t—You’re not.”
“Bullshit.”
(Or, after coming back from New México, Buck is going through a lot, and he keeps pretending he’s not. Luckily, Eddie sees him.)
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"Hey, bud, it's okay," Eddie murmurs, carefully laying his hand on Buck's shoulder and shaking lightly. "You're just dreaming."
Buck's breathing stutters but his eyes don't open. Another strangled sound of distress breaks past his lips.
"Buck," Eddie says, a little more urgently. "C'mon, I need you to wake up now."
"No, no don't," Buck mumbles, voice slurred and sleepy and unmistakably terrified. "Not Eddie. Please, I can't - don't hurt him."
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or, after the events in the desert leave Buck unsettled and suffering from nightmares, Eddie looks after him
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Eddie’s eyes are dark, his pupils huge. His mouth drops open a little as Buck comes closer; his chest rises with deeper breaths. He slumps lower, extending an arm out towards Buck, beckoning him.
“You’ve been staring,” Eddie says. He’s not accusing. Christ he’s beautiful.
“I’ve been staring,” Buck agrees. What’s the point in lying now? He slides off the couch and onto his knees on the floor between Eddie’s spread legs.
Eddie inhales sharply, making room for Buck’s body. “I’ve been trying to give you space.”
Buck frowns. “Me?”
or: Buck's staring problem becomes the rest of his life
Series
- Part 26 of Buddie Ficlets